Saturday, October 9, 2010

Intern .. Mobile .. Life


Those were days when i receive a call , a smile spreads over my face like a omlet spreading over kadai .. I ll be curiously waiting for calls . Those midnight chats with Her s [plural ] , texting early morning days ve gone. Now I feel these things happened a decade before . My life for past 6 months has changed from my normal course n now running to keep up my time. Life s Hectic .

But nowadays when i receive a call i give a deep frown before attending it. The
caller ll be old nurse calling me to Hosp saying patient got this complaint n
that complaint. U cant spend time for urself . Just when ur relatives come home
u get a call saying a case s very bad come soon to hosp. In all wards ur name n mobile number ll be sticked to walls like a wanted List. U dont know from which '
ward u ll get a call n for what. Most of the time the call ll be for unnecessary reasons . Those stupid staff could handle it but she prefers to disturb u. Bcos
of this i feel i got no time for me.


No way i could manage time n spend time for myself .Those were days when v all
used to ve lots of fun within a single room. V never needed a separate place to make fun .Just anywhere our very presence ll lift d mood n make us feel light.

Now i go for lots of Treat with my co-intern n v all laugh together but never feel
light or enthusiastic . I observe a pattern of false smile n fun round the Dinner
table. I dont like these kinda NEED TO LAUGH pattern . So i become a silent
spectator among them. Those days with my friends can never be brought back or
replaced. New friends r just to be named as Professional friends I say . Its like
going somewhere to break ur work stress.


Being said this s how my life s going to be . Its the choice i made so no turning
back.

I feel lots of lots of things ve changed in my life . Like those midnight
calls ve been shifted to 3am morning n early morning texting ve now become
my Noon routine. Then regarding time management i ve been complaining
For 23 yrs Nothing could be done on it :).

So wats this .. every Intern complaining about their life style change n saying
not able to manage time.I ve never seen anyone of my friend managing time
or being punctual . so y complaining Now. The above things r just a small addition
to our routine Life. Its not that v ve lost our life. So sad i ve also been in this
category . If ppl scold or irritate us in work ,so wat?? v ve faced similar things
when v were a student. At that time v were able to forget n overcome it but now thinking ourself as grown up v take it as an Embarrassment. Why to think
or ve an Illusion that v r grown up when v r not. I'm proud to say i'm still
Immatured n dont know the real world . ya few of my batch Gals even gonna get
married ,it doesnt demand me to be so serious n stiff matured guy. I cant change
for others . I prefer change shud occur from ur Inner sense . And I'm patient
enough to wait for it. .. Till then i ll be what i'm now..

see ya Folks .