My Experience With Me . . .

2011-A complete year !!

2011-12-31T23:50:00.003+05:30

Those who r in hurry n want to rush through this post to know about my
2011 need not waste ur time reading all stuffs in this post , just read the
summary n quit the post bcos rest is going to be nothing new.

SUMMARY :

   2011 is the worst year i ever had !!
                                           I lose ,
                                           I lose n
                                           I lose the left over too ...

   [ Thank u for reading the post. Happy new yr for u ]

Every New year i used to feel dull irrespective of the happiness n the friends
i got around. A kinda dullness that cant be explained n analyzed , its bcos
every NewYear eve i used to feel that i haven't lived the year completely n i
got nothing to feel proud that the year is ending.This problem is due to the
problem free year . Yes, a year with dates rolling regularly , time flowing
circularly , with regular circadian rhythm i felt bored that what life is this
without no thrill and no huge failures to assess ourselves , no loss that hits
u hard enough that u cant stand. Nothing happened all these yr i never agreed
completely that one should celebrate New year.

But this year gave me a complete year in every sense. A year full of ups ,
downs,downs n downs .I never felt this desperate in my life . I never was
this shaken in life before. I never knew people this much before. Life took
a heavy toll this yr n i dont complain life ,bcos i got few others to complain.
I look at this year still at disbelief n wonder can things happen such like
this in life.



Love / hatred / betrayal / selfishness / hopelessness / lack of confidence /
people's real face ..
this year was nothing short of a novel "The Count of Monte Cristo "
and felt many times that my life is in chatteau d'lf and still feel so by
losing the control over time n mind .Hardly i cared about whether its
day or night for me both means nothing. FYI i finished my degree
n had to be in a room all day this year to prepare for my future ,hope
this makes u atleast understand few things about me . But the most
problems were not about career .



The year ends with a historically low level of confidence and self belief and
i dont believe in wonders that from tomo everything is going to be fine bcos
its a new year .Nothing is going to change until i get control over myself and
start to move . so the coming year is going to be hard and dont know when
things will change and when i can get back to my normal mode.

Lots of people to remember from this year without them this year wouldnt
be complete. Few people gave the worst things they can give to anyone
to make my year :) Thank u guys ! you made my year and i ll remember you .

Life never hit me this hard before and i was down before i could realise
what had happened. 2012 is going to be the continuation of 2011 in many
ways n lets see what happens.

   "Every stone cant be named in this world"

-sivasankar.

Few stones helps u and holds u to get high and few stones make u to slip .
But the reality is stones cant be named under a general category like this,
few stones which slipped u once can help u in other way and the stones the
helped u ,can make u go high and finally pull off to give a fall from which u
can never rise. So are people in life , Good and bad are never permanent.
People good to you may turn out to be the worst predators u ve ever seen
and people u thought who r bad gives a shoulder when u r left alone to rot.
The thing i learned or realised this year are that everyone cant be
explained under a relationships .Few things cant be defined and better dont
go to define just live with them like neighbors . Relationships are so
primitive with few characters ,you cant explain every person and every
person at every point of ur life under a relationship.

With lots of confusion and lots of issues to address the year ends and so the posts
with a low note :) Happy new year to u guys.

Murphy's Law Of Government Hospitals

2011-12-19T01:45:00.000+05:30

"A patient rushed to Out Patient(OP) room in wheel chair doesnt mean he is

very sick than the one struggling to stand in a lengthy crowd "

You can see this many times in OP, Doctor doesnt gets panic on seeing a
patient rushed in wheel chair n he casually attends other patients n make
the wheel chair guy to wait. Common people who see this think the Doctor
is heartless and the doc sitting in OP always ve a grumpy look which
perfectly add to their accusation. The real truth is that a patient coming in
wheel chair in government hospital means merely that he has bribed the
ward boy/stretcher bearer so he pushes him n even recommend to the doc
asking to examine him first.

"The more elaborate u speak ,the less likely u get an admission"

Many people think govt hosp as a rent less hotels ,so just when they wish
so,they come here tell all impossible syndromes so that they get admitted
for a week n get rich dose of Vit injections and Glucose trips n get
discharged when they wish. The worst case in this is son/daughter bring
their parents to hosp n say all non-senses so that they can admit them in
govt hosp where bed and food are given for free of costs and they can run
away. These guys r easy to find n you dont need to be a genius to know
their intentions ,these guys ll look stout with a strong aroma of a local
perfume in contrast his mother ll be in rags n boat stomach , this guy ll
use couple of English words to describe illness n he keeps on speaking.
The doc listens to him patiently n gives a smile which only the Intern n
Post-graduate sitting opposite can interpret n finally says no to admission.
The guy who brings his parents to hosp thinking its a dumpyard get
furious n speaks these Doc r not working properly they ll admit patients
only in private hosp not in govt set up ..etc etc, he even goes to the crowd
waiting there n tells his story of how doc here r refusing to take care of
his lovely/dovely parents . The doc watches this all n never tries to
correct the facts or owe an explanation .

"When u smile and respect excessively to a Doc in ward it does not give u a
bed to sleep , but when u smile n respect a little to a staff thats enough to
fetch you a bed in ward "

You might not know that a ward ll be having around only 20 beds in
ward but the In patient strength in that ward ll be close to 65 , so now
u can guess the the prospects of getting a bed in ward. so only 20 patients
get a bed n rest got to sleep in floors in ward . So few follow a cheap
tactic of wooing the Doc by saying lots of sir or even taking him to the
height of god but he never gets what he wants , but few brilliant people
smile n respect staffs in charge of ward and the result is they get a bed
within 30 minutes.The only thing these staff want is respect n recognition
for their never doing duty of ward in charge.

"It takes 5 yrs to tell that a thing is abnormal but takes 20 yrs to tell a person is Normal "

Its a common slang among medico community n u would ve heard it often in
your Chief's OP class if u r medico . The same goes with Biopsy report,
CSF study and Blood culture report. Considering that most
govt hosp are there over decades n pvt hosp r just a half decade old.
This is why most of the biopsy reports comes Normal study in govt dep n
in contrast with abnormal findings in pvt hosp :P

" Most of the Midnight urine samples are highly likely to come as urine
sugar one plus and acetone positive "

The Lab workers who come for Night duty are so optimistic guys that they
come to job with a bedsheet with them hoping to doze off before 10o'clock.
So when u bring a midnight sample for test the report collector just pours
the sample in sink n take the pen n write a positive value for anything
eventhough the previous value was normal. As i said before they r
optimistic guys so they go for positive value . Most of the guys who
try to cheat follow this code .

" A repeat of Normal Ultrasonagram study is highly likely to come positive for mild pleural effusion or mild ascities "

We all know the shortage of radiologists in Govt hosp n the heavy crowd
waiting for USG daily so the last thing they want is the same patient again
coming for repeat usg.

" A govt hosp x-ray film is like God "

We can never define God ,who ever u may be,which ever religion u may be
but when one comes n asks u to describe God n where u can see him , your
answer ll be "Its everywhere n u cant see him alone ,he is within everyone".
The same thing goes for x-rays , there ll be a dark shadow everywhere n
lesion is definitely within these dark shadows,like God among us .

P.s : Post not intended to hurt anyone . If someone feel hurt ,mail me ..i shall give a apology declaration in my next blogpost !!

Electricity and Me ...

2011-12-12T20:36:00.000+05:30

This is the story about my first contact with electricity. Electric current
puzzled me right from my childhood. It all started first time when i observed
that when a switch is on, fan runs. I wondered how is it possible n asked
the reason for it. They said current runs from here to fan n makes it run.
Back then i know only three basic mediums solid,liquid n gas[till now i know
only three]. I asked which category it belong to my bro, n like
all elder bro he pushed me aside when i asked question beyond his intelligence.

Then i started to observe each n every electronic instruments n wondered
what is electricity.Suddenly one day my brother came running to my mom
saying "i got a electric shock when i touched the switch for refrigerator".
Then my family members started using that switch board with utmost caution
n they never advised me not to touch it bcos i wasnt the height reach the
switch board. I went to my bro n asked how was the shock ? expalin , n once
again like all elder brother he exaggerated things to show off in front of his
younger bro n make him feel that he is much grown up n experienced about
life. He said it was like some one pulling my hand inside , u can hear n
ringing noise in ur ears , ur whole body jolts even after withdrawing
from the switch n ur teeth goes ewwwww.. etc etc. Even by that age i know
he is exaggerating but still was excited on hearing the effects of getting
electric shock.

So i decided to know about electricity further more n yet again no one
gave ears to my doubts or never bother to explain me.This is the problem
i had when i was young. They never discuss anything with me n even when i
ask doubts in btw when they r speaking i ll be scolded for not behaving well,
there was a rule for me in home that i shud not interfere when someone
is talking n not ask what it means, although this might look rude for u guys
but considering the options it was the best rule they made bcos of my
irresistible n nuisance questions especially while watching tv. Few are like,
those days there was only DD channel n they telecast movie only once in a
week n when they do so the whole family in India ll be sitting in front of it
since no other channel was there u cant change to any other channels
while advertisements r running .There used to be only three chairs in our
hall , so i always used to lay down in front of them n watch tv. One day when
they were showing LUX soap ad , a woman ll be bathing in bath tub ,i
suddenly ask my family "why this girl is bathing without closing the door ?"
The whole family gets stunned n wonder what to answer n they remain
silent , when i go for the same question second time they give me something
which makes me not to open my mouth till the movie gets over. The worst
one in this kind is while wathing ROJA film in first night scene
the light ll switch off n i ask in loud voice "why. why. they switched off the
light ? i cant see anything ? n what they r doing now ? " . Now u may find the
above rule not so rude :P .

May be this continued to long that most of childhood i couldnt figure out
what my parents r speaking ,so i used to add a head n tail to the story n
make it a complete story.I think this quality made me the natural gossip
teller later n i was one of the best in speaking gossips in college.

Coming back to electricity , this amusement was going for a short time in
controllable manner till i watched the film "BHAGA PIRIVINAI" a shivaji
ganesan movie in which shivaji ll get a shock n go one limb paralysed n after
lots of sufferings he ll again get a shock n his limb turn back normal..
My thoughts were running furious after watching this , how
come its possible to make one paralyse n reverse it by electricity.
Now i decided to start my test with electricity n know what it is . First i
chose a LED buld from old box connected it with two wires n put it direct
into the plug point socket , a glow came for a second n it got burned
.I ran back to my room n pretended to sleep ,later evening when no light
or fan was working in home they found that fuse has gone n i was the one
who did it.I was taken care well but yet again i repeated the same thing this
time with removing torch bulb n connecting it to plug point.
This time the intensity was much worse n later i was take care very well
such that till this date i dont to it again ;).

Now my focus swifted from electricity to electric shock , bcos in btw these
years my bro experienced two more shock n was again explaining /
exaggerating about his adventure. I wanted to feel my maiden shock , i was
going mad to experience shock. I used to touch all electronic
things in rapid touch to get a shock. Like i used to run my fingers behind the
fridge which ll be having a guitar like strings from top to bottom , i felt nothing ,
then used to touch tubelight nothing happened . It went on for months finally
the day came , once i was asked to connect the tv antenna pin back to the
socket ,while i was doing i saw a spark coming when i touched pin into
socket , now i gave wide grin , i know i found what i was searching ,
i left the pin down n within a matter of seconds i plunged my finger
into the tv socket !!! boooooom ...

I was wrong .My bro was not exaggerating about the shock he was right
this one time!! Felt a alarm in my ears , someone pulling my hand inside,
my mouth went dried . Everything was picture perfect like he said. That
was the terrible lesson i learnt n that was the end of all my experiments
regarding electricity.

MORAL :

" Our childhood interests is were our potential lies n parents must
encourage this"
this is a widely used now a days.But its not correct in all instances.
Being such a crazy fan of electricity , physics was my toughest subject n
as a matter of fact i never understood about electricity , it was the low
scoring subject throughout my school days . I never understood what is this
step-up n step-down transformer , AC generator ,DC generator etc.
So just bocs ur kid plays with paper rocket dont think his interest is in
Rocket science . Period!

15 Weird Habits

2011-11-25T17:48:00.001+05:30

So I was tagged by Arunkumar [No!No!dont bring ur cursor over his name],
I havent linked his blog here, I dont want his followers list to be increased,
u see. Usually I dont take tags because usually i dont get tagged by bloggers.
But i accepted to do this tag because its full of narcissism and i felt i can express
more free here.Here you go ...

#1. What's a nickname only your family calls you?

"Thambi" I dont know how this name stick to me,may be i'm the second/last
son in family but i get kinda annoyed when my parents call me this name when
i'm outside and the worst part is i turn to look when someone in streets calls a
stranger as thambi, thinking they are calling me.

#2. What's a weird habit of yours?

I can never sleep in complete darkness. I need atleast a few lines of thin light
somewhere illuminating my room. I still use a Zero watts yellow light in corridor
which glows all night n fills half my room with its glow ,also i dont use curtains
for my room.Thats y I find it difficult to sleep in Hotelrooms with full curtains
and not even a Goodnight Liquidator green dot light.

#3. Do you have any weird phobias?

Yes.I have. I'm claustrophobic to some extent.I'm too egoistical to admit it and
i ve never admitted it to anyone. I never use Lift as my first option. You can see
me in shopping mall/RMKV/Chennai Silks everywhere where i ll be using steps
and even urge people coming along with me to come by steps, when they insist i
give lame reasons like lift ll be crowded or give a enthusiastic reason like
"before lift hits our floor i think i can reach the destination floor". I dont ve
serious problem with it so kinda never think ways to get out of it.

I still remember when i was 8th grade, i had a head injury and was subjected to
CT-scan ,i feared like anything being in that room and was chanting god's name
continuously.The moment the automatic stretcher took me in deep to be
scanned i literally felt i'm boxed and my coffin is moving in, flashing all those
cinema moments of funeral.During these moments i keep on chanting
God's name and i feel silly about myself doing so , so i better avoid
such circumstances.

#4. What's a song you secretly LOVE to blast & belt out when you're alone?

It depends on the mood and time , nothing very specific.

#5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves?

Its towards people who will be smiling at me n speaking very warm but in
between when they get a call from servants they yell at them with a face
and then once back to me they again show the smiling ,warm face. The
fraction of second people changing their emotions really pisses me and i
start to wonder what expression they ll give for me once i leave the scene.

#6. What's one of your nervous habits?

I pull both my lips inside n chew my lower lip and then when situation get
intensified i start to pull my hair.

#7. What side of the bed do you sleep on?

Always the side opposite to were i keep my mobile.For past 6years mobile has
been a bedmate and I face the other side of it bcos of the late night disturbing
light n vibration buzz it gives when it receive a message or call.

#8. What was your first stuffed animal & it's name?

I think i had one small sponge dog and day n night i used to abuse it by pulling
its head from body or pricking its eyes.This is the problem i had with all toys
during my childhood ,i get a doll or toy but i never knew what to do with it n
start to break it.My only exception would be then that time famous Complan
COMMANDO toy ,it was a wired toy so i can flex its arms n legs while
saying Dishum!Dishum during fights, rest of my toys were rigid plastic or
metal one which i hated till it was broken.

#9. What's the drink you ALWAYS order at Barista?

sorry i ve never been there.

#10. What's the one rule you preach.. but never ACTUALLY practice?

"Stop advising me ; i ll ask you if i need one"

#11. Which way do you face in the shower?

Morning shower - I dont face it and receive all water in my back bcos i can never
stand in freezing water with face up. Skin of back is tougher and less
sensitive,meant for this purpose i guess.

Evening shower- I stand front of it and like to receive all water over face , feel so
refreshed when water flows furiously over my face and get a philosophical touch
that all the worst things of the day is getting washed out and i'm fresh.

#12. Do you have any 'weird' body 'skills'?

Nothing very skillful except i can lift my left eyebrows alone without showing any other expressions in face.

#13. What's your favorite 'comfort food'/food thats 'bad' but you love to eat it anyways?

Argh! I think its cauliflower , i used to eat a lot of fried ones even when my Dad
warns me that it ll cause hypothyroidism.

#14. What's a phrase or exclamation you always say?

" Its a Dog job!! "

#15. Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing?

[ i think this question wont amuse any of my readers]
Just as usual night pant n light shirt.

so i'm done with it.

P.S: I dont know anyone much in blog so i cant tag anyone moreover this
tag i too long and a bit tiresome so i dont want to stress anyone :)
Let it all end here :p

Kolaveri di ...

2011-11-24T02:37:00.001+05:30

This song is topping all charts and i must admit its catchy. Simple beats
with weird lyrics. Twitter n Facebook is going wild over this song.I was
reluctant to listen to it again n again but when i heard the songs for second
time i got stuck with a line n cant take it out of my head. The line is

"God I'm dying here ; she is Happy How-u- ? "

The song looks so funny but when u listen to it closely u can see lots
of true words from heart are filled in this song , after all Dhanush is one
more Soup boy like all of us :)

P.S: But seriously wish people dont treat this as a trend and flood by making
songs like this and annoy us .

Insomnia.. at its Best !!

2011-11-20T01:01:00.010+05:30

"Woman think Men's heart is Like LasVegas filled with fantasy and Bitches;

they ll never know men's heart is much deeper than them " -shiva.

Insomnia is not a new thing to me.During school days usually Sunday night i

become Insomniac ,two reasons one a heavy lunch followed by a powerful nap

[school days i eat proper lunch only during sundays ,rest of the week i just

ve few pieces of dosa or puri from early morning packed box] and another

reason the annoying start of another week.Although it wasnt a worrisome affair,

those days i dint even know rolling in bed sleepless is called insomnia.

Then comes the college life.This period i ve been insomniac for many days,

although many reasons can be cited out, the main n the most common reason

would be late night phone calls followed by texting when the balance hits

low to continue the call ;). Had couple of worst headaches in the next day

morning due to this but it was like i said college life and you dont ve

any pressing appointments the next day so when u feel dizzy u can happily

sleep in class or better option bunk the class and ask your friend to

give proxy .

Life after college is different.Life is slow and dragging. Insomnia is at

its best now a days. Its like i have been consistently insomniac for the

past 3 months.Not a even a day i have escaped from it.The reason is obvious

that all day i spend within a room and i got no job outside except so called preparation.Its not that i got no time to go outside,mind has formed a circle

and wish to stay within it. so who dares to fight our mind !! me no exception

to that,so just follow its instructions.Mind has its own running problems

within it and feels to stay low. Everyday i go to bed with the hope that i

ll doze off in ten minutes and fail miserably. Now a days my normal sleep

time starts around 4am and i sleep till 11am morning.Few days i sleep

afternoon which makes things worse night, the irony is for the past 1 1/2

decades i believed that when we dont sleep afternoon v ll get a tight sleep

night.The hypothesis is crushed to garbage, that even when i dont sleep

noon nothing changes considerably.

I feel the lack of any tiny extent of physical work in a day is the main

culprit but like always when i blame ,i dont blame singular. Mind also

has the considerable part in this crime.Mind never lets u off free,always

clitches to some unwanted past and ditches out every worst things n few

happy moments n run in non-stop in visual hologram ,so hardly u can

shut down n say sleep. But i'm in no mood to get any help for this or get any sedatives.I'm kinda adapted to it now, just dont beg around saying sleep

come to me,come to me.No more such bull shits i just stay awake in bed

and wait for the mind go numb and finally doze off. Million times i would ve thought why dont i use this sleepless time constructively ,all the

million times this thought ends up in sleep !

A SCENARIO

Last night when i was going through this same sleepless phase a thought

crossed my mind and however hard i tried to push it away it stayed running

around again and again, so finally i decided to take that topic into

discussion. The scenario is this " God freezes time for a minute , no one

watches you, you can do anything in that 60 second freezing zone, no crime

ll be launched on you after the time is over, its like virtually it dint

happen at all, now God gives you a Gun with only one bullet , will you pull

off the trigger ?? " I was like what the fuck i'm thinking about this and

all.But after a moment i thought to decide about it ,so was digging all my remote,

recent past and scanning through all people i dint like in a way or

other and finally after ten minutes considering all my past i decided.

I think i ll pull the trigger at that one person !! and even make it a bit

theatrical by saying "This is me at my most masochistic!!"

[Courtesy:Kill Bill]

I felt a bit sad by this decision but still i want to make it a entry here

with this month and see in future whether i would like revert back the

decision or not.Because i can feel a heaven and hell difference between

November 2010 and November 2011,November 2010 was one of the best months

in my life, Life changes in a rapid phase so lets see what i feel when i

read it later.:D

P.S: Then i see lots of passerby in this blog in recent days, the yellow box in

the right side of my blog Histats which tracks the viewers with date,time,

no.of pages viewed , time spent per page etc says so ,although there are

nothing in comments box.Dont know the reason,may be just google search

for specific words is pulling them here.Whatever it is all those passerby

dont drop any plastics here, plastics are banned in my blog and my blog

is a eco-friendly blog so no smoking when you are in this space ;)

Exam Season

2011-11-14T23:24:00.004+05:30

"Mind is just a wheel n heart is the engine , u can push ur wheel for few minutes but can never make it run till ur heart decides to fire the power " - sivasankar.

With november AIIMS 2011 my exam season for 2011 comes to an end. If u r
curious to know about my exams, i would say no need of it because if i ve done
well i would be discussing this topic in facebook public wall. In my opinion
this 2011 exam season [All India jan 2011, Tamil nadu march 2011, AIIMS nov 2011] is nothing short of a disaster. From the sequence of exams starting
from march to November every exam was a disaster and there wasnt much improvement through this phase. Thats when i realised the above quote by
a unexplored philosopher.

Exam hall is the place where all weird feelings run in your mind.Its the time all
ur ghost people from your past comes to memory and start to cloud your
thoughts [ reading this i want no spammers to link their yoga Cd online buyout
in my comment box for better concentration power , i already got shilpha shetty
yoga CD n i watch it seriously with wide open eyes n deep exhalation ] .

More than that exam hall is the place where u remember all people who have advised u in the past from childhood. Yesterday in exam i got two bubble of
such things, one my VIII grade science teacher coming into the bubble n saying
"sivasankar u r a good boy but u r trying to pretend like a rogue ,stop it n study
hard , u ll become a successful man " . I felt for her ,how sweet she was during
those school days ,she even used to share her snacks with us n taught us to eat
the hibiscus bud saying its good for health.. I replied the bubble saying i'm still
the same school good boy mam except for the couple of affairs in my college.

Then came the next bubble of thought within which i found my pharmacology
professor , he was telling in every class to take notes n said few points saying
its important for PG exams which i never listened . I even wondered how many
question would ve come from the points which he asked to underline n i was
lazy to do so..

I had lots of time to scratch my chin n even take some close shots at the girl
sitting next to me to confirm that she is not cute n my first impression was
right. More than that my exam centre was near airport n made a huge noise
everytime when a flight took off. I counted 17 flights from 10 to 1 pm n wondered
when i ll take my first air travel.

After all this misery to while away time finally they let me go by 1.30 pm after
all checking and once again walked out with despair without knowing what's
next to be done..

So for me 2011 season of exams are over.Thats something i can be happy about ;

P.S : The toughest thing post-MBBS is explaining your failures to parents.So i
prefer the below expression rather than explaining when Father asks "How
was the exam?? "
;)

November

2011-11-07T00:10:00.005+05:30

Its sad my blog is going like a entrybook .So finally November has come.

"The toughest thing in the world is to convince yourself".

Life is just illusion of pleasantries and we are awaken from the dream by unpleasant happenings. Its like only when u r going through
ur rough patch of life u realize u r living in this
world with real persons.The moment this thought gush through ur mind u feel a
instant hatred for people ,i mean the real world people and you feel all people are mean n cold. Blah!Blah! what the fuck is going on in me.. I agree its a tough
time for me but the thing is that i ve lost myself makes things tougher.
The guy who points black people's intention ,narrows n finally
zeroes the part in my mind causing the commotion n
tries to throw that part out of mind is missing for quite sometime now, n feeling hard to cope up without him.

Although i remain solid as ever n dont whine to others , the thing is tough this
time probably because of my breach in self defense n not able to exactly point
the location of the culprit n pull it out of mind. Dont expect me to make a
statement that i shud never got involved in this , nah ! nah I stepped into this
at my own will n tried to go through it even knowing all the after effects ,
probably this time i was overconfident about me n got slipped. Just when u
believe more in you God turns his dice to roll things to go unpredictable ,thats
what he does ,the worst opponent just to make the game more interesting
he turns things to any side with less rules n i must admit i was caught by
surprise by his move n though the move is slightly against rules u cant
complain when u r playing against him. So this time he wins or to be precise
he made the person on his side to win over me.

Truth and lies have a very short life than ours. A truth or lie cant stand ages like
a rock. All real life events that you see , you hear n you feel are true for the
moment but when the person goes in another direction all the truth takes a
U-turn at you n start to become lies n make a fool out of you. Its how u take
up those truth turned lies which come at high speed against you in the same
lane decided who u are . You may run backwards for few moments to avoid
the crash but the more backwards u move more is the pace it gets acquired and
you may get hit very badly. This is what i'm doing now n this is what is should
stop doing,and face those lies which was masked as truth once.

Though I still got the weapons to destroy the opponent, i dont intend to do it..
According to me thats called POWER. You can rip a person into pieces n
can destroy what all they got but still u dont . [ Courtesy:Schindler's List] .
Let them live their life.

As always i say this is not the November i thought ,i was dreaming a different
November ;).

P.S: With this November i'm completing 3 years in blog. Life has changed
considerably through this period. So let me greet myself with a nice bouquet :))

Remember Remember !!

2011-11-04T22:49:00.003+05:30

DATE:25th OCt,2011.

October 25th .. night 11.45pm ... i got a call ...

P.s: ok i ve completed the post ;). Just made a entry to this blog about this date to
keep it documented . Its a very special date n i had a special phone conversation. oops i cant elaborate anything on it.

Teen Times ..

2011-08-27T00:32:00.003+05:30

TRIVIA [ From teen memory ]

"Silk" Smitha was initially called as smitha n she got the Tag after acting
in a film called SILK SILK SILK . Although the title has three silks , silk smitha
acted only in dual roles, one a police cop n other fisherwoman.If my memory
serves me right i think the fisher woman was called as silk ,the film became a
instant success n the character bought her so much fame it sticked to her till
last minute of her life. (u wont find these details even in ImDb , i bet :P )

People reading this might think why did i come up with such a topic??
Not to mention my blog is a vegetarian one , and
kids n woman roam this place without any harm or inconvenience ,u might
think " Is it right to talk about her here? "

The reason i brought this topic today is that today i happened to watch the
Teaser of the film THE DIRTY PICTURE . As u all know its a story based
on silk smitha's life. I feel this attempt is just to mint money out of her past
like Spielberg brought back Dinosaurs, the similarity is still more between
both films ; they dint need to pay Royalty to either dinosur or silk.

So no way the film is going to be helpful for todays youth or the old who
feel young when they watch her songs.Actually my point is not to feel
concerned for the current generation , bcos they r better exposed than this.

The thing i want to tell here is about my relationship with silk smitha ,
no ! no ! nothing like i can cherish forever .Just my life n days rolled during my teenage . Although silk sumitha belonged to one generation before me ,
she was the first woman to enter my home through TV. We had a television even
before my birth but cable channels found their way into my home only
when i was VIIth grade , till then i was dumped watching dubbing serials
in DD like Chandrakantha , Krishna, Junnon , Shanthi .. In DD they rarely
telecasted film songs n that too they would ve relayed silk songs may be
once in a decade which clearly i ve missed .

So when Cable channels came through , it opened a new gate of entertainment.
I watched all sports ,snow skatings ,crocodiles ,snakes , lion hunting deer
wrestlings wwe etc n was exposed to a wider world according
to me. Slowly when i was climbing grades in school i started to watch films
which ll ve a item song with silk for sure .Even Rajini n kamal films fell in that
category. Those days i dont understand y she comes in between a film with no
reason n disappears after the song , i even used to eagerly wait till climax to
know what happened to her after the film.To be humble i was not that dumb
for long time n sooner i understood her reason in film for a song alone.

Those days i cant watch such songs when parents are around. I found the
afternoon time as an escape when everyone in home used to sleep. When i
happened to watch her ,i know she is seducing but cant understand what
made her more successful when compared to others. It took years for me
to understand and the same thing that makes me confident that vidya balan
cant outsmart silk is the "PAIR OF EYES" silk had. She dressed less , danced
with pelvic clutches but still there were dozen more to do like that n even more
in cinema but she had everything in her narcotic eyes which conveyed all emotions on the viewers !!

So the pair of eyes made the difference from rest n ll make the difference in
The Dirty Picture too .. anyway wish the team crew for success with her shadows.

You know what the Legendary actor Vinoo Chakravarthy :P [ Police cop n father
of Gautami in GURU SHISYAN movie ] said about her .
He says " A man who had 4 bottles of arrack is considered to be sober when
compared to the man who saw the Eyes of Silk Smitha "
That explains everything. :P

Lump in a throat

2011-01-24T17:55:00.006+05:30

" wise men fall in goa only fools fall in college "

- sivasankar

College life is like a visit to goa , you go there with lots of expectations n

determinations to fall but return back with empty hands and bag of memories .

One incident happened in my college's senior batch that disturbed me

so much . Its a very usual thing that happens in my college , guy n gal comes

from different place,fall in love n then break up n go back to their

native place to marry a person who also comes back leaving someone

in her/his college gate.

The same incident happened in my senior batch n it disturbed me

so much . It goes like this - both wait in railway station for

their train to arrive n carry him/her n their thoughts . They both were

sitting in park bench surrounded with disturbing noisy station crowd

outside n devastating silence in heart inside. When my friend

narrated this incident it was so touching and i wanted a perfect line

that could give a perfect finishing touch for this n make the situation

still poetic. But friend was way distant in railway station when this

incident happened, he couldnt hear anything. I was so curious to know

what ppl speak before they break up n the perfect line that

wrap up all their sorrows together. Eventhough the Author has

faced two break ups but both were only swearing words from the

gentlewomen part n silent reaction from author so i really really wanted

to know what they speak in their last meet.

So after almost a year i got that LINE that would perfectly fit to that

occasion. It goes like this

RAILWAY STATION EVENING ...

SCENE happens in a concrete bench in front of a tea shop

(with cool breeze flowing in northeast n birds flying back to their

home southeast )

SHE = We dint do anything wrong other than to fall in love ..

HE = ( he remains silent to deliver that perfect line)

SHE = why this s happening to us alone.. why do ppl still believe in caste ,

religion, language

HE = (silence )

SHE = If there s next birth v shud be born in same religion n love all life

HE = (silence )

SHE = what wrong v did ?? tell me!! ... ( she bursts into tears )

HE = ( he realized this the time to speak n finally says or could ve said the most searched line by meto end the last meet )

" Our Love happened in Right place but at wrong time !! "

SHE = ( silence )

Her silence was short lived as the train whistled into the station ..finally she had to leave ...

SHE = will u stop loving me after i get into the train ??

HE = will u stop breathing after u get into the train ??

SHE & HE = [ (silence ) - means point taken ] !!

SHE = I want to leave this place with a smile ..pls tell me a joke !!

HE = (with fast approaching train n racing heartbeat he couldnt remember

any joke n started to say " Once a rabbit asked deer ..

SHE = come on dont tell that ..tell me something that i could really laugh

out pls !!

HE = ah .. i dont get anything but i can tell one thing for sure , my

friend sivasankar is really a nice guy !!

( they both erupted into laughters which took almost a minute to settle.. )

With this the train whistled its way out of the station , both got

married separately ,had kids n sterilization done .

P.S = This post means no offense against current or future lovers in my college .

If ur story ends this way author cant be held responsible.

Intern .. Mobile .. Life

2010-10-09T21:48:00.004+05:30

Those were days when i receive a call , a smile spreads over my face like a omlet spreading over kadai .. I ll be curiously waiting for calls . Those midnight chats with Her s [plural ] , texting early morning days ve gone. Now I feel these things happened a decade before . My life for past 6 months has changed from my normal course n now running to keep up my time. Life s Hectic .

But nowadays when i receive a call i give a deep frown before attending it. The
caller ll be old nurse calling me to Hosp saying patient got this complaint n
that complaint. U cant spend time for urself . Just when ur relatives come home
u get a call saying a case s very bad come soon to hosp. In all wards ur name n mobile number ll be sticked to walls like a wanted List. U dont know from which '
ward u ll get a call n for what. Most of the time the call ll be for unnecessary reasons . Those stupid staff could handle it but she prefers to disturb u. Bcos
of this i feel i got no time for me.

No way i could manage time n spend time for myself .Those were days when v all
used to ve lots of fun within a single room. V never needed a separate place to make fun .Just anywhere our very presence ll lift d mood n make us feel light.

Now i go for lots of Treat with my co-intern n v all laugh together but never feel
light or enthusiastic . I observe a pattern of false smile n fun round the Dinner
table. I dont like these kinda NEED TO LAUGH pattern . So i become a silent
spectator among them. Those days with my friends can never be brought back or
replaced. New friends r just to be named as Professional friends I say . Its like
going somewhere to break ur work stress.

Being said this s how my life s going to be . Its the choice i made so no turning
back.

I feel lots of lots of things ve changed in my life . Like those midnight
calls ve been shifted to 3am morning n early morning texting ve now become
my Noon routine. Then regarding time management i ve been complaining
For 23 yrs Nothing could be done on it :).

So wats this .. every Intern complaining about their life style change n saying
not able to manage time.I ve never seen anyone of my friend managing time
or being punctual . so y complaining Now. The above things r just a small addition
to our routine Life. Its not that v ve lost our life. So sad i ve also been in this
category . If ppl scold or irritate us in work ,so wat?? v ve faced similar things
when v were a student. At that time v were able to forget n overcome it but now thinking ourself as grown up v take it as an Embarrassment. Why to think
or ve an Illusion that v r grown up when v r not. I'm proud to say i'm still
Immatured n dont know the real world . ya few of my batch Gals even gonna get
married ,it doesnt demand me to be so serious n stiff matured guy. I cant change
for others . I prefer change shud occur from ur Inner sense . And I'm patient
enough to wait for it. .. Till then i ll be what i'm now..

see ya Folks .

Facebook Chat ..

2010-08-05T23:34:00.013+05:30

TWITTER -

U cant control frowning when ur friend comments on ur fav gals FB wall ..
- fuherShiva
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HE = Hi :) how r u ?

SHE = Hey Hi ..fine here , long time no see..so how r u ?

HE = Had chappathi for dinner ..

SHE = what ??

HE = I answered ur next question :P

SHE = oh.Let me tell the last then " ciao!"

*she goes offline with this *

Moral - Gals ve scanty sense of humor..!

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SHE = Hi .. wasssup ..

HE = Argh .. it was a tough day , got screwed by senior officials,they treat us like
slave .They dont even mind to give a 1/2 hour break for lunch , they dont take
any responsibility just show directions n disappear . I hate to work with
them but i like this job n wont give up.

* she goes offline without any notice *

Moral - Gals ask caring question not for answers only to be asked in return...

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SHE = It was a great weekend .. :))

HE = Mm ..

SHE = Me n my friends really enjoyed a lot :)

HE = mmHmm ..

*she goes offline *

Moral = Gals dont like calm n patient guys .

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SHE = Hey ya .. wassup ?/

UR Friend = Tubelight , fan n two romancing lizards ..

SHE = LOL :) Anytime ----izm thana ??

Ur Friend = Nopes only 24 hrs a day ...

u know " Love is Blah ! blah !! ..u cant explain it , u can only accept it "
#----Quotes

SHE = haha.. u r so funny .. u made my day ..!

*she stays online *

Moral - Girls r weird n Like weird people .

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P.S - I hate Facebook n I Love Facebook for the same reason ..:p

Few may think the entire post is to mention about the last convo , but its not

true .This post belongs to category - Random Thoughts . :P

Say No to Plastic ; Say Yes to Life !!

2010-07-07T22:31:00.011+05:30

DISCLAIMER - The following content s not advisable to read for people less

than 11 years.

A post to bring awareness against Global warming ..!!

Based on Real Life Incidents .

I always ve this habit .. when someone complain about X or Y .. I just ask them to

show their fingers n tell " Look at them , what do u see ?? " With this they give a

Deadly stare n leave the place . This trick works well n u get escaped from

listening to their Ramblings . But when i did this with my gal it

dint work [ only the trick ] .

DEPARTMENT OF O & G

FAMILY PLANNING OP

The early morning buzzing crowd was less that day due to national bandh n she

was sitting next to me in Family Planning[FP] Consulting room .For beginners

yes v were sitting alone bcos v were the two posted Intern For FP . She started

as usual like most gals that " this guy doing this ,that girl irritating me etc.."

I played my usual trick by asking her "So now show me ur fingers " .. She got the

undercurrent of my sarcasm n decided to play against it . She " ok see my fingers

what next " . I thought for the moment n gave the usual earth old explanation

" see all fingers r different , like r ppl " .She " I asked u to see the fingers n not

give philosophy " . Me " yes i ve seen it .. so what ?? " . She " Now tell me which

finger u want to be ? " .

Now clearly the ball was in her court , felt cold , i thought she never knew

that am adoring her , but from my attitude even a gal with 1/2 ounce brain can

find out. Was feeling helpless n she added to it by coming still closer n now

i could feel her skin over me . She"come on tell me ,which finger u want to be ?"

Considering the heat production under my skin i wanted touch a finger but

it wouldnt be appropriate for the moment so went to touch the next finger that

is Ring Finger .

She was now holding the game under full control . She " Dont u dare to

touch me .. ok " . Me " No I' m not touching ,, i'm holding it from falling Down :) "

To make the situation more romantic i went down to kiss her Finger but

in reflex movement she moved it n i landed over her lap , for a moment i thought

i'm dead . Few minutes passed [ actually 45 secs only she allowed !!] n she took

me by her arm n asked so what r u doing .. Me " I'm searching for our baby's

heartbeat " . She showed her Ring finger n said " You still havent occupied this

place !! " . Me " I thought u liked Steffy Graffe ? " . This time too she could

understand the sarcasm n said " I believe in Indian culture ". Me " so what s it

The Indian Culture ? I wanna Know " She took a small pack from

the Family Planning Box gave a wicked smile n said "This is Indian culture " .

I grabbed the pack from her lovable resistance n whispered over her ears

" Say No to Plastic ; Say Yes to Life !! "

P.S -

FYI - Steffi Graf got married to Agassi after making two children .

Drunken Drive

2010-05-28T21:59:00.013+05:30

Don't You know there ain't no Devil , its just God when he's Drunk .
- Tom Waits

Drunken people get caught when they drive after alcohol Booze n police take them to Nearest Govt Hospital to certify them Drunk , cease their vehicle n make them appear before court n pay Fine of Rs.500 to Rs. 1000 then give back their vehicle. Its a Routine process.

But every Drunk n the Author ve this doubt for a long time , " In a Heavy moving traffic How they exactly find the drunk ? "

When the Author was certifying a Drunk he could not control his Curiosity so He asked the police " How u find the drunk ?" . The police officer smiled n said
its not too technical or magical . Its a simple strategy .

Though its a confidential one the author wanna help poor drunks
who get caught often ,so he ll reveal the secret here , after all these Drunks contribute major share in nation's economy . Every year TamilNadu Budget s
based on their contribution .Every bridge, 4 way, IT parks ve their name in it.

So now the strategy :

Police officers got to show a range of drunken drive within their station limits
to higher officers say like 4 for a locality. So first they chose a Wine shop as a
spot. Now they place a policemen in disguise within the wineshop ..yes this s
first n basic part of strategy. He ll be sitting next to the man who sells u the
bottle , but u easily fail to notice bcos right after seeing the wineshop board u
forget ur surroundings n start to think about the booze effect.

Next the policemen ll see whether u r entering the Bar or just getting the booze
n leave the shop. If u enter the Bar then he notes ur shirt colour , bike model
n bike number . He passes this information to policemen who ll be waiting on
both the ends of road. When u leave the bar n start ur vehicle he watches the road u take n again signals the men waiting on that road.

So it may look that u r randomly caught n u resist by saying i dint drink n i
dont know what liquor means ..blah ..blah .He never listens to u n drags
u to the hosp to certify.

This s the scenario n so Behave properly when u r taken to the hosp. Dont be
silly like saying i know this Bigshot , im relative to that Bigshot , I dint drink , i
took only 3 ounce . Mostly educated men behave like this , bcos those uneducated
villagers who come to us behave so genuine by saying that " my mother in law passed away so v all got drunk " , " it was my sisters marriage so v got drunk
sorry sir " . Only educated men grumble n show his wife's ID card n all ..
ya. Its true .. And beware when u behave primitive like this u got face our
mocked looks n sarcastic comments .. Drinking s not a crime only
drunken drive s wrong so dont take it to personal just laugh it out ..
Answer the questions asked by Doc get the certificate
n pay the fine.Its that simple .. !

Now The Author ll give u the Invaluable Tips of How to Escape from this ..

- First s as simple " Dont drink n Drive "

- Second s also " Dont drink n Drive " [ Fight Club Effect ]

- Never park ur two wheeler before wineshop , if u do so then dont drink
every penny, save few bucks for Bus charge bcos after u get caught they cease ur
vehicle n after certifying u got to return from hosp to home [ one guy asked me
bus charge bcos he drank for all money :-) ]

- Dont wear attractive dress ,u get easily identified in traffic wear light checked
shirts which ll be difficult to differentiate n most ppl ll be wearing same shades

- Then try to bribe the policemen before they write memo , no way out after writing memo

- Sleep within the bar n go next day morning . This s a foolproof method . 0%
failure rates.

- If u suspect police out there , message ur friend to come n meet u in front of
wineshop .. when he comes take his vehicle n say " i wanna try this one today u
take mine " .

- If u r medical college student . no worries take ur ID card n show them .. u ll
be let to Go .. Bcos no medico ll be certified as drunk in any Hosp . Professional
Integrity !!. Police Know this well n wont waste time with u.

- Never carry Liquor bottles after u r drunk .. if u r taking it , then u r treating
the police men tonight.

Follow this simple Ideas n avoid get caught.

P.s .
Released For Public Awareness , The Author cant be held Responsible for any
consequences .. !!

CELEBRATION TIME 50 th BlogPost...

2010-05-22T20:24:00.005+05:30

Its my simple way of celebration for 50 th blogpost.. :) .. It has taken almost 19 months [1 1/2 years ] to achieve this feat. Most ppl who started blogging after me have reached their 100 th post well before me , no comments on it n this s not a race.. I had a long thought whether i shud wait till 100th but its sin to postpone happiness n celebration.

These 1 1/2 years in blog was like a journey to me , when i started this blog i dint ve anything to write n am not a creative guy too. But something told me that i shud be a part of it. Its not just what i write in this space , because i spent most of the time reading other blogs n am really a admirer of many blogs here though i dont comment or follow them .I preferred anonymity in this space n thats the reason many of my friends dont know my blog id n others dont even know i ve a blog.

When i started my journey in blog i thought i'm the second Indian to ve a blog next to Arun [ he introduced me to blog ] because those days Blog Log in page used to show recent blog updates n always there ll be some foreign name. But later
i realized even a Village gal from Keelakari ll be having a blog n write about Dubai
food cuisines. Now when i think about those ignorant days it gives a thin smile
in my face.

After starting a blog i had serious of confusions about how people get so much
followers , how they get awards , what s a guest post etc. But within two months
i thought i should quit blog bcos i dint ve anything to write n had only 1 follower [arun - almost for 1 yr he was my only follower] in contrast others having 100 's. Slowly i got straightened that blog s not a materialistic world n its not some competition . The journey went on i crossed lots of blog n enjoyed their way of expressing things .

Accidentally i crossed WRITER'S LOUNGE .. It was a very inspirational site for me to quit blogging..HaHa.. Its was like a Jungle of writers .Spend hours reading their poems, 55 fiction , acrostics , tales .. I felt ashamed that i couldnt write like them, again the thought of quitting came.But this time i decided not to be humble n set myself some goals n achieve it before i quit like

- getting followers in two digits

- A blogpost getting 2 digit comments [ only 1 post achieved that ]

- reaching 50 th post

- write a guest post for someone [ Raji gave that Honor ]

- ****** *** **** [ still not reached that goal ,so i cant mention !! ]

Happy that i ve reached 4 out of my 5 goals. Still feel a bit sad that i dint make any
blog friends here out of this 1 1/2 yrs , may be i wasnt a good conversationalist
here.

Now about other blogs -

I thoroughly enjoyed many gals blog here , they were
all intense feminists n reading them made me know what mistakes we do as a guy.
But when they write they all spoke about one thing common like they wont quit
blogging after marriage n they wont abide to husband in any such rules , the truth
s that those gals deleted their blog even before marriage with a note that they r gonna get married soon . May be they r ll Indian feminists. !!

Later part i started reading tamil blogs which showed a new dimension . Some blogs discussing about middle class working guy's problems in chennai was
awesome n those jokes about their salary n cost of living gave me a Heavy smile .

EPIC FALL - I consider two bloggers had an epic fall in my reading space.

1. Pink orchid - dont know who she s but her posts were enjoyable n thoughtful
most times her conversation kinda posts showed How arrogant men are with gals
suddenly she disappeared from blog world.

2 . ARun [ cupids Lunatic ] The man who i know as silent dumblook kid in my class surprised me with his writes in this space , been a close follower of him ..suddenly he had Boom in his write and was in high form for almost an year .A guy who was shy to even cross a gal was writing Romantic poems , 55 fiction n vampire love stories here .. but suddenly his blog collapsed ,changed his id couple of times , lost his followers [ but ve his blog GF in gtalk ] n now writing a blog which s just an update about his current life (like twitter ) Hope n wish he comes
back again.

TIME FOR COMPLIMENTS

1.Ganapathy - my intimate friend who never fails to read any of my blog post or to comment . Most of my posts r based on his love tangles. The PLAYBOY .. Thank u
da for spending time for my blog.

2.Arun - fellow blogger n college mate.

3. Raji - twitter friend , hates when i call her twitter friend wants to be called friend alone.. a good blogger writes personal stories n views ..wish she continues her blog amidst work . Had a great time with her during my final yr exam stress . Now v both dont find time , bcos she a oppicer now :P .

4 . FathiMa NusRath - married kid .. its really fun to read her blog n laugh at her
innocence . Running away from spammers like NEO in MATRIX .. :P . Often i get
irritated with her mood swings , the more i read her blog the more i admire Ziyaad n wonder how miserable his life s with her ..!! My view about her blog "Its a Girl
thing :P "

5. Shimmer - Again dont know what her name or who she s .. but like her simple
way of expressing things .Her blog s an exception among other gals blog which r full of complication n confusions .Ambitious gal .

6 . Athisa , salaram - couple of tamil blogs , dont know who they r ..but enjoy reading their writes .. Athisa s funny guy n his writes remind me of writer Sujatha
..wish he becomes a writer in future .

So nothing left to say , I dont write any personal stuffs , current affairs , women's rights , animal rights , tiger counts .. my blog s like a wild river .. it takes its own turn n direction to travel.. so its a celebration time atlast.

P.S
I wont be surprised if this s going to be my last blog post . I had my share of time in this n loved every moment .

Dentist ..Love..Me ..!

2010-04-30T22:09:00.022+05:30

Why Do i Fall in Love with every woman i see
who shows me the least bit of attention -Eternal sunshine Of spotless mind.

Today went for Dental opinion n Check up . First a senior Dental surgeon
came n was speaking Hell of Things bcos he knew
I'm a MBBS but he did not know most mbbs guys doesnt even Know the
Dental formula . So he finished his speech by saying Now another Doc ll
come n Do the scaling . After few minutes a Girl entered the Room .
Pink pants , white coat , a blue Mask ..beautiful eyes .

She came near me pulled her stool near n asked in a heavily doctor
accented tone "which area u feel the pain " .

I played my first card by replying " Arrh ! this 3rd lower molar tooth
n right upper incisors " . She Dropped her voice well below normal n said
" oh.ok. R u a Dentist ? " , i made a cut reply " NO " .

Now i was waiting for her to drop the card n then play it . she "so u r ? " . I was
waiting for it " I'm doing my MBBS Internship " with this she forced herself a
smile for me , Wow..even with the uninterested smile she
was glowing .

Once again Read the above Italic Lines n continue .

Now i was lying in the Dental chair n she drew her stool near me n
started her work . Her face was right above me . I was glad i was in a
dental clinic bcos here I got to be in open mouth if i ve seen her somewhere
else I would ve opened my big mouth same way n she would ve thought
me a primitve.

I was telling again n again to me ..she must be my age.. she s the ONE
[actually i ve said this 7 times in past ] n even with all those
instruments in mouth i was keeping up the conversation with her
now n then , n she was using lots of medical terms to get impressed
like Trismus, Calculus , Dental massage cream name etc..
poor gal dint know i was impressed the moment
she entered the room . Now n then she was smiling n i was way
past in dreams with thoughts like ..

- she s the first gal who has ever touched my teeth !!

- was so eager to see her without mask .. but even with mask i framed the rest
of her face in mind..

- I ve never seem a girl's eyes this close..

- For a moment i had the thought I 'm lying over her lap ..

- Her hair was falling from both sides of ear n with a bright light above head,
it was as if a Mystic Black water falls flowing over my head

- By mistake she nicked a gum n it started bleeding , she asked
me to spit in basin ,after spitting again i had bleed so spitted again
I asked "Do i ve hemophilia ?" ..she giggled.

- I decided whatever happens today i write a Poem [first] on her..

[ actually i dont know how to write a poem n moreover dont ve the confidence to name it a poem !! so given a alternate name . ]

BROKEN LINES IN ITALICS
1.
" You r my Infective endocarditis ,

u started from my tooth

And Ended Hurting my Heart "

2. "Forever.. Forever ..

I wanna remain Here

Let the world end within this room

Let the head lamp become sun

Let ur flame of hair become sky

Let ur hands become my Pillar of Life

Let the ..arghh i missed my words .. now

your eyes r moving ..Moving all around.

Like a cats eye in search of milk, u examining my teeth

Cats eye ..cats eye ..cats .. i like cat.. No No ..

I'm distracting ..getting Distracted ..but now ok

because your eyes r fixed on me ..Like a Doll.

Cute doll's eyes .. I'm in a dream ..let me be in it.

Now my world(she ) is moving apart

And almost out of sight ..a bright light glares in my eyes

Makes me blind for a second ..she says " procedure over"

Now i'm Blind for life .!!

P.S :

Try to read the second poem by imagining the dental chair position n light.

- UNKNOWN AUTHOR

Punjab..Girl..Sword !

2010-04-29T23:36:00.004+05:30

PRELUDE :

She Always used to tell " There s only one difference between u n Achilles " [ !! ] ..I reply teasingly " ya..Achilles had a Beautiful Gal friend Briseis n I dont " But she meant another thing n I got it now. So is there any Difference btw both now ??

Its good to ve a Punjab Friend . She gifted me a sword [ Though its not a direct gift ..hope u understand gal :-) ] Thanks a Lot Gal n just wanna tell u something.I loved two things to ve Right from my childhood but never Got it. One s a sword n the other thing s a Lighter ,not that plastic one the silver lighter which ignites when we twist it. But u know those things u dont get from ur parents even after u r grown up .:) so i'm very much impressed with ur gift . Thanks a Lot .

V shared loads of good times n good times alone, v were so busy in wasting time like each seeing their kinda movies n then discussing about it then Tennis [ u Rafa side n Me FedEx side ] reviews, which food good in which Restaurant n so on that actually V dint ve time to Fight or speak about College
gossips Like others do . V made a Good example of how to waste time in Medical college when all others where running around books .

That Final prep schedule is the outstanding part of our combination , everyone started their prep a month ahead of us but v waited For 2010 Newyr to start ..again v said New Yr eve s to enjoy so from tomo ,then 2 nd d sat , then 3 rd is sunday ..somehow v started our prep later that week n went at our own [ tortoise ] pace , but It made no diff ..exam results were not based on prep ..LOL ..So atleast v could say that v enjoyed our Final yr without any stress or tension in contrast to some dumbs who dint even watch a single film or went outings for last 3 months saying Its Exam Period .

And i also remember the First yr Anatomy Record cheating v did ..:P .We were the last two who dint get completion for the record .It was a situation , I reacted to it by signing prof signature in my Record n thought poor gal whats she s Gonna do. U proved u r worser than me by submitting the record plainly without Getting completion n even without completing it .. No one found it n v both got through it .It became a Habit the v did the same thing in second n third yr records also.

Most of the time I 'm sick of ur verbal Diarrhea.. n couldnt catch with ur speed .. [Ha.Ha ]

We had a great time for past 5 yrs n Hope v would be the same for the rest of the yrs too..

P.s:

1. I dont need to say that prelude s a lie .. My readers r intelligent Enough !!

2 .I always hate Gifts n i think gift means "Reciprocating Transfer Of Goods " Its
always has a Expecting n demanding side . No wonder thats the Reason Y dont get Girl Friends.

3 .Another thing I dont need to say ..this post s to Show my gratitude for the Gift .. once again My Readers r intelligent Enough !!

EMRI 1-0-8

2010-04-26T22:01:00.005+05:30

Had my first experience with 108 .I didnt fumble this much even when my GF's mom picked
her mobile n said "Hello" .So this s what happened ..

Staff nurse came to me n said a critical case in our ward n she must be referred to Higher centre Immediately,I Examined n went to call 1-0-8. Actually I was attending other patients in between when the Ring was going ,my thought was,its like other toll free number someone ll give a warm intro n explain details to proceed. But i was surprised just after Hello the voice asked who r u ,Reason for calling , what kinda illness, emergency ?, Do u ve any other ambulance nearby .. I started to fumble bcos i was not prepared with case details ,so slowly i began to speak with intro that i'm a Doc[actually House surgeon] from this place ,then as I know How To Explain about emergency i started to say "Post dated labour, no pain ,needs intervention in Higher centre , Probably Emergency cesarean " [was wondering what would i ve told if i'm a Non-medico] ..the voice was more than convinced n asked the detail , again did my next mistake , i answered v r calling from pathamdai ..the voice inquired to which Taluk it belongs, then which District ,tell me the route to reach dere . Again slowly answered but really dint know the route to reach there bcos I'm new to that place . After that the voice said
give ur mobile no,then keep ur mobile switched on our Ambulance Dept ll call u .Somehow ended the call .. Then again explained things to Ambulance Dept..

But u must give all credits to them, within 10 mins they were in Hosp showing me some form to Fill ..Again took time to understand it ,but its nothing just a form about patient details,then were u want to shift them , reason , patients general condition n Referral signature [ I think general public dont need to fill those papers ] At last everything ended smoothly ..

EMERGENCY MANAGEMENT & RESEARCH INSTITUTE s a very successful
program in health care.. EMRI s a govt aided private program n the Ambulance has all the Emergency facilities . But some ppl exploit it .. patient
with very minor ailment like insect bite , a small abrasions , just exaggerating pain as MI [Heart attack ] ..I ve even heard some ppl use it to avoid Taxi expense in reaching hospital. Its not that these ppl exploiting EMRI alone , they r cheating Govt ,wasting peoples money ..such ppl must think, that even in any High traffic people give way to EMRI ambulance, then Traffic Police alter the signal so that ambulance goes first, above all they must think when EMRI van crosses how many people pray to their GOD that the man inside must make to hosp in time n Get well soon .So pls dont cheat n play with People's Love ,its already reaching Drought state ur attitude ll just make it a End game.

The reason for this post is ,few things look very simple n ordinary that v dont intend to know about it. Like always "Small Things matter the Most " . So if u ever gonna make a call to 1-0-8 just remember few things

- be precise
- explain the need
- tell them the place with details of Route [ FYI : all calls of 1-0-8 goes to
chennai,so ppl in other districts shud explain along with their district
name ]
- give them an active mobile no.
- When they ask u to sign in dont hesitate , it got nothing to do
with Police case or adding u as witness.

Cigarette ...Attitude .

2010-04-20T20:31:00.004+05:30

So most people would ve noticed this in shop.Cigar packets comes with pictorial

warning to reduce smoking . I am not hear to explain the hazards or

how to quit smoking. I got a simple thought while seeing this images .. I feel

these images dont convey any positive effects to smokers .. these images r

fearsome n gives a stomach brawling effect when

u r in shop looking at cigar packs .Also says " SMOKING KILLS "

So my view s , it gives still more guilty feel to ppl who smoke nothing else.

The other thing s that it shows that ppl who smoke ll die of cancer.. Its absurd .

There r concrete evidence that not all smokers get cancer.. the most imp effect

of smoking s that it affects the Quality of ur Life.. thats what everryone got to

understand n not just telling u ll get cancer again again ..

smoking causes still worser

effects n its a imp risk factor for Myocardial Infarction[heart attack] , TAO ,

stroke , COPD .. especially passive smokers like child , pregnant

woman etc etc.. so those smokers must realize their habit s spoiling the entire

family n general health .. For that they shud get a Positive attitude n must

give up smoking understanding thats its for the overall family welfare.. The way

these pics depicts s an old method of saying if u tell lies god ll make u blind..

On the Other hand u got to see those US , Canada n other country warnings

... they try to explain u the facts about smoking n give their warning in a

positive way .. even the colour they use is GREEN in contrast v use red . so these

images seems more like a medical advice n encourages to reduce n slowly

quit smoking .

Just telling " smoking kills " s noway gonna help to reduce the smokers among

smoking population.

P.S :

But US cigarette costs Rs 8 .. so if u cant afford that much buy Indian

cigarettes n ask the shopkeeper to pack it in US cigar boxes .. It gives 2 positive

effects 1. Respect when u take cigar pack in front of others ..

2. Also vaguely u can take a resolution this is my last cigarette.. !!

Fucking Embarrassment of Life ...

2010-03-25T22:38:00.006+05:30

Getting embarrassed is a very common thing n it happens everyday in everyone's

part of life... But fucking embarrassment is one thing that u can never forget n

regret till ur end of life for doing it.. Its just ONE incident that pricks u all time..

so with this here goes my embarrassment of life ..

This Happened two yrs back ...

I knew her n v were friends over text msg n phone calls .. though v both knew

each other well, v would ve gone out together only for 2 or 3 times . So everything

was going fine n one day this incident took place.. As usual v were speaking

in phone over midnight n time crossed 2 am , i was feeling very sleepy, almost

half sleep in bed with my face buried between pillows .. like every guy i

never wanted to end the conversation [ bcos it might upset her !! ]

n so was listening to her.. she was going like ..

SHE : i was so such angry with u yesterday but u stupid boy convinced me

so easily .. u r damm good in convincing me after whatever u do..

blah..blah..

[I was yawning n cursing me for calling her .. she again was continuing ]

SHE : Blah.. blah..

[ suddenly i caught a line ]

SHE : n all things u do really make me smile .. n I'm mad with u ..

She said it for once but the line was spinning over my head again n again

"mad at u " " mad at u " " mad at u " .. still i dont remember in what lizard

sense i was at that moment, without any go signal i proposed her ..!!

ok. come on ! what do u expect when u propose to a gal ?

1. Instant refusal ..

2. Asking time to think ..

3. Deep inspiration with explanation how u misunderstood her..

4. swearing u in all languages ..

5. accepting it saying mutual feel ..

so if anyone of this had happened i would ve been so happy.. u know

what she did ??

.... she LAUGHED ... she laughed like hell [ fuck myself] .. u know i could do

nothing to stop her laughing .. finally once she could get herself back

she continued ..

SHE : hey !! R u awake ? U know i'm already in love man .. u even know my

guy da..v all ve met n spoke ..just 2 days back v all met ..

dont u remember ?

Got a whiplash n got up from bed .. GawwwwD !!! WTF i ve did ?

How the hell i was so dumb in sleep that i could forget everything n behave

so so stupid ..As she said i know him n v ve great respect for each other ..

they both used to speak to me ...

Then i thought to reconstruct the damage , but against my expectation

nothing has happened .. she said

SHE : u r funny guy .. u know ? ha ha..ok rest well :) sweet dreams ..

The next day everything happened as normal n she dint even expect an

apology ... This incident was a huge embarrassment for me ..

i know that i dint or dont love her better than hell ..

but been so stupid in sleep that instead of replying "i too like u " for her

" mad at u " I said i love u ...

After sometime v both had to move away in our own ways n slowly the

everyday conversation reduced to wishing each other for all religious Festival

n our Birthdays .. I felt glad for this change ..

After that incident every moment this thought comes into my mind , bcs

she tells everything to him ..so when they ve discussed about this thing

"How would ve they laughed at me" ..grrrr ... even now I get pissed..

This thought occurs most of the time like

- waking up from bed n this flashes in my mind ..spoils my mood n i swear

me in all foul words ..

- evening lecture class when i used to scratch bench ..

- while seeing my face in mirror when i brush , i spit in basin n swear..

- when standing as fielder in boundary ...

Although v havent met after that .. I always ve this dread..

"what would it be like when i happen to cross them in future.. If it happens,

after she notices me, she would give her well practiced warm smile n he

doesnt know to give that smile would raise his eyebrows to recognize me .. but

after they cross me n out of my earshot again they will LAUGH saying

" he only did that one na.. " .. Fuck !!! I wish i shud never meet them again in

my Life ..

After this incident when i make or attend any late night calls i used to sit upright

in my bed n speak ..no matter how sleepy i feel i never lie down n speak .. : )

I feel this as Fucking Embarrassment of my Life..

P.S :

Was Tweeting a gal/women asking y dont u write any creative post? she

snubbed me saying mine s personal blog n i'm here to write my ramblings..

i got a doubt is she sarcastically saying that i dont write any personal

things in my blog n that doubt ended up as this post..

Good Bad vs Principle...

2010-03-23T21:46:00.015+05:30

I always ve this doubt ..what is good n what is bad ?? , and what r the criteria

to differentiate it.. Atleast i wanna know who were the ones who formed this good

n bad ..

ALCOHOLISM

Alcohol is harmless when taken within limits , i also know the safe limit

of alcohol .. but y havent i tasted even a drop of it till now ?? My alcoholic history

goes way behind 6 yrs . It was during 12th std Beer got introduced to our group

, few friends started to drink with lots of doubt n false facts about it .. like

drinking beer ll cause impotence this n that : ) ..slowly the drinking population

steadily increased n the percentage of alcohol in Beverages also increased ..

Even now when we meet,

v go to bar n ve fun ..But still am non-alcoholic .. when friends see

me sipping 7 up in bar they frown n get annoyed.. When they prompt me or force

to drink it becomes just waste of their time ..No Results.

I go to Bar ,but dont drink.. Believe Me !!

I dont think drinking alcohol is bad or afraid of drinking n i dont do

this to show am different men in that group or i havent promised to any gal

that i wont drink.. Even my dad once gave me a famous foreign Tin beer

which came as a compliment n said it is nothing just 7% alcohol in it .. I

refused .. It may look am pretending in this post to show myself as Good..but

still i got doubt in what s GOOD ;) so y am i going to pretend to be good ?..

Off late i realized i dont drink bcos its against my PRINCIPLE .. Bcos

when something is told as bad n not do , I end up doing it like ..

=>When i was in primary school they told copying is bad - But I did

=> When i was in 6th STD they told speaking bad words s bad - But i Spoke

=> In high school they told same dialogue n but i ended up seeing Porn..

In my life whenever something is said Bad n not to do i took care

that i do such things ..

But regarding Booze my opinion s different ..I see ppl give 3 reasons for taking it

1. For Fun

2. In search of peace or to be Happy or Forget the sorrowfulness..

3. Women .. [ i wont agree with this one, bcos ppl who drink before love

say I cant tell my love so drinking n explain us how beautiful she is.. ppl who

drink in love drink tell this is to enjoy his happiness ..guy after love says this

s to forget her n find peace.. so anyway u r going to drink irrespective of

the gal's state in ur life.. ]

So this s were my Principle contradicts with alcohol .. I believe that

any form of happiness or sadness should be controlled by my mind n not

any other substance .. I never listen to anyone's words so how can i drink

n follow its command ..

This s how many ppl are..when u just say this s good n this bad noone wants

to follow it .. Other hand when he realizes for himself he never wants to do it..

owwww..grrrrrrrrupp.. sorry guys ,.. i dont know y i vomit when i take halfboil

as side dish..

Shud change the side Dish next time... see ya..!!

Love to Death.. [Guest Post ..]

2010-03-15T23:34:00.008+05:30

Pre-Script - This s my first guest post. To Raji .she s a serious blogger, takes blogging as a part of life.. so i got to write a serious guest post without my usual sense of stupidity .. i dint like this story but since by blogpost count s very low when compared to others i ve to post every bit n pieces of my writing to increase the count somehow .. Here it goes ..

LOVE .. DEATH

He n Anamika got married recently n as usual they loved each other

for a brief period before marriage..

He s a civil Eng in a leading construction company n she a

program writer with rich father .She was unique - this unique doesnt

mean what all gals use in social networking sites profile in "about me" ..

she was really unique , bcos she

had BPD [ Bipolar disorder] (a form of psychiatric illness ppl with this ,

go to their extremes of mood either happy or sad ,btw they r normal ,

u cant easily diagnose them as most persons reading this blog r like that!! ) ..

And she was diagnosed early when she got her first depression n maniac

episodes after mother's death n

doctors assured her its very mild n she can lead a normal life with her drugs.

They were true she was quite normal after that n only once she got the

maniac form of elated mood thats when he proposed her ..

Like any other lover during love with a rich man's daughter

he dint mind about her illness n told her u r normal, only these docs r

confusing u to get few bucks from u .. she felt happy for him .

CHAPTER - I
He was starting his car from construction site to pick her from

office , he hated his job with dust n noise .. but she loved her office with all

forms of luxury n pleasant room spray ..

IN CAR

He : Hi ! good evening ..

She: gud evening.. u smell like a sheep :)

He : oh.. n u smell like n whore ..;)

she : ya.. i;m a whore to one man ..

IN HALL

He tries to give a instant hug but she resists with a smile n enters kitchen

.. it happens everytime n he curses himself " y these gals change after a yr

of marriage n becomes more professional even in bed "

DURING DINNER

Their conversation was mostly around their respective firms development n

movement of shares in stock exchange .. neither of them was looking into eyes,

during love when they had dinner the room fills with laughter n they had smiles

before each spoon of food n both used to compliment each other.. everything

has changed after marriage..

IN BEDROOM

After taking her tablet she checks the prescription for review date with the

doctor n files it back.. He always get irritated with her mr.perfect behavior of

filing things n even scold without knowing its going to save his life.. Like other

routine things making love also happens ,just happens within a time to make

two maggi noodles ..

though neither of them get satisfied they were too egoistical to mention it or

ask more.. Next day

Sun comes out n their routine continues as schedule ..

CHAPTER - II

one day she has to return home earlier... when she comes home n opens

bedroom door , she sees everything normal in the room .. her husband , two

pillows, teddy bear , a water Jug Except an extra 5' 7" feet

creature curling along with her husband in bed .

CHAPTER - III

She made a call to her father ... then she died .

Autopsy Report : suicide , cause of death - opening up veins in bath tub.

CHAPTER - IV

Her father "U killed her, bloody basterd, i dint like u from the start "

He "U r getting too hysterical ,what happened s an unfortunate event n

am feeling sad for u n ur daughter , but dont blame me, i think its bcos of

her condition ..."

Her father "Shut up !! all these days u dint mind about that (BPD) n argued

that she s normal , now to save ur skin u r playing ur cards"

He "Dont use strong words sir .. i find no fault in me, ok let me be open

with u .. i agree i loved her, but i was never satisfied with

her n found soon after marriage that

she can never satisfy me , but i never want to leave her for that reason n so

i found my own way of satisfying myself ..its very normal..think sir.. when u dont

like or bored with homemade food dont u go to hotel or get a parcel of hotel

food to home ..which s precisely what i did :) "

Her Father "I ve never seen such a smooth talking basterd like u in my life ,

i'm going to court of law "

He "ofcourse sir.."

CHAPTER - V

The court was centered around an as usual unenthusiastic n grumpy judge

with no ears for emotions ..

Her Father - This man pushed her to end her life..this must

not be taken as suicide , its a homicide ..

JUDGE - [ after verifying the neatly aligned her prescription files from first visit

of doctor ] was she a known psychiatric patient ?

Her Father - Its irrelevant to case sir ..this man's adultery caused my

daughter's Life ..

JUDGE - was she under treatment for BPD ?

Her Father - Lord ..but this man pushed her to ..

JUDGE [irritatingly]
- was she a patient with bipolardisorder ,under

treatment n do u agree these prescription in files belongs

to her n do u know her psychiatric illness before ..? say yes or no!!

Her Father - YES !!

JUDGE - Case dismissed .

* THE END *

P.s:

Q1- Do u agree with the judgment?

Q2- Do u think He is innocent ?

Q3- Do u believe her cause of death s due to her BPD alone ?

Boundaries ... PEOPLE .

2010-03-03T22:57:00.004+05:30

OMEGLE.COM

Stranger : Hi ..

Me : Hi ..

Stranger : 21/ M/ here ..

Me : 22 / m ..

[ waited for the connection to get disconnected as usual when two same genders meet ]

To My Surprise ..He continued .

Stranger : where r u from ?

Me : India .. U ?

Stranger : china ..

Me : so i'm chatting with a communist .. :)

with this he got fierce n i was bombarded with his replies saying the only thing

u or anyone ask about a Chinese is " communist " " Red " " low quality

products " "poor people " dont v anything more than that ..

I was taken back with replies ,though i dint admit my mistake v continued

our chat ..

so after sometime i again mocked him asking "In ur country Facebook n Twitter

n all Banned na.. wat reason ??"

he Plainly replied " its bcos of censorship "

I replied " In India v ve censorship only for showing Boobs ;) " ..

when the chat continued he did know many things about india its currency

language . buddhism ..so when speaking about religion , i replied him

" I'm hindu , ve u ever heard of it ?? " He said " i know well n its the sixth

biggest religion in world n one of the ancient religion n in India more than

80 % r Hindus " I was stunned to hear this from him for a second bcos

till date i dint know about it n couldnt avoid the thought

WHO s really behind IRON CURTAIN ...

Then he explained about the rift between china n russia n the small war

they had in 1960.. I told him that India n russia r good friends for 60 years ..

Now it was his turn to mock , He " ya .know. u r good friend to russia so that u

can buy weapons from russia n US. u people r Good DIPLOMAT " .. now i clearly

know this is not gonna be a usual conversation about discussing

both countries gals r movies ..

I hit back strongly saying their role in pak arms n their support to

Maoists n smuggling arms to naxals through bangladesh .. he resisted first

saying he hadnt heard anything like that n when i started to press , he said

"i dont think my govt ll be doing like this n v dont ve interest in such things "

i said myself - now who is the BLOODY (red) DIPLOMAT ..

when the topic about war came his manner suddenly changed , n he explained

that war is not an answer for any conflict ,even if china wins ,i ll be the loser.

I asked " How?. He " already there r lots of poor people in china n war ll make

them more poor, education n infra structure hasnt reached many parts n

war ll only make them non-feasible for still more decades ..health n hosp

services r also weak here , outsiders only see beijing n shangai n say v r rich

but the rest of the china r poor by all means " God he was so genuine n

touching , n i felt sorry for my attitude towards war ..

Tried to convince

him by saying " u r Next US .. n now u r a Super power " .this made him

still sad , he " how u r saying our country super power when most of our

men r poor, i'm doing my education n not sure about my future n living

with fear of tomorrow ..its damm silly calling our nation super power " ..

I dint know where the conversation was going but i started to like him ,he

even said ur country also no diff ot ours n people need many doctors like u ,

so study well ..

Atlast when the border issues came ,i was in no mood to argue with him n

said watever u say Arunachal pradesh is a part of india from independence ..

His reply was diff , he " i dont care to whom it belongs ..but china has got lots of

land unused n without development , i wonder y the hell they r fighting for

a land with only mountain n rocks , if they want they can improve many

wastelands in my place n develop " ..with this v came to end n my opinion

towards him was completly changed..

I typed Bye but something was pressing me n i

couldnt press ENTER .. saw the monitor it was saying

stranger typing , it took a longtime n i thought its going to be a long reply

but it came simlpy as Bye alone .. [ same feeling ] I send my bye note to him.

still couldnt complete the conversation .. n v were waiting on both ends ..Then

finally v exchanged our E-mail Ids n bid Good bye..

so here i'm not going to explain anything about boundaries n people ..bcos

as v all know only boundaries divide us n not people. countries differ but

their people r always same ..

P.s .
1. Eventhough the comrade was so furious about thinking china as red n

communist alone , the colour given for his name in the chat room was

RED - Irony .. !

2. His English was poor than mine n he made many spelling errors ..gave me a

personal satisfaction ;)

3. was thinking for 2 days should i write this as a post, finally wrote for my

remembrance .

Why Dont u Understand ... My Love

2010-02-27T20:59:00.006+05:30

MIDNIGHT .. precisely Ghost time .

Everyone in the city fast asleep except two hearts n their mobiles ..

He : Hi hello ..

She : sshhh ..wait wait ..i'm coming

He : whatz up ??

She: u called me for asking this .. stupid boy. [ giggles] ok .. nothing special da

everything was pretty usual . Hey look at the moon ..so cool .. i hope

its two days past full moon bcos i could see a mild dent at sides :) n

moon appears a bit dull n muddy probably dint bath .. i guess [ giggles]

He : ya.. wat u doing ??

[ she heard a noise before his YA ! n she guessed or convinced herself that it was

a laughter for her joke ]

She : Listening to music in iPOD .. AR.R music r the best to hear at this time,

lights up the romantic mood , right now listening to a song from

"May Madham" - enn mel vilunda mazhai thuliye .. the best part in it

is when the word mazhai [ rain] comes there ll be water drop sound in the

track along with music ..so awesome ..great musical sense ..

He : Ya ! a.r Rocks .. had dinner ??

[ this time she dint hear any sound before his ya! but convinced her without belief

that she hasnt heard it ]

She : yup! had onion dosa n naan in a motel .. but this hotel guys sucks they

always give priority to family over friends coming in groups .. they first

make sure family gets seated n sometimes serve them first even when u give

the order first .. may be they would ve thought after seeing me that i

would hardly eat an idli full !! [ again giggles ]

He : Ok.. tomorrow any plans ??

[ this time she was pretty sure she dint hear anything before his Ya.. not even

tongue clearing saliva from his mouth noise ]

( she was now like a lit up cannon ball )

She : what r u man ?? i 'm speaking here like a fool n u dont even want to address

me n the best possible thing u could say is just " ya" or "ok" with

dull monotonous age old Fatherly question " what u ate , what u doing

what u gonna do tomo" ..shit ..horse shit.. i shud ve never spoke to u ..

He : Hold on ! hold on! dont get on ur nerves actually

She : nothing i wanna hear .. did i call u ? u were the one who made the call

n dont speak .. then u never mind to tell about ur day .. its only me

always on the explaining part .. i' m in hostel here with two seniors

as room mates , i got to sneak out of the room without their knowledge

n stand in the corridor with this frigging cold breeze n trying to keep up

the conversation .. but u dont move a single word more.. Fuck! i had

enough with u ..this happens daily .. get lost ..

He : hello..just wait .. let me explain ..

She : Leave ME Alone !!....[ he hears "beep .. beeeep .. beeeeeep" ]

He dint try to call her again, even if he did the usual protocol

ll be followed like

- First call goes for 3 rings n then a good mannered lady says

number is busy

- Second call the good mannered lady speaks as soon as first call

reaches

- Third call another lady probably a bit older than the former

says the number u r trying is switched off n leave voice msg for Rs.2. ..

He knows this protocol better than the Author n so he dint try calling her .

He was not sure whether he ll get a chance to explain her but certainly the

Author got the chance to explain his readers ..!

EXPLANATION :

Of all the things that women know on earth they dont know or

fail to understand the most basic thing that MEN LOVE IN LISTENING TO U ..

thats the reason y he keeps his part of conversation low n allow u more time

to speak .. Just think when u r listening to a Rihanna or Bryan Adams in ur

earphone do u intend to speak to anyone in middle .. so is ours . Men just

get into it n hates to interrupt .. he just loves ur voice n the melody in it,

he enjoys the ups n down in ur tone when u stress some facts .. the hum u

give to buy time for thinking , ur mispronounced syllables n ur hard

way to correct it by spelling it 3 times again again till ur tongue becomes

flexible to it ( most commonly words with ' f ' in middle n ' s ' a the start )

ur unique way of ending the converstaion everytime like saying " bye " or

"goodnight " with different add on tags behind n before the word , u listen

carefully to hear a rain drop in songs but he listens more carefully

in ur speech n listens the breath u take in between words n the long breath u

take after completing a long sentence, he can even differentiate

the split second diff between two ... thus He loves everything in the conversation

with u except the msg showing how much the Last call costs .

so thats the reason . Trust this

" the guy who speaks less n listens lot is the one

who loves u the most " n vice versa ..

So just with hold ur thoughts that He found another gal or he is not

interested in u anymore.

Try to understand him n Live a Happy Life ...

I Hate 22 ..

2010-02-24T22:01:00.004+05:30

Many people think this 20's age are full of fun n happiness ... but i damm hate

it. Most of the time it sucks to be in this age..

THINGS THAT SUCKS are ..

- What else other than ur coll n prof , everyone keeps a eye on u say

" u guys r irresponsible" " u dont respect or fear " " u dont follow this that "

- ADVICE .. everyone everywhere n on everything including ur parents , they

also add this is a very crucial age it decides ur character so u got to be very

careful , u got watch ur steps ...

- in traffic , some times almost collision occurs but u brake at right movement

but people around never praise u, instead scold by saying u guys always

rash drive , never follow traffic rules . [ personal eg.. a kid crossed the mainroad

with noman's expectation, i almost .. but good god i braked my car ,with tyre

squeezing sounds , the reward i got is " people in car never mind pedestrians !"

for heaven's sake i'm not in metropolitan city orelse ppl there ll compare me

with BMW hit n run case . and even write a article about me in Hindu readers

column ]

- Health aspects , last month there was almost an epidemic of chickungunya /

cross river fever [ waiting for lab test to confirm what kinda fever ,for more

than 2 months - govt rocks !! ] so everyone in my street was affected inclu me..

fever with worst joint pain .. when i was suffering with this, my neighbour

old couples said " u r young man just 22 , so joint pain would be nothing

for u .. when i was at ur age ..[ wont type that all n kill u like they did to me ]

- if u r lean ppl ask " y u r so lean " or " y u r too obese "

- most of the dad who comes out with his daughter gives a stare at u n tell

to his mind this guy is a Rogue without remembering he was once at this age !

- more than all this the DILEMMA about career n personal life

- being single !!!

I'm actually bored with this age .. i wanna get quickly to around 35 yrs , great age

to live ..
- u ll be settled with ur career ,

- u ll be sitting behind a desk job

- a happy family with kids n wife, n the sweet part s at this age ur

marriage life ll also be settled from fights n quarrels .. wife ll be fucking tired

with u [ read it carefully , i dint type Tired in fucking with u ] n she doesnt comes

for any argument or fights !!

- kids look at u as a superhero ...

- a small pot belly falls out ...

- fixed routine like wake up - office - home -food -sleep..

- no more friends asking b'day treat !!!

etc etc.. Happy Age ..

P.s - Though readers instantly think of the usual proverb distance leads

enchantment.. I'm really tired of my 22 !

MY Blog is not Worse ...

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Many of my readers [ only 2 ] ask me this .. Y ur blog dont ve followers in three

digit or y ur blog visit s not in 2 digits per day ...

So it s my responsibility to explain those countless readers [ 2 ] about

my blog... First of all my blog is not worse .. ok u dont agree then

read as my blog s not that worse..

HERE are my stats to show it... I may be a mbbs student

but after reading this u ll know how good i'm in stats n

feel india has missed a great economist ...

Averagely most bloggers ve followers around 50 ...

But a blogs true quality s assessed by the comments it gets for its post .. that

way most 50 follower blogs ve a average comment of 5 [ excluding their own

thank note n LOLZ ] so the ratio

50 : 5 which means = 10 : 1 .

My blog has got 9 followers n average comment i get is 3 [excluding my

reply]

so the ratio is

9 : 3 which means = 3 : 1 .

3 : 1 is > than 10 : 1

so ratio wise mine s superior to most of the blog ..

=> Hence Proved.

Then

1. I havent Joined in any blogger community to promote my blog ...

2. I dont unnecessarly comment in others blog as NICE WRITE , FUNNY ,

LOLZ ...

3. I even refused n turned down the offer to join in those community ,

even refused their personal invitation [ if this is hard to believe then

forget it , dont enquire !!! ]

4. I dont publish the link of my new post in any social networking sites

like twitter ...

5. I dont follow many blog s[ actually lazy , that too doctors blog means

wont turn their side again .. boring guys ]

6. i dont tell my coll friends about my blog or ask opinion..

7 . I dont post any explicit contents in my blog [ only see it !!]

8 . I dont celebrate blog b'day or 100th post !!

9. I dont post unnecessary events like my street dog down with fever etc..

[ cha .. thought somehow i shud write 10 pts ]

Then to my blog readers,

our blog is based on quality development thats y i dont put any

google ad sense on my blog n earn ..eventhough i'm seriously in need

of money ....

sooner ppl ll notice our blog n read .. so pls wait for the change ..

what v need now s patience .. i know its tough time ..but i ll lead u to

victory n fame like i ve done in my past ...

Thanks for ur incredible support n faith in me ...

p.s:
writing after my final yr 1 1'/2 months exam period , so just checking
my sanity with this blog.. still got doubt whether i'm a normal.

Love * PAUSE * Love ...

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Before Five years :- ...
" now v both r in love n our heart s full of love , but later

when the situation changes v might fight n depart so ... "

she couldnt complete before that he kissed

her n told it ll never happen , v ll be the best lovers forever..

"every love starts like this n later waves of problems comes one after another

n at some point love breaks , so v must stick to a principle that is .. " again

interrupted with kisses ... ssshhh.. This ll take time , so the author ll explain what

s her principle or rule, meantime let them complete their romance ..

The rule s " when they get into a fight if someone says PAUSE they shud stop

everything n only when the person who says pause speaks first, the conversation

ll be continued "

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BEFORE 3 YEARS :-

HE = So what s ur pblm .. early morning u want to fight n spoil my day .

u r driving me nuts ... i dint put the dinner plate in basin yesterday .

ok whats in it .. i was tired like a bull n forgot .. is it a big pblm for

u .. u show no signs of what u were when v loved ...

SHE = *PAUSE *

HE = aaaaa [ as per rules he stops, his anger was running over his head , but

got to stick to the rule ]

SHE = [ she gasps for few mins n couldnt control ] come on what u r saying ?

i dont show love , Eh .. its who u ve changed , u treat me like a slave ,

wash the dry oily dishes one day then u ll know how diff it is. dont think

only u r struggling ... i'm double tired with office n housework .. still

u dont even want to move a single piece of stone ..and u say .

HE = * PAUSE *

( the conversation continued, even the PAUSE couldnt stop them )

HE = i dont ve the same love towards u anymore ...

SHE = i'm glad atlast u said the truth .. its a mutual feeling ..

HE = WTF ? u dont love me ..

[ they both got to closer n his anger could be seen over his throbbing forehead

pulsation ..] she sensed his anger n thought to say * PAUSE * but before that

he grabbed her like an animal n gave a kiss which she has never felt before, it was

the wildest thing she has felt ever , it was hurting n she wanted to say pause

but on the other hand she was also giving a pricking kiss which he

has never felt before ... since both their lips were working n none

of them could tell * pause * ..finally everything ended in bed . All their cat

fights where ending in bed ..

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PRESENT :-

He did the same thing, forgot to put his dinner plate in basin yesterday ..

HE = So what s ur pblm .. early morning u want to fight n spoil my day .

SHE = * PAUSE * [ then after few mins ] u think only i'm fighting each time

( it continued like everytime n bedroom door was waiting to be opened )

Now it has reached the Heat n soon its gonna happen ...

He grabbed her like an animal n at that time a THIRD VOICE entered the room

n said * PAUSE * n ran away .. They ve to stop everything bcos of their rule .

He sat over the sofa with perspiration n she went to kitchen n was emptying

tumbler after tumbler of water ... They both felt as if their nerves gonna burst..

.. slowly Their blood was washing away all the hormones ,

neurotransmitters from the periphery n the circulation got normalized.

The only thing they could do ( n the author too ) is to wait for their

3 yr old son to come back n speak ...

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The kid dint know anything about this n was happily playing *PAUSE *

game two streets away with another kid .

* THE PAUSE *

No Title ..

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GTalk ...

Arun - are u aware of my existence ? means r u aware of what job i do online ?

Online friend - yes .. i am aware . i ve heard..

Arun - can u please tell me what u ve heard ..:)

O F - u r doing a job which is a CLASSIFIED ..

Arun - ah ..even my coll frens couldn't ve told better :) :) ..

then r u aware of the Nickname given by my frens in clg .. ? :)

O F - yes .. iam aware ..

Arun - pls continue what u heard :)

O F - They call u " ABOVE 40 ARUNKUMAR "

Arun - Precisely :) :) ... and i prefer to be called above 40 arunkumar rather

than silky or other nick names bcos i Earned that name .. n i love it .

:) :) :)

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THE DIFFERENCE what i ve observed so far...

--> when lover's sit in restaurant they always sit opposite

but married couples mostly sit by side .. I think during love they

are so keen in looking into each others eyes n after marriage they sit

by side to keep both their hearts as close as possible.

--> when i see someone speaking to their gal frens in mobile always

their lips arch towards ears n there ll be increase in flesh over the cheeks

n eyes roaming in all direction.But when a married guy speaks over phone he

keeps a tight lips , fixed eyes mostly facing down , no expressions , plain voice

n words so short as if each word costs.. y is this change ? mmm vil tell u after '

marriage..

But really u want to know how to speak to a gal ..listen to ganapathy when he

speaks .. his voice modulation, his usage of phrases , his proun of vowels , he

stresses some words to make it sink at the other end of the phone , frequent usage of

bluffs like " ha ha ha " " cha cha sollu " " appuram " etc etc.. I ve seen lots

of people who ride bike with mobile but he s the only one who types sms

n ride the bike .. I think he wont change after marriage like above and i dont

think he ll stop making GF s after marriage too ..

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HOW MANY is the question that never leave us ..

when v r kids - How many toys u ve ?

In primary school - How many video games u ve ?

In High school - How many BF's u ve ?

In college - How many GF's u ve ?

After marriage - How many children u ve ?

After divorce - How many affairs u had ?

Old age - How many tablets u ve daily ?

Very old age - [ thats the only time v ask ]

How many more days i'm gonna live ?
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Making Love ....

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DINNER TABLE

" are u sure u dont want anything ? ve atleast a cup of coffee.." he asked

"Nope " she replied with a smile . After dinner he went to drop her in

room n at the gates he couldnt resist, he just dragged his eyes down n

saw her Neck line,moonlight was falling on her n

creating a shadow on her neckline ...

she caught his eyes ..
He
" moonlight turns even the most civilised men into PRIMITIVE "

she smiles within lips " today u see me like a school boy :) " ... Although they have speaked about this for hours casually before they still felt a coldness inside ... Finally they decided to GO !! Ahead this time ..

They both entered her bedroom n fell in bed.. he found the surrounding
nostalgic and a sense of fear was gripping him but he convinced his Instinct
by saying it happens to everyone when they do for the first time ..Still the moon was looking at them without any curiosity about whats going to happen .. He heard some wierd noise around the street ..

Now he turned her and was ready to do for what they were born...

Slowly he started to unveil her neckline which the moonlight shadow made him not to see before ... At the Heat of the moment he received a sms

" Hi buddy , will be late by 2 hrs, got a work will see u after that :)" ...

He got a whiplash , she ll be late ah ? then who is the one under her skin now with me in bed ...

He wanted to think, today

- she dint eat with him

- she was extremely Beautiful under moonlight

- she s unusually cold

- her eyes are of diff colour ...

He wanted to make a conclusion that the one now with him is a VAMPIRE ....

He wanted to cry out , he wanted to run amok ...

but before that she started to HUG HIM n KISS HIS NECK ....

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NEXT MORNING :

He woke up n thought the same stupid question every human

asks after an accident or attack " where am I ? " ..He found himself in the same

bed , now its day but sun rays couldnt cross the dark curtain n enter the room so it

was forming a thin frame of the window around the curtain .. He found his hands

pale n lips dry , doubting was he still a human .. But he was still a human with all

pain senses intact .. he sighed with relief n found her sleeping under

his skin . He kissed her forehead n slapped his mobile cursing

" BSNL msgs always deliver late , that must be a msg sent afternoon by her n

delivered to me midnight .. bsnl sucks " ..

He got dressed n whispered in her ears " Its day "

she moaned "i hate sunlight " he smiled thinking about the last night ...

Then he kept two i - Pill tablets [ levanorgestrol] n asked her to take one

immediately n other tab after 12 hrs..

He said byees n left the room .. After sometime she got up

confirming he left the room n pulled the Drapes of the Room Curtain allowing

sun rays to fill the room ... now she was standing under sunlight with

Clawed nails , Two long Canine teeth reaching the chin , with hairs all over the

body , Blood Thirsty Eyes , bulging muscle of a Predator ...

What he dint know was she was a " VEGETARIAN VAMPIRE "

*** THE END ***

Religion ... Love.

2009-11-22T23:33:00.004+05:30

We belong to one of the two religion, JEW or CHRISTIAN ...

Christian are those who found their LOVE or love has descended on them ...

Jew are those people still waiting for Love to reach their world ;( ....

so who am i ??

I 'm still a JEW ... obviously.

I used to get confused at times , which is better ...

one time i used to think being

alone is so peaceful n no need to portray us by any means .. other time [ like

when i'm so happy or sad ] i used to think it would be nice if v ve one .

still i'm confused n as usual when i get confused sleep comes n saves me ..

ya feeling sleepy , gonna sleep ..

p.s : My shortest post , great !! i always explain or tell things in long prose , wanted to change it n be more precise . TWITTER is helping a lot to reduce my word output /post .

ME - SHE TALK FAILS ( once again )

2009-11-14T20:38:00.010+05:30

ME - SHE TALK FAILS

LOCATION : CLASSIFIED

DURATION : 45 MINS

SUBJECT : DIPLOMATIC ISSUES .. !!

[ NO JOINT STATEMENT DICTATED TO MEDIA ]

REPORTED BY SOURCES ...

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Broke up with my friend 6 months ago due to serious misunderstandings ...

now again we got to be in same unit in postings with hard face off...

somehow we managed for 5 weeeks in posting by avoiding each others gaze,

irritating each other by all means . If we wanna ask anything we just use a

mediator in unit , if i wanna scold her i used to scold indirectly my kid sis in

unit [ later my kid sis ll spit back me in 3 languages ;) never mind it ]

while taking cases i wont be near n vice versa ... I wont used to speak with other

unit mates or do anything in unit ( mutually all the 4 in unit doesnt go well with

me n i do the same ) ..

Initially she was thinking she got good control over unit n was

very amused to ve a incredible support from others in unit except me ...

At first it was all going her way like she would speak to prof regarding what

case to take , what to do in unit , arranging teaching annexe etc etc .. but with

weeks passed she was getting pissed that she got to do everything in unit.The

GREATEST DIFF SHE DIDNT UNDERSTAND IS SURGERY IS NOT LIKE

MEDICINE DEPARTMENT , here in surgery noone teaches seriously or

clinically everything is just book version so v get bored easily ---

on the other hand i knew this already n was spending time leisurely without

any tension of shifting , taking , or presenting case .. so now she started to

grumble that i'm not doing anything i n unit this n that , but no one wanted to

raise the issue with me n n0 one can blame me , bcos they took the responsibility.

so she setup the meeting with me .....

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HIGHLIGHTS IN THE MEET -

- she was prepared for the meet already n i knew it in last minute only

but it doesnt makes any diff [ i dont need time to prepare for a speech ;) LOL]

- she started by explaining that she started to speak today in wards bcos

she dont want both us looking like enemies in wards

- usually i would be speaking a lot , but this time i was listening in light

mood bcos that day i was in a happier mood ...

inital few minutes were serious like who s doing wrong this n that ...

- then i started to speak with my own arguements .. then she told i dont want

to fight n all... she told she want to be just CLASSMATES
[ nothing more than that ]

ok then we decided to be diplomatic , like...

how to be from now ... i told we shall speak till in wards when necessary

then go away without any fights, she asked after wards

what s our position ?

i replied u in your way n me in mine ....

- i thought the deal would be impressive but there came a topic whether we can

be friends again ?...

THE HEAT TURNED ON...

- both started to argue furiously , her allegations were too hard

n gave me the impression that i'm the reason for all this ,

she told " u just say v shall break n go , u dont mind anything , u just dont

understand me , u r too immature , etc etc "

- then she also added u havent changed after all this time still u r like

what u were ... so i cant trust u i cant be a friend to what u r now , if we wanna

be friends u got to change [------ ] she told few things to change , then added

so first u change these things then i need some time to think then if possible

v shall be friends !!!!!

WHOOO ah !!!! [ i was glas she completed ]

- then i started my points , i dont want to take it too long so i just told ...

" what u r saying is right!! i'm too immature n i dont think i can change so we

cant be friends its not possible "

" so like u say we shall just be CLASSMATES "

she finally told me she has changed a lot in this 6 months n she s

not like what i think ,she s now too steady n mature ..

I started walking saying " ya. u ve changed a lot " with the mocked smile

she too started walking without understanding my sarcasm as usual ....

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MY ANALYSIS OF THE MEET -

- the meet was nothing but stupidity

- both havent forgotten the past between us ..

- the speech was always going without any direction n i felt a bit amateurish

- i was pretty sure she hasnt changed ..

- i dont think we can be friends again ...

- she remembers everything that can be pointed out as i was wrong

- she imitates my kid sister a lot n wanna show herself as bubbley

by nature , i hate seeing that in her [ have your own identity ]

- she thinks she can disappoint me by doing certain things in unit ,god pls

tell her i'm a not that stero type stupids ...

- then finally i'm not that much angry with her now !!!

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but the meet failed without any diplomatic understandings.

Eventhough she want to be like class mates i still havent made my first move

to recognise or neither she has given up her ego to be as classmates ..

The only thing i did mature is when she told we shall be just classmates

i almost asked " does it include messaging n calling " good lord ! i got my

senses back n rolled back my tongue without asking anything stupid

so the news is THE MEET FAILED .

p.s - just after this i thought even two persons cant come to a same understanding

in a meet , then how the hell we except two nations to settle on a issue with a

meet .. Thats y v are still speaking border isssue after 60 yrs of independence.

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UPDATE -

After i got 3 rd prize in diabetic quiz she called me , for telling

CONGRATS ! so where were we now ??....

in the middle of the conversation ..

2009-11-12T22:08:00.006+05:30

in the middle of the conversation

She : if hitler has seen Eva Braun before WW II the war could be prevented ..

Ganapathy : huh... ya ,, he would ve distracted from his national
(Gany) duty n started to write poems ....:)

She : no no, not like that he would have started to like
pen instead of pistols ,
flowers instead of grenades , he would chasing
butterflies instead of jews ;
there would been no Holocaust , ghetto or Auspitz ...

Gany : mmm.. hmmm , in addition hitler would ve lost
his nation to Allies before War ..;)

She : not like that da ... she would ve taught him love n peace

Gany : shhh...come on do u think a single women could ve
changed the course of war or persons life ...

She : what do u mean then ? when u proposed u told i
created a change in you n u wanted to change
forever holding my arms ...but now u say
as if a women can influence nothing in a guys life ?
so u tried to cheat or what ..?

Gany : nothing like that bunny ;, why to compare hitler
with our issue .. v shall leave that topic ...

She : No i cant , u better make it clear...

Gany : ok. ok see what i told was not about Guys commonly
i just meant aboutHitler alone ...n ok i agree with u ,
WW II would been prevented if Hitler
have seen Eva Braun before war n fallen in Love ... ok

She : no i' not convinced ..!!!

Gany : see .. I dont want to do Hitler's mistake thats why
I started to Love you

Before INDO- CHINA war... trust me ...

She :
[ she couldnt pretend her anger anymore n her smile travelled n filled

her Dimple , bcos of her smile her ears started to lift a bit n her face

was glooming like a butterfly ...:) ]

Gany : [ he guessed what is happening on the other side n told]

LOVE YOU ...

She : Me Too... good night ...

[ she winks at the moon n the moon winks at him]

with this the microwave transmission across the BSNL n Vodafone Towers ends n

he receives a message ...

" cost for last call

is 56.30 rupees n the

balance in your mobile is

2.o5 rupees , your validity

expires on 13th nov 2009. "

Diabetic Quiz...

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PRE- SCRIPT :

The following content is written in a weird mood of Happiness ,
self arrogance and self pride .. so better skip this topic .

being a movie buff i used to watch Al Pacino , Robert Deniro kinda crime , drug , mafia movies ... for a change i saw this movie 2 months back n was stuck with its storyline... I'm not gonna write the story just the reference part

Goodwill doesnt gets commited anything to life - Prof robin atlast tells the reason for it

" U dont compete , bcos of fear of failure
U Dont love anyone , bcos of fear that i might hurt u oneday
Like is everything in life"

This part suit most of us in our life .. V just say v got no interset or v tell ourselves
we are Hypercool guys or V r freaks etc etc but the real reason for not competing
anything in Life is FEAR- we are afraid we might lose , so we just mask this with
above said lack or this n that...

After seeing this movie i realised Why i'm like this in my college .. so after seeing this movie i wanted to participate something n see how i face failure ...

It came in the form of

DIABETIC QUIZ

ON

WORLD DIABETES DAY ..

The quiz had preliminary rounds n then finals , participants can be from Final yr
n House surgeons .. To everyone's surprise i gave my name for prelim..
[ Note : I havent participated in any quiz for past two decades ] .. When i went to attend the preliminary round many gave a mocked smile "what this guy doing here " bcos i'm final yr n more over i dont step near anything related to academic activities in clg ,...

The twist was i got selected for Final round of quiz ,n you know what ? I was the only team that got selected from final yr , rest were House surgeons ... It was great success to me after all this yrs in clg . So i got satisfied with this thinking i still got the Firing neurons alive , i had no mind to prepare for finals, when the
Slight controversy took up - some gals openly claimed that its impossible for him to get selected for final , there must be some malpractice ...

Dare gals you point your gun towards me - my firing neurons aroused once again n decided i ll take one of the prize in final quiz no matter all other teams were House surgeons ... [ i decided to get down fighting ]

Final quiz day came n i did a fair job n won third prize answering indirectly that i was the right choice selected from preliminary round among final yrs .

I'm happy to the core not because of winning , i'm happy because i ve found myself in me ....

My Thanks n half of this pride goes to my friend n quiz partner Vijayaraj...
Those who doubted our slection ve witnessed our success in open podium;

IT CANT BE BETTER THAN THIS ....

P.s :
I know i'm arrogant in this post , but i dont wanna pretend as if i'm so humble , they made me furious n i ve replied to it ...

Got a Certificate and a Cash Prize:)

Again It cant be better than this ....:)

LOVE and FRIEND

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The two words make life beautiful but when they both meet ...

Ganapathy - friend - pravin

Ganapathy - ? - SHE - ? - Pravin.

Both like her n want her , thats were friendship n love meets n complicates things .

Poor her , her position is like one foot in ditch n other in soil .

she s helpless n couldnt make a decision , so i tried to help her out . ..

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So my part continues here, [ means i'm explaining her ]

" see both r bad no doubt in it , bcos i know them for years . THe option s to pick
better of the two .

First about ganapathy

1. ur not the only gal he spends time

2. he can live with any gal

3. he s too thin so u cant expect him to lift u sing songs for u ..

4. he wont take u out in two wheeler , bcos always aibo ll be in his back seat
so in future u might think aibo as bear in shiva pooja

5. even midnight he ll be only messaging , u cant expect anything more
from him

6. if u go out to dinner with him ,its just awaste of time bcos hardly he ll eat for
3 mins so u cant ve any conversation with him.

7 . if ur vintage kinetic honda struggles to start in rain u cant ask him to kick
start or push n come ..

8 . u cant introduce ur friends to him, its to risky ;)

9. If u select him , arul ll also come n speak to u .Like 20g free with 100g tooth
paste , so u gotta use that 20g free arul also..!!!

10. Only good thing to select him is he ll give 65rs Amritha gifts often ...

on other hand , about Pravin

1. one of the dumbest human being in ur locality ..

2. He always keeps a distance from u , its not due to shy , its bcos he wants
Love to fill in the gap between u n him..

3. he can live even with ur photograph for life ...

4.He never minds even when u do mistake like when u mispronounce his name

as paveen kumar ; he smiles to it saying she s still a kid n so speaks in

kid's slang .

5. just for ur one word he ll do anything, like wash his multicreature shit
loaded bike when u want to look the bike clean..

6. got 50 gb ----- in Hard disk , so ll entertain u in all ways ;)

7 . got cowboy friends arun n pranesh , ll fool them easily n spend all
time with you ..

8. He ll eat for an hour , so going out with him ll make u feel excited.

9. A good poet , ll make u immortal through his lines like

" you know why Friday Gods are decorated ?

bcos she comes to temple on friday !!! "

" she told she hugs teddy bear n sleep everyday

I asked could the teddy bear close its eyes after seeing u ?"

10 . Moreover tomorrow his b'day so if u select him he ll give Oc treat , ..

so if u ask me, whom u want to select i would say better dont select both of them ...

cheers ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRAVIN KUMAR [ KUCHI]

Final Msg :

Pravin dont feel noone loves u , bcos might be ur future Wife s

praying so strongly that u should be for her alone, forever !!!! LOL

LOVE SICK

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SHE : huh !! what on earth made u to do that??
why on earth u told to me ?

ganapathy : I was not on earth when i told it to u :) you want me to say again..

she : enough i'm sick of it , i'm sick hearing ur dialogues. stop it .

ganapathy : u know what a toll it took for me to tell that??

she : y me then ???

ganapathy : bcos i love you :)

she : see ... u got

[ before she could complete he pushes her against a wall and locks the two sides with his hand , she resists but unable to move ... he moves his face close to her ... she could feel his warm breadth - she was feeling lighter , she was lifting herself up, all her blood was rushing towards her cheek , ok she s now ready to go - she made her move near him ; suddenly he went back saying " u know i'm looking so beautifull in your EYEs "

she was taken by suprise , but somehow regained her composure and gave a thin smile just ending within lips .... he started to move n she was watching him till the end of the corridor .. ]

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ganapathy's poem for her

" i see ur image all over sky ,

but i cant touch it.

i smell ur fragrance in my mind

but only fragrance is not LIFE "

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p.s - After the sad last post , i want to cheer up myself , thats y a romantic part about our romantic guy.

Where Am I ??

2009-10-26T22:37:00.006+05:30

....complete darkness , its so dark than the dark. I can see nothing inside , i felt hostile and wanna get out of it but i insist to go on... For a while it was so silent , i kept my hand near ears to hear any sound .
I could hear Nothing not even whistling sound of the breeze , it struck later the place i'm now has no air - the space is VACCUM . I started to fear whether this is Hell??

just waited for something to happen ... not suddenly , slowly i started to see rays of light dispersing and taking forms to be precise irregular forms . It was not continuous just flickering of images n sound ... I started to focus on images and made out some images like

- i'm smiling with friends

- hear a music track probably Raja's songs

- a gal comes into view , its glaring so i shrink my eyes n see it again "oh god" its her how she s hear ?? i never knew she s here , i thought she left long before

- a group of people stand there staring at me , i went close n saw - they were all people
who i hate on earth

-i see myself now , i'm looking good at 50 a bit bald but still fit with stiff shoulders n ordering men

- then i see hitler , achilles , alexander all standing near to one another

- then all Hollywood celebrity smiling at me

- ah ! there stands actress sridevi , she s still young there

- on the other side all my friends r sitting together n chatting

- lots of books and lots of schedule written here n there of what to be done

- Now hear lots of bad words ; a voice s scolding me for being lazy , not even moving single page a day , the voice questions my confidence n whether i got any brains after all ...

I cant take more - i hit back the Voice by saying FUCKING RETARD ! FUCK YOURSELF ..

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Now i'm back to this world . Shit ! thought to attempt to know what is in our mind n went inside ,,, che thu .... its a fucking worst place than outside , no happiness there too....

AS final yr mbbs exams r nearing i find all the places are making me uncomfortable ... I say many times a day that everyone has changed , noone minds others , my friends all are living in their own island so n so.... i am obviously stressing myself , urging myself to change ..

Every day i woke up saying today i must change- but i dont know what to change in me and where to change .... Just pushing me to the saddest part of my mind .
I feel everything unreal -
i 'm sad without any reasons ,
i'm dejected without cause
i feel hurt without any failure or relationship break up ....

suddenly i get a feel that i must start a New Life . Even now i dont know how to complete this post - may be i'm .. mm ... donno what i'm now ....

i dont even want to post this post ,a bit awkward feel ... ANyway .

P.s : the only thing i find interesting now -a -days is chatting with my lost school friend ,means studied in school - lost contact - found after 5 yrs , nice to chat with that friend , have a lots of distance between us , not easy to meet , so very exciting to chat with , also not a medico so again a relief to speak something other than my subject n listen to . .

p.p.s That friend is SHE enough ; go to sleep .

TAG

2009-10-01T16:02:00.002+05:30

FOund this tag interesting ...

Here are the rules:

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3
Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

So here I give my answers :

Asked someone to marry you? Guilty.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.

Ever told a lie? Guilty.

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.

Kissed a picture? Innocent .

Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent.

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? Guilty.

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.

Stolen from a store? Innocent.

Been fired from a some routine job? Guilty.

Done something you regret? Guilty.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.

Kissed in the rain? Innocent.

Sat on a roof top? Guilty.

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

Sang in the shower? Guilty.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.

Shaved your head? Innocent .

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a girlfriend cry? Guilty.

Been in a band? Innocent.

Shot a gun? Innocent

Donated Blood? Innocent.

Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent.

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty.

Been too honest? Guilty.

Ruined a surprise? Guilty.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Guilty.

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.

Joined a pageant? Innocent.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.

Had communication with your ex? Innocent.

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Innocent.

Arun give a try da...

Out of Medicine ...

2009-10-01T14:28:00.004+05:30

Twelve weeks of medicine posting is over once for all ... It was Hectic but at late stage i started to enjoy it, it kept me busy 7.30 op , 10 .00 wards , 1.00 Theory class . Life was moving like a time table . Now its over and i still have its withdrawal effects , day seems very boring in Skin and STD department .

Being in first unit medicine is considered prestigious in our college , i'm glad i was posted in first unit . Only in first unit wearing a name badge is compulsory . Everything was methodical n systematic in first unit , as general rule i never fit in systems ;) so struggled a bit and moved in a pace to match others although i was not completely committed to it. Anyway its a happy Ending and i have no regrets with the unit or unitmates ... Though there were small medium misunderstandings within our unit ( 8 members) neither of us were interested in making it a big deal.

sooooo .... getting to relax now ( was relaxing in medicine also, but now without any guilty of wasting time) ... here comes the things which moved n got pissed me in unit ...

MOVED

1. The sincerity of the Department in teaching us , really inspiring .

2. vijayaraj ,my best friend was always by my side for three months in same unit , we both dint have such a long time together after First yr Dissection table .

3. fourth unit chief , the way he taught CNS .

4. DR.Rathnakumar.M.D - a man of fire , i ve never seen anyone such sincere in profession ,
i really admired the effort he took to teach us , the depth of his knowledge in subject was immense. The only thing i thought about him is HE IS TOO MUCH QUALIFIED for this job,
although many doesnt like him , i would say the sole reason is mere FRUSTRATION because of his knowledge n not able to be in his unit. He is also rather kind but you wont agree .

vijayaraj used to say this sir is an inspiration for how we must be in our future medicine profession. he really liked him.

PISSED

1. Got to attend two seminars both were long long narration about disease with incidence less than 0.1% , we cant leave the auditorium in middle so got suffered in those VERBAL DIARRHOEAS

2. got to attend a CME programme again the same thing what they do in US , UK - god i havent completed the line of treatment in india but they speak about intercontinental treatment ...

3. Unit gals , especially two made us really sick , dint co-operate with any things ( missed ganapathy if he has been with us he would ve brought the co-operation with his gimmick trick of attracting gals )

one gal in that pretended like hell , she has got a tag line " she never speaks to guys . she got no interest over guys , this n that " to prove her self tagline she doesnt tells even a essential details to us like about case for tomorrow , or findings . i personally knew that she speaks well to two guys in her old unit n make treats n fun with them , even she has been seen dinning with them n all , i dont complain about it n ve no pblm in it , my question is why the hell she pretends before us n in college to ve a name based on her tag line . Noone minds what others do or to whom we speak then why r u wearing a mask ? u r a damm fool.

The reason why i'm scolding her here s she happens to my kid sis's friend n once when i made strong comment against her my kid sis started to fire against me so i found this place would be safer :)

Then i had good time with vysakha , subramani, ramachandar...

so for now medicine is over with all fun n thrill now moving into surgery were i'm going to meet all my old rivals 6 member unit including me , 3 wont speak to me so that leaves 2 , one in that two is my kid sis n she ll be serious in unit n wont speak often , that leaves only one to speak , who is that one ;) ? It doesnt matter . Go on !!!

Time to da TAG...

2009-08-29T21:01:00.005+05:30

Tagged by Arun,

About the TAG:The idea is, to list five items in each category and not necessarily in order of liking. You can always add or subtract categories according to your will. Then tag five people.

My five favorite words :

1. Mayeeru ( hair) - though not a parliamentary word i use it always
to express my excitement, frustration n
possibly all moods.

2. ok - i use it with a deep expiration to end the conversation .

3. che - dont know how i got used to it, not able to get rid of it.

4. best - use this to annoy my friend's situation when they get fired in wards.

5. see you - i like this word so much , i even say ' see u' to strangers after a conversation
i feel it as a word of respect to them.

My five favorite celebrity crushes:

1. sri devi - ( before the cosmetic nose surgery )

2. angelina julie - her lips , my god! ( sorry pitt)

3. Ana Ivanovic - ( u r the best forehand winner in women's tennis, get back to the rhythm)

4. penelope cruz

5. jennifer connelly

My five favorite random things:

1. Toothbrush - just love brushing , i was a left hander n was forced to write n do all things in right , but i brush with left hand, the only thing my parents didnt note when i was a kid, so got only
one event to prove i'm a left hander .

2. Mirror - spend lots of time combing my hair n desperately pluck my mustache
hoping soon it ll get thick n wide.

3. Purse - heavy purse to be clear, always ll fill my purse with coins , i like my purse
to be heavier.

4. chain - that chain was given by my Grand pa when i was born , still wearing
it n love biting it , when i'm alone or feel alone.

5. Horse - never had a ride , but like to see it ( i ve seen only twice, that
too it was a bit like brother donkey,
dream lots about How Alexander won the whole world with Bucephlaos )

My Five Favourite Literary Characters :

1. Margret - from Scarlett Pimpernel

2. Edmond Dantes - from The Count of Monte Cristo

3. Jackal - from The Day oF Jackal

4. Catherine blake - from The Unlikely Spy.

5. Gabreil Allon - from The Kill Artist.

My Five Favourite Movie Characters :

1. Micheal corelone - from THE GODFATHER

2. Vito Corelone - from THE GODFATHER

3. Col. Frank Slade - from The Scent oF Woman.

4. Achilles - from Troy

5. Surya - from Thallapathi ...

thats all ... I made it .

My First Attempt ...

2009-08-19T09:24:00.004+05:30

Thought to do Arun's tag , but suddenly it striked why shouldn't i try new things , whatever crap it may be but its my space :)

MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Hikoo...

" ... my life is a poem

but i'm not a poet "

p.s - actually what i want to mean is , i feel my life as a poem but i dont have the
complete control over it like apart from my Autonomous nervous
system other things dont go as my wish , my mind , my thoughts ,
my likings are going in its own direction . .

MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Story

I loved her, she didn't love me .

Prologue- what to do ? if she had loved me back i could ve written romanctic poems, lines , conversations , cat fights etc etc, n there might been a villain too ... but she dint love so thats all . But its a complete story by all means no loop holes..

p.s- first story with prologue longer than story .

MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Acrostics

G - girls like him and

A - always want him

N- near them , not that he is the sexiest

A - and romantic

P - person in the world , but girls want

A- all the sexiest guys in the world

T - to look like

H - him, you may wonder

Y - y? , thats life , it doesnt give the answer to all questions...

p.s - ganapathy my college friend , deserves each word in it. i havent seen
Romeo, Anthonio, hamlet or Paris , but i ve seen ganapathy- our college
romeo. You deserve more than this man...

then i dont ve any new attempts , will come back soon with MY SECOND ATTEMPTS ...

god take me to hell ...

2009-08-15T23:58:00.000+05:30

What am i , cha i should ve never done this !!! God take me n arun to hell .

Being a friend how come i do this , how can i console his sadness , he s frying in frustration there ,

his dry sorrow's drinking all his blood , he is melting with disgust ,
he s dying of loneliness ,

" spilled rice could be picked but

Spilled words in anger cant "

ah ! how true the words of tamil poet . When i think that i'm one of the reason for this, i dont even want to see my face in mirror .

Before explaining the incidence let me give intro about them ,

he s ganapathy my good friend ( not anymore after my stupid act)

she well known as M***.. ..

they both , they both , they both ... guys i need not explain there s only one possibility to guess between them .. ya. u r ryt ?

Everyone envy them , they made together well , i was very proud of him while others say "how he got that girl,

"she was like a sacred apple only for god "

They were always together with their sms , smiles , Ladies hostel gate meetings
[which he used to joke as his gateway of india ]... he even became
a poet after seeing her , one of his poems

" when she sees me i feel

her eyes as a pair of black disc

Revolving around singing a song

which only i Hear- Bethoven symphony"

Now the incident ( the following things r true to each word )

During noon class one day he dint come , while me n arun was chatting
we found M*** was messaging someone with full of smiles n shyness.

its a usual thing n well kown to everyone bcos ganapathy n M**** ll be always messaging in class . Guys used to watch it as a wimbledon match turning both sides .. like first he ll typing with smiles n we used to watch him , then after pressing SEND button that side M**** ll stop taking notes n start to msg with smile ...
it goes goes like FedEX- Nadal final match in wimbledon sunday. always the rallies ll be very long !!!.

That day while she was messaging , i sms-ed him where r u ? n r u messaging her ? [ i'm a dumb to ask this which started everything ]

He replied " no, i'm not messaging her" .

My part is over with this but me n arun ve done enough to start a World War
between them ...

That evening as usual she messaged her without knowing what s going to happen ...

M : hi pa ,y u dint come to class huh ?

G : no specific reason , u missed me ?

M : ( with smile ) no no , just was doing another work ( with a kidding smiley) .

G : ( controlled his last cm of temper ) oh. what work may i know ??

M : n0 way ! just was in a romantic mood so so.. mmmhmm wont tell what
i was doing ....

G : ok. where u messaging in class today ?

M : god ! u some nostredam , how u guessed it ? great pa, but i wont tell
any detail about it

G: no need , its obvious from the way u msg now ...

M : i dont get u , what u mean ?

( he dint mean to ask it , but his possessiveness overtook his sense )

G : u found another guy ?

( poisonous words which spread like venom in her , she was shattered ,

she simply couldnt breathe but somehow replied him )

M : ur word s dissecting me alive ... a relationship without
Trust s worth nothing.
Good bye once for all .

( she throw ed the mobile n fell in tears ) ...

They both didnt know god s playing this game ... The Truth s He s very concerned for her , his endless affection for her just made him turn blind for few seconds within which all damages ve be done ...

She was actually messaging VODAFONE for activation of tunes which they can hear while speaking to their liked ones , she wanted to keep it a suprise
for him , but now everything s gone ....

Me n Arun were used as toys by God for this act ... sometimes god is cruel.

May be its true " she s a sacred apple for god " so god did this to separate them .

Now he still cant make his mind clear has changed his orkut status msg as

"am NOT weak.. u dont know LOVE n Frenship ... i feel sorry for u "

evethough he reflects his anger towards her in orkut , he cant still realise

what is deep inside his heart - its only HER..

( if u dont beleive , go n read his status msg in orkut ) ..

When ll they dance together ....

When ll they see the sunrise together ...

.... its upto god to decide .

6weeks of life ...

2009-08-15T23:05:00.000+05:30

Six weeks over am still Breathing... final yr medicine posting s considered as one
of the toughest in career . out of 12weeks i ve completed first half n the Internal assessment
...
Actually i dint find it very difficult as i expected (thanks to my friend's worthy !! advice how
to get accustomed to it) ... The thing i felt difficult s reaching hosp 7.30, standing in wards , so n so
small small physical strain.

I made myself clear before postin that i cant complete all medicine books or know every
word in medicine , i'm moving at my own pace, never minding what others think about me ..

My achievments in 6 weeks.;

1. i havent answered a single question in op ( only once i was questioned in entire 6weeks)

2. i dint change any of my schedule - saw eng movies, went to theatre, played
cricket , went for night treats, went long long distance dinner .

3. i slept more than usual ...

4 . i'm not going noon classes, got used to post-prandial sleep (enjoying the
sleep as a result of splanchinic vasodilatation)

serious part ..

5. i'm less talkative , i see the difference in me . I hate those serious faces
around me discussing subjects , so keep mum , also constant torture from kid sister saying
i dont behave mature enough, i'm never serious etc, etc, so just reduced my overflowing speech.
seriously i dont know how to behave serious , she wont understand so just keep tough
face at times and pretend i'm serious ....

thats all nothing more ...

Then about my unit ...

My unit s a bit brainy unit , so naturally i got to suffer between them. At first
i cant even follow them , even at times i used to guess what language they speak ...
Even while examing i dont hear what they hear with steth. And am poor in differentiating
the heart murmurs ...

so i play a tactic in unit , when reading about a disease i ll search n read a Rare n rarest
sign, next day while examining i ask whether this sign present or not , just love !!to see their
blinking eyes with self questioning themself .

Eg. i asked one day whether Tansoyl's sign present while examining Liver in Cirrhosis patient . ( actually its a simple test , just need a inch tape to do it , just the word is unheard)
These r my small small things i do to survive in unit ...

The most convincing part came this week in First Unit wards, while taking class sir
told all these murmur r nothing usefull in ur life after passing final yr mbbs unless u take cardio.
I exhaled with great relief " oh god i will escape soon "

Logic fact for this is :- Before 30 yrs to pass mbbs u must know everything about syphilis ,

at present to pass mbbs u must know everything about Rheumatic fever n heart disease.

Eventually the incidence of new cases of rheumatic fever s drastically reduced after

introduction of appropriate antibiotic treatment . .

Anyway first unit medicine is a different experience , just one week over, so
ll write about it in separate post after 6weeks. .

The toughest question came during I.A when my chief asked

what speciality u going to take after mbbs ?

I blinked for a longtime n then answered i havent decided yet sir ,
that day i was very embarrased n thought he could ve asked a toughest question in subject instead.
still i got no answer for it , when i think about it i feel really bad so stopped thinking about it. . .
I even know what my friends going to take like

Arunkumar - Radiologist [ MD,DMRD]

Vijayaraj - ENT [MS]

Ganapathy - MS [ general surgeon ]

Henithraj - MD [ anaesthesia ]

then how come i dont know what i'm
interested in ... ok right now i'm not interested in this topic , goin to sleep ..

she s my... PART II

2009-07-11T15:52:00.000+05:30

saw her when i was 17 ( read older post she s my ... ) studied in same school , liked her , couldnt
tell her , she went , i went, years passed n after 41/2 years i met her again.

the moment i recognised its her as expected i became wordless , but not this time ,
i recovered quick n thought a way to speak to her . But she was with her mom n she dint she me , so it ll be odd to go n introduce myself, after all i havent spoke a word to her in two years school life . i told this to praveen when he started the bike , suddenly he stopped n told

" if u miss this chance u may regret it for life , so better go n speak ", i resisted but he told
" ok i ll start the conversation n u continue " , ( antonio in my story )

the plan worked n i spoke to her for 2 mins , all formal , but still i the feel the excitement. Till this moment wat i wanted is to speak a few words to her , but after this my mind asking next i want with her is ... bullshit . stop it .. crazy mind.

all these years she havent changed a centi metre ,but she told me " u ve changed a lot , i couldnt recognise u easily"

thought to interupt n tell " ..... " but just left ...v both r 22 now n the fact of becoming
anything together s remote , she s a engineer n am going to be a doctor. she got her career i ve my own, i got her mobile no. but not gonna call or msg . i cant just pretend to be a friend to her via forw msg n goodnight .

I got only two option " to love her or leave her alone "

I preferred the second ll be good for her .

the funniest thing s the same week i went to a evergreen hit film which was again released after 13 years n crowd was limited to our finger count , when the famous dialogue came...

" first love if lost pricks like thorn throughout our life "

i clapped alone in the theatre.

Davidson, hutchison , Macleod's , alagappan ...

2009-07-11T14:39:00.000+05:30

all these guys r screwing me . They just wrote a book n died , now their book s killing
me over generation . my life has started to be influenced by them.

Intro am a final yr mbbs student , being overloaded more than i could bear. i wake run
to hosp as attendance closes by 7.30 ( missing a class leads to serious conseq like apology ,
letter, meeting with chief , then HOD - lots of protocol ) so better see my sunshine in
hospital rather than being fucked by them .
they leave us by 12.45 n i got to ve lunch n return for 1 -4 lecture hours . a tight schedule
n most things happen in hosp make us dumb.
continous firing of questions y v say this guy has this symptom , v cant just escape by saying a commonest 2 disease , u must be knowing all the 15 disease name for each symptom . it goes n goes n at one stage u become completly exhausted n right that time another question comes.

another thing s v got to know everything from the above books , which screws most of our time.
I wont say i dont ve time or busy, the thing s medicine occupy our mind n close all exit of happiness .

like - u dont go for any lateral thoughts .

- u just agree what others say, u dont make arguement .

- u just think 2 things 1. questions in today's class,
2. questions of tommorrow's class .

- u become demoralised on seeing others prep , u become depressed
when they answer a question n u dont even ve a faintest idea of where it starts .

- u get daymare when they ask questions like, 2nd & 3rd yr class where i was
just sitting without listening n chating with
friends , i hear voice of pharm prof rajaraman advicing us.

- u just pretend to be tired n avoid outings n friends ... it goes on ,

but its my life , so i cant just walk out ... i got go on. I'm just losing focus ,its natural
i ve been enjoying 31/2 years clg life n suddenly when i'm exposed to such environment
i feel vulnerable n really i was never focussed in my clg .

i can also feel the change in myself , i'm not talkative now a days , just losing
my sense of humour , dont make a big fun or anything , just get off my friends n move alone ,
want to pretend as if i'm listening every word in class .. my thoughts before sleep is related
to my incomepetence in wards. life s moving like time table , started to think how happy
i was THOSE days ...

i dont recite any phoenix stories or inspirational quotes
made by einstein or alexander to motivate me ,
i feel those r artificial motivation like cocaine or ecstasy
what i'm doing is

" i'm still holding the rope"

i dont pray for any super natural powers from god , i dont want to be like x or y ,neither i wont give up .

i want to work upto my standards n show progress ...

a progress which ll make me feel comfortable about what i'm doing rather than challenging stupidly like i ll get Medal in medicine n show who i'm . And finaaly i want to become a
doctor by all means ....

A sick joke to show how much my sense of humour has dried ,

Q : how to make god smile ?

Ans : Tell ur future plans .

Interview...

2009-06-03T16:41:00.000+05:30

... inspired from another blogger. Just want to interview someone ,
my first attempt ll be with Arun. I love Karan's Devils ADvocate , he completly
studies about the person n fires his questions , there ll be no loose ends or sieve to
escape with diplomatic answers . so let me try that way...

arun i know u for 4yrs n we both r gangbang friends , but this place s going to
be Hot , really. questions ll be here, visit arun's blog n find the whole interview.

Hello Arun ,

1. how r u ? (its not a simple question by answering Fine or better but clg sucks, ward tortures
etc , it means how do u find ur self in this world , how u r to others ?
how r u in this environment )

2. you show arun as a very composed guy who speaks only to his friends , not active in
expressing things , but in blogworld u r completely a different guy n extremely opp.
Dont u feel it a contradiction , wat if i say u live a Double Life ?

3. You never look into others eyes while speaking that too while speaking to a stranger ?
U avoid eye contact bcos u dont mind them or u dont know to observe things?

4. Some say bloggers r a " Bunch of F***kS " n social dumbs, thats y they use this place
to express things . your comment on this statement ?

5. Do u believe bloggers are expressing their true emotions ? Eg.when a gal writes against
dowry or male dominance lots of guys comment as Cheers , hugs, genuine thought etc
do u beleive those guys r going to be The way they comment ?

6. Do u ve pride of driving ur car to college ?

7. Personal Diary Vs Blog ? which s the best ?

8. Do u think blog can reduce ur stress? since v r in final yr n being bombarded
with medical books do u feel a sign of relief after writing a blog?

9. What s the purpose of having a blog ? Do u think it can bring any change in ur life ?

10. You r going to become a Radiologist n continue ur parents Diagnostic Centres , then
marry a gal who ll be ur families distant relative or daughter of ur family friend.
Dont u feel ur life s a Already written script , dont you feel its boring to be in a
predictable way ?

11. will you Love anyone madly n fight against the whole world for her?

12. Have u got any dream that one day the whole world should turn your side ?

13. you r good or bad ? [ dont answer somewhere in between ]

14. " bloggers write poem , thoughts , etc to just impress others n make believe this s thier view . they do
such things bcos they want to be noted , it s way of making cheap Show " ur comment on the above
statement ?

ok .I'm done . it ends the first part of my interview . Planning to do Part II of this same interview
after reading his replies , still got lots of question to screw him.

something i want to tell ...

2009-05-31T22:50:00.000+05:30

but ... ok its bcos of my alter ego so i couldnt. Let me use this place to
come out,which i cant do in coll in front of them ...
I'm not going to use names , just a single alphabet ( not first or last) , a unique
alphabet from thier names . ( i know some of them i know r reading this blog so
a cyber protection ;-) ...

-----> U - i miss u so much da , v had great time in II n III yr together in ur
room. u r such a nice person i dont want to miss in life. Just v r in diff postin n
busy schedule i cant speak to u much, nothing other than that. I always used to tease,
make fun of u n create a hell of cases against u , dont mind it .ok. its not that u r
so vulnerable , u r so sportive n dont matter things seriously. Apart from that u r
always my trusted one n i speak very openly to u . U always give ur unbisaed opinion
n i value it much. I want to be very close to u forever.

----> J - I think i dont ve anything to tell about u here . V both go well together
n there s no secrets within us not even cheap secrets. But neither of us control others,
i find it a matter of concern now a days bcos that v both ve same wavelength when v join
together the thing becomes BIG both good n bad . for now its great fun n happiness
but in future v must be reasonable n questioning each others. V r worst than drunken
drivers after night show , v r worst than bent pipe ladies in speaking gossips, v r worst than
the worst in all activities . But v always tell WE WILL CHANGE . I think time has come
for action in this statement.

----> P - u r a valuable friend to me . U r always available n so kind , its fun to
be with u , just one thing to
tell , u ve lots of gfs but i think u must change ur attitude , only speaking
wastes time n energy ... so start to DO something with them . I think u can understand my
point . doing something also wastes energy but not the TIME ;)
[ my friend can understand this point for others i ve to explain to avoid misinterpretation,
i meant he s a innovative man so i advise him to do tree plantation , coll welfare programs
etc etc with them ]

----> Y - u think i'm not close with u , i'm not free with u . bt its not like that . u also think
i'm too close to him . eventhough i tease with language Our language is not a barrier for us.
but i must agree even i feel odd distance with u, i think its bcos of our contradictory views
on certain things , for now v respect others views though v dont agree. Soon i ll cross over it
n completly be normal with u. I want to be a friend to u forever , dont ve any precise reason for
it but its wat i feel in this drowsy hour [12. 10 am]. one thing i want to make clear among us,
no indifferences within us , v r always TRIO.

----> E - i like u so much n u r the only gal where i dont see any actress impersonating
face .( most of the gals i speak do expression n slang similar to actress like most common
SS jenelia , Subramaniapuram swathy , K K jyotika - i hate such gals , stupids losing their
individuality which s the only thing others love in us)
but in the previous postin somethings ve changed my view , when i was always feeling
lonely i expected a lot from u , thought atleast u ll be supportive to me , but it dint happen.
I'm finding no fault in u. What i mean s now a days for everything i expect u , even for simple
things like about case, questions , tomorrow's work etc, which looks stupid for me , its even not good for my self . so i ve decided to move n
keep a distance from u n try to do things for myself without expecting u . U r always my
fav but wont be moving around u often. hope u can understand.

----> B- v both r stupids , no hard feelings , v must stop speaking the day before exam.
bcos everyone reads n only v both discuss how to spend the time in exam hall by simply
sitting . Even the day before our final yr O&G full paper exam v were talking about IPL
final n how to sit tomorrow ,then i went to sleep , hope u also did the same .

----> T - u r fun loving n serious man. Dont join with me n [B] da .. u r wasting time
with us in posting .Read with others , but i wont tell this straight to u bcos v love having
u by our side. ;)

----> V - never thought u ll be such a nice man. Its great to be ur friend. u r
very balanced n really i admire it. just i feel u r a bit controlling urself n hiding
ur nature in coll. U ve great sense of humour n timing but i dont see it in coll, just
within ur room u r king , i want u to be the same way outside, with others also, not just
with close ones alone. [ for that i'm not asking u to be like ( P) , its impossible for us , he
has natural power to speak even to JOy alukkas kerala receptionist -details below ]

----> O - just i walked out , thats wat u think ,its not so. I always was sincere friend
to u , but ur demands were too much n i couldnt afford that price ... see for a gal i cant
lose all my friends n individuality . u strongly commented my friends
, u wanted to change me, which i wont do for anyone . then u r
were too pretending which i hate in anyone . U do some things to hurt me which make
me really laugh n angry . Finally i came to know about lot of ur lies which made me lose
faith in u .... Its a bit difficult for both us , being in same postin but ve to carefully avoid
each other , hope will soon forget all things about u n start to look beyond u . But for now
i'm not going to play any mind games with u , if u wish u play .

Ok i think i ve completed . Its nice to do this , feel a bit lighter now. Will try to
do this in future also ...

back to the story -

[P] 's family went to buy jewels , when everyone was searching
jewels , he was searching for the kerala receptionist , found her n asked how s ur
hair so long n straight ? !!!! , no one can be like this , but the the story is still dere , she
smiled at him n they both spoke about this for half n hour . After that he would ve
surely got LONG n Straight ( no no, u readers r really bad ) hair.

P.s : children below 18 n heart patient dont try this , bcos [P] s professionally trained
n experienced man.

children above 18 do such things under his guidance .

P.s.s . Ganapathy , see i dint mention ur name this time, i respect ur feelings .

being Tagged...

2009-05-27T20:13:00.000+05:30

I ve been tagged by my friend arun. so let me give a try...

1. only once i ve told " I love you " . Kept ice cold face n with animal directness i
said to her . Actually told twice , whenever i speak off imp things she just asks
me Wat? as if she dint hear it. so i said it twice without waiting for her Wat? ..

2. Two times i ve been caught by police . First in my tvs champ for driving
without license. Second the night after seeing Dark night movie i was
racing my 70cc bike thinking as if i'm in Batman bike, this time they stopped
me for asking whether i saw anyone in the road i came with white shirt. The
next day some chain snatching case in that st.
The funny thing is i never take my license when i drive my car, but no one ve ever
stopped n asked for licnense . When i drive 70cc Gearless clutchless two wheeler
everyone asks to show the license. Crazy guys they dont know wat is the purpose
of license .

3. Having my third mobile. First nokia 3315 , then nokia 6020 now having
SONy Ericsson Walkman 580 i . I Love it , great display n music.

4. Got four times injured in head .
I std - still no hair in that sutured area.
VI std - mild bleeding
VIII std - severe injury as i fell upright while doing monkey air jump.
X std - fell while riding cycle by holding friend's hand in sunny bike . Popular
ride during school days cyclers speeding by holding bikers.

5. from first yr mbbs i ve changed my study table positon 5 times citing reason
like, this direction light is not coming so only i couldnt study this n that
all though the real reason s i aint interested in reading.

6. My first romance happened when i was studying 6th . V both go in same auto to school
, she was my classmate n same section too. cant forget that bumping ride when
both our arms used to touch. divine romance without any thing in mind .
bcos at that age v both dont know anything other than
games n cartoons ...

7. Got 7 GF's actually 6 + i exGF . But been a friend for 2 yrs so she deserves to be
in this list.

8. My fav number , bcos many say 8 is unlucky no. so got a small feel in liking that no.

9. In 9th std i was changed from A.U.P.E.T school to Sri Jayendra school saying
studies r good in this school. Really discovered myself in this school ... a innocent
silent sensitive boy turned into a spoiled , farce , freak n stupid junk in this school.
cheers. ..!! I like how i'm now . Got life long friends from my 9th std.

10. My fav quote in tamil

" the person who says i got only bare hands wat to do ll be a Loser.

The one who sees his hand and say i got 10 fingers to Win this world

will become a LEGEND. "

really its nice n a bit difficult to think . Anyway was a different experience to tag.

Alien Vs Puppets

2009-05-09T22:12:00.000+05:30

believe me i never wanted to go. I envied when boygals go
for treat in a group but this time i was really not interested. Bcos
i dont like any of them, but he gave me no chance . One of my
batch mate celebrated his b'day n he arranged treat in Arasan bakery
by 12noon !! I had gynaec theatre that day n it was over by 11.30 so
i thought i escaped n went home.
But he called me by 12 n said where r u ? i told to wait na ?
come here at once ? I cant give him a reason so i had to start .
Its the first time i was going to such boygals treat n was thinking lots about
it. Just when i reached i was late by 10mins . Got a corner seat, like
pre-planned i kept mum. The table had 8 guys n 10 gals . Among this
two pairs , one is the b'day boy n his love n other one was the suprise pair .
Like usual treat they had the routine stero type fun like sharing ice creams
laughing for sick jokes , unnecessary snaps , cross comments,
each one trying to prove themself as show stealers ,
each one trying to show their sense of humour . But i was new to that atmosphere
so opted to be an observer.
As treat was moving i felt myself as alien in that table , bcos everyone was
behaving completly senseless. They were just making a big fuss around so
that other table people would stare at them n think these guys n gals
r having great time together.
i suspect at that moment they would even laugh if i say today s tuesday.
Bunch of puppets i thought , then final part came when everyone started to
show their individuality like using stupid comments , gal throwing tissue paper
on boy , boy keeping horn to gal while taking snaps ... Each one commenting
about others make up etc etc .... 1.15 hr i really got pissed off.
Finally i was about to leave when my ex-gal friend wanted to speak to
me... She started her usual dialogues n ended by saying " u also try to be casual
friend like this n enjoy life with friendship "

,.... oops that was the last thing i want to hear " someone advising me to
be casual n enjoy " . I dont want to be in arguement with her so just let her off.
But is this what enjoyment means i dont want to do that .. bcos i know each n
everyone in that table n how they r . No one r actual friends all r just masked
friends , even during treat one was personally kidding about
the other to me .
I'm not anything like RSS or MNS or against gals , but happiness s not just
making fuss or showing fake enthusiam around unliked ones .
Even i would go with a gal in future but it wont be just to show others .
These people think themselves as nxt generation , modern but what they do
s they r just missing their natural happiness n peace .
i'm not against treat or freaking with gals but my point s y to ve fake happiness
without any reality n i dont want to pretend like them .
It was a nice experience bcos i happened to know about a Falsely made
enjoyment n i dont want to be a part of it in future .

... just few things i want to tell them
1. Dont order unusal food stuffs to show urself
2. Dont try to order the waiter to show urself before gals , be polite .
3. Dont behave silly like using personal comments , the people sitting in other
tables will surely think u r a junk n uncultured.
4. Gals dont think leaving half the food uneaten s sign of high class behaviour.
5. Gals dont try to joke when u really cant n prove u r a nut...
6. Gals dont think all r watching u n smile unnecessarily showing ur gums n teeth..
7. Guys dont be a fool by always paying the bill...

A advice to me

" Dont ever try to get in such dipshits again, be with ur own band of friends "

such treats r useless unless u go with ur really liked ones. Orelse go
without calling me ...

Reply to my ex-friend

" I'm always casual , thats y i ve left u without telling u . Then u dont need to advice
me to enjoy life . I know my toe n people around me know how i'm."

This was a very tough week with full of irritating people around me
so that reflects in my blog .... next time vil meet u with arun's
( my friend ,clg mate ) soft love story
Gone with the wind.

Arun's hikoo

" kanne a**tha

un

ullathai alli tha "

"

i slept in platform ....

2009-04-16T21:59:00.000+05:30

... for the first time i slept in a railway platform . our gang went
for kerala tour . v started on 12th night in Guruvayur express n reached
our destination point Ernakullam [cochin] by early morning 4.30 itself
, being one day tour v cant book room but v still got 2hrs for bus so no other
way to sleep other than platform.

But platform gave me a sound sleep even with noisy crowd , train honking
and all other disturbance of railway station. I always use to pity on the people
who sleep in platform but its wrong.Really it gave a sleep which i cant even get
in air conditioned room. Please try !!! its a great feel .

Then about tour , our gang enjoy in any place v dont need a separate
atmosphere for enjoying but this time it was a different experience. It
was kerala - SPICY STATE how rightly named . yes its a place of varieties.
Let me go in detail ...

FIRST STEP IN KERALA

The moment i landed my first step [ ernakulam ]
in kerala i started to admire the state . The climate , scenary everything in
kerala was so nice but i dint see them , the thing made to admire is

GIRLS

Every girl was breathtaking n i think spicy state s the best when
it comes to gals , ..... NOW u can correctly guess this tour was
organised by Ganapathy .

In railway station i saw a gal , she was looking great so my mind

started to search for a nice line or hi koo but soon there was another one

so i halted the previous gal thought n started to think for her , then there

was another one , again another .... My brain dried out of romantic lines

n poetic words . Soon i understood its not possible in this state .

Most of the gals are beautiful n different . Different - thats the important

point , every gal was unique . I prayed only one thing there ( see below)

BREAK FAST

We reached veega land by 7 am itself n the theme park will open

by 10 only so v have to again be in kerala streets . First v went to a small hotel

a gal came out for taking order(owner's daughter ) , oh god u shud ve

seen her wat a beauty she was

HELEN OF TROY

the first thing i thought when i saw her . If u got any

doubt u shud ve seen praveen's face his face was glowing after seeing her .

she asked u want Kadla kari or mutta kari ? v told kadala kari enough

( chenna ) but praveen snapped no v all need mutta kari ( egg, a bit costlier

than chenna ) for that he got a smile from her . [ i was furious at him]

The food was ok but she was .... at that moment i could realize how

much toll would ve taken for Romeo n Paris . She was extraordinary in a

very simple black chudi n yellow thuppata over her head . . .

When v were about to go praveen told me pavaam ava [ i pity her ]

i told to myself not at all she s ruthless , caused a internal hemorrhage for

us .

IN VEEGA LAND

Entering veega land gave me a feel of reaching a city in

fairy tale , the place was so beautiful n artistic . The climate was great n

the scenary was refreshing .

Again same problem, the place was filled with girls . There was

lots of arguement going between us for their beauty. some are

- they eat lots of fish and fish skin has a content which s resposible

for their beauty .

- they use lots of coconut oil .

- the climate n environment . so n so ...

I was not interested in it . The part i was thinking is

- how all gals ve sharp bridge nose.

- long black hair .

- their dresing sense .

- their correct body weight . not even slightly obese .

- gynecoid pelvis , medicine says only 50% female ve
gynecoid pelvis but there the incidence was more than 90% .

i decided its not possible to see all the beautiful gals in that jungle , so i

decided to watch the two gals moving before me in all ride . Thanks to

discovery channel ( lion eyes only one deer n chase )

Name not known they were sisters one in red one pink . My unbiased

opinion - they both were looking great in different sense . I cant

control myself from murmuring the lines from the film 7/g

" ayirathil oruthi endru avalin mugam enikkirathey

ayirathil ondrai ayioo avalin thangai sirikkirathey "

poor translation :

she looks beautiful like a 1000 in 1 but her sister s too beautiful

like 1 in 1000.

they were equally attractive n typical kerala look . Got a eye contact

with red gal for seconds and told myself this s enough . I was black out

at that time so i couldnt build a line for her . so now let me tell

her eyes said to me

" thee piditha thanga meenai parthathunda

enn kannil kandu kolvaai "

I never released them from my eyes , saw them for more than 2 hrs n then

went around to other sides [sights ] .

Its been long before i gave up the confusion whether seeing a

gal s right or wrong . When i was doing tenth my tamil mam told me

a evergreen advice ...

" to see a flower in garden is not a mistake or harm

the moment u think to pluck her then u r wrong ,

like s seeing a Girl "

-----------> Lets stop this There would be no end about
them n all gals there.

other things in tour -----

1 . They r maintaining the theme park like temple so clean n hygenic .

2. VERTICAL FALL - was my fav ride . its just folding hands n to fall. it gave

me the suicide feel was so thrilling . Ur brain ll stop

thinking when u r in the middle of fall , just when u touch

water u come back to life .

3. Got a kenyan friend in wave pool . V were all dancing like hell in

wave poll seeing that the kenyan came n joined with us . he even taught me

a kenyan Dance step .

4. FOuntain dance n the laser show was the best in our trip. V shud ve two

more eyes to see that .

5. While returing in train v were all playing cards , a sincere police told

tough u shud not play cards . There were lots of passengers without

ticket n lots of unreserved passengers sitting in reserved seats but he

took no notice of it . Great cop !!! I wonder how they compare tamil nadu

cop with scotland yard

Whatever, everything was above expectation- fun , entertainment ,

gals .

Sure we will come again to this spicy state ...

3 things i Loved in kerala

1. Girls

2. climate

3. nature

( may be after 30 yrs if i come to kerala the order may be reversed , for now

its girls topping the chart )

At last it became a unforgettable trip for all of us .

Sudden storm of such beautiful gals collapsed my thoughts n i could

think nothing other than them , even this blog s flooding with their thoughts .

So let me take a break n see u in next blog with other topics .

----> I prayed my friend Vyshak ( he s a keralate) should not get one such

beautiful kerala girl as his mistress. our friendship rocks !!!

a last line for them all

" when u look at me once

a lightning will strike my spine

you are my rain bearing clouds

my hormone river s flooded cos of you ! "

Final Year...

2009-04-10T22:29:00.000+05:30

.... final year mbbs s backbreaking . Even my one side cheek
s painful . yes i'm sleeping for more than 12 hrs per day n due to hot
summer climate my pillow n bed are rock hard.

I'm just pretending myself that i'm a final year but the only thing
i do is sleep more. That too being in O&G postin is boredom.
There s no role for a guy in that postin. I take it as an advantage
n always sit in rest room . .

But Seeing others scares me off. Most of them r seriously reading ,
always wearing gloves n doing something in the process of
labour, asking doubt with the interns .

My kid sister is one step ahead ... she even goes n ask doubt to the
trained dais.

One such example :
They were preparing a patient for
emergency LSCS , the entire atmosphere was running around the clock.
she went to Dai n asked wat r they going to do, she replied they r going
to give enema for her . Her next question was WHERE WILL THEY
GIVE ENEMA ? ???

the dai was perplexed , she couldnt react for seconds , then after
sometime she replied I ve seen giving enema only in rectum!!!!
No dont laugh she wants to make sure for everything .

She s also a mobile epidemic . Modern medicines greatest problem
s hygeine n preventing carrier. BUt she wears a shoe which cats use as
Lavatory . She even proudly says to everyone that cat made my shoe
wet.

I'm afraid anytime there could be a epidemic outbreak of unnamed
Disease. Being a medical student i ve the responsibilty of preventing
this epidemic so tommorrow i shall pour acid in her shoes if she resists
i ll pour it over her leg also...

Then important events ....

1. M. sahoo msg ed me anonymously saying i'm ur school gal friend ,
guess me . But even while reading the second msg i found its a guy.

A guy cant fool another guy in msg saying i'm a gal. Some
reasons how i found this guy's msg as flaw.

A. He sent two msg's back to back one saying guess me
n other saying still cant find me - its out of logic , gals
never hastily send msgs . They always want to keep them
in Demand . Guys never ve patience.

B. His third msg was how r u ? its again a flaw . Gals r egostical
they always wait whether the guy cares for him , after confirming
that only they mind asking How r u ??

C. His msg language was abrupt n fonts was rough. Again a
mistake , gals msg sentence ll ve soft ends n the fonts ll have
a artistic sense .

Eg. For saying OK v just send as K. But mostly
they ll send as oK.

Note: Just type in ur mobile using small letter option as ok, it ll
be looking a bit artistic than capital letters OK. Thats gals .

SO v guys r hasty , short n sharp so v cant match them.

GALS ARE GALS.

2. Broke with my gal friend . dint tell her till now, not going to
tell after postin this blog also .
Just want to leave where it is.

Telling her ll lead to arguement , unnecessary emotions n
stupid feelings ,

I'M a Rational type , my emotions r limited to seeing

films like Schindler's list n Shawshank Redemption. So i dont want

to be in those situtations . Moreover she belongs to my postin unit

so it would be difficult for both us for carefully avoiding each others

gaze , pretending to avoid n speak to others etc etc. so better dont tell

her n allow herself to understand things .

And moreover i dont want to make it dirty by saying i'm

right she s not , so n so... The only thing i can say is V Both reached

the breaking point , so its better to move away rather than hurting each

other.

I broke up with her but i dont hear any sonnet or sad flute

playing behind my back . I'm not deaf n v both were really good

friends but i cant see the emotions which i ve seen in films. The reason

may be i'm practical ...

So here comes the toughest part , yes i'm going to advice on how to

be when u break with ur gal friends . [ advice s strictly against my

principles in this blog , but still not feeling sleepy so let me try]

ADVICE AFTER U BREAK UP :

1. Dont try to be very happy by laughing to unnecessary jokes

or simple comments . It ll keep on reminding u Y U R behaving

unnaturally .

2. Immediately dont search for a new gal friend , it ll make u more

sad bcos at that time u ll be looking for a alternative n u cant get

in short time .

3. Dont try to flirt more with less known gals ,at that time

only thing in ur mind ll be new gal friend n u cant think

any other things . On other hand she might be having

a good opinion on u but due to ur sudden change in attitude

she might doubt u.

4. DOnt try to make False opinion about her , saying to urself

she s a cheat , she s a liar. This ll depress u a lot bcos u ll be having

good opinion about her , suddenly abusing her ll make u think

urself a stranger n u might hate urself.

5. Dont try to prove yourself before her , by going near her n

calling another gal n speaking to her with smiling face.

This ll badly reflect ur own character , she can easily

understand ur childish character .

6. Dont try to see her without her knowledge , she can easily

guess this. IF u want to look at her see her eyes with

Animal Directness without any expressions .BY this way

she ll be confused about ur attitude .

7. Never do the things she expects ,

8. Keep yourself cool , make yourself occupied in other things ,

dont stretch too long about her , dont re telecast the scenes

when u both were smiling together n having fun.

9. Just be simple as you are n look at her as if she s one more

human being around u .

10. Dont compare ur situation with any films or characters n start

singing sad songs. It ll be artificial .

Then dont explain ur situation to ur friends , not even close

friends , this wont help u bcoz u know her better than him so wat ever he

says wont convince u and in other hand u r doing a shame full thing

to ur friendship with her ...

TO break up with a gal friend s not a anti climax or unexpected

thing ,

Treat it as a HAPPY ENDING ....

Got a New Friend ....

2009-03-29T13:39:00.000+05:30

Got a new pup - Black Labrador from solomon breeds , palai. Keeps
me busy n occupied.

When my parents decided to get a pup i asked black colour lab , bcos
of my fav leopard chasing Jaguar Paw scene in APOCALYPTO . Lab dogs
look a bit like leo n black colour will add more grace to it. We even waited
three months to get Black colour....

Now got it n its near me always... Likes my system very much n start
to bite the wires in all possible situation. We both see a English movie
before bed n it likes watching action scene. When it sees a fight scene
it start to run around my room wildly or pull my slippers out.

But its NOT easier to take care of a dog like i thought. When they came
to deliver the pup they spoke lots of things regarding its health.

They told to give lots of vaccine like

1. Parvovirus

2. Canine Leptospira

3. 1 in 12

4 . Rabies vaccine ....

5. Adeno virus vaccine ..

6. Influenza A vaccine ....

They even gave a health card for entering vaccine dates, in that card
there s also column for periodic general check up for eyes , tongue , foot
etc etc...

Not over, then they ve told to give tonics

1. HEALTH UP - it contains essential amino acids n vitamins

2. NUTRI - COAT - its a nutritional supplement for dogs n for
the hair to appear silky.

Then they have also asked to deworm the dog periodically , the
tablet is CANTEL ...

At last they also told to buy a specific soap for bathing the dog .
NOTIX.

It is consuming a great amount of time to do all these work , actually

there r lot other works to do like , have to go to hospital , class,

then other family works , look after the patients n their follow up. etc

etc .

The new arrival to my home s making the already busy schedule to

get cramped. I wonder how my father s able to manage all this

Together !!!!!

Taking U to Exam Hall

2009-03-07T22:20:00.000+05:30

.... Most of us think exam hall is filled with full of tension,
stress etc etc,,.. but its not true. We face lots of comical things there but
fail to take it into account .

DARK COMEDY - thats the correct word to use regarding
exam hall scenes. They r comical but make us uncomfortable at
that moment.

Let me explain about my exam hall , .. Come on..

I went 25 mins late to my first exam , ya .. I'm a last minute runner
so it takes time . Was running to my hall by 9.25 am n pushed the door
open,saw a flash!!
i saw her in orange chudi sitting as last person in exam hall ...

I know my eyes are wide open but i still doubted whether it is a
Dream.

[ FLASH BACK : When I talked to her in my first n only tour in ooty
she was in the same orange chudi... Although the conversation was very
brief neither of us could forget that. ]

I even wanted to go near her ears n say I MISS YOU so much... shut up
shiva !!! concentrate in ur exams i told to myself .

Then i found my place n sat down ..

I saw vignesh praying to god sincerly . I thought he would be
praying GOd to Ask the questions he has studied n he must not forget the
things he has studied.

I never pray to god in exam hall ...
Bcoz i dont want to
Embarrass god n make him feel Helpless by Praying him to
ask from wat i studied ... I know its difficult even for greek n
roman gods so just leave them in peace.

CONVERSATION : I

This orissa guy was sitting next to me in SPM , though v
both speak english neither of us could understand wat
the other is saying . V use Heavy native accent in our English !!.

ORISSA GUY : wat is the W.H.O theme for 2008 ? [ 2 marks question]

ME : who knows my theme for 2008 is to avoid accidents n
pollution bcoz thats creating a panic in our city.

( I thought it was a nice joke n started to smile for myself with self pride
thinking i joke even in examhall )

Suddenly i noticed he was writing wat i said in his paper ..
I was clearly confused !!! n started to think wat went wrong. Within
seconds it struck me .. due to my low tone n single syllable
pronoun cation he got it as

= W.H.O ( knows my) Theme for 2008 is to avoid accidents n
pollution bcoz thats creating a PANDEMIC ( panic in our city) . =

My GOd.. i ve to stop him , it was already last 10 mins n i tried
my best to signal him but couldnt stop him ..
Finally convinced myself ok . its gods wish. so be it .

CONVERSATION : II

before start of issuing question paper.

ME : tell me the answers , dont just simply keep on writing.

Vignesh : I'm ready to tell , just ask ..

ME : ok fine, then answer me CRISPY during exams !!!

Vignesh : ( annoyed) oh.. u ll write only crispy answers

cha.. instead of asking to answer me briefly n in points i said crispy.
vignesh saravanan burst into laughter when i asked crispy answers.

CONVERSATION : III

last minute of exam..

ME : wat is the vaccine for J.E ?

sneha :( in hissing low voice) cell culture

i got it as sub culture n wrote it , then after 30 secs i thought there s no
sub culture it must be cell culture , so i turned back to ask again by that
time Examiner pulled my paper saying Time up.

I got irritated losing 2 marks just turned around n said
atleast in FINAL YR exams tell the answers loudly . In my rage i
failed to notice the examiner was standing near her for collecting
paper. Both examiner n she looked oddly , better i avoided the gaze n
escaped out.
After that i saw sneha murmuring something , i dint show
any interest to it bcoz i know she ll be scolding me as usual in bad words
like thendi , karadu , themmadi, dushta , vattu, mankuni.
SO its better to Go way as unnoticed.

My Observation in exam hall ....

1. Being 3 1/2 yrs in this coll only during this exam i found our exm hall
has attached TOILET. and i'm sure our instituion is developing in
infrastructure!!! I ve decided i would find out whether its indian
or western type before i complete my course.

2. MOstly everyone come in old or faded dress for exams including me.
It strongly proves our dress express our mood.

3. Most of them grow beard during exam holidays including me . my
reason s, i think to save the day before exam but naturally the day before
exam v all ve lots of things to save n so i ve no time for it n come with beard.

4. A gal near me was constantly turning back to see her love. I even thought
to fix the time gap, but later found its not based on time but movements
, every page she turns or draws line she turns to him. [ really good job .
by me isnt so?? ] they spoke no words just
signal transmission through 4 eyes.

i couldnt understand the cipher language they were using
or decode it.. Even u cant , bcoz no one in this
world know wat two lovers speak.
The TRUE Reason s no one
can understand is ,even the two lovers dont know wat
they r speaking. This s really BAD.. BAd.
I respect love even i dont
ve one. ok.

5. A guy was writing SPM using all colour pens n i could see only 7 lines
in a page n it was forming a Rainbow in each page , seeing him felt really
sick bcos he was keep on getting additional page n i was having more
than 15 pages unwritten in the Main sheet booklet .

6. Vyshak n vinoth were doing a conference before writing each answer. I
was seeing them like a kid seeing ice cream. Thinking whether there was
anyone around me to discuss.

7. My kid sister was having a new rubber tip pencil, she s a pen bitter
n so i thought " ok. biting rubber tip ll be easier than hard pencil "

But i hate pen bitters , still i dont use my pen which she was biting
during pediatrics posting when she was writing case for me.

P.s
I started this post by 11.30pm n planned to write all stupid things till
i feel sleepy . Now i feel sleepy so its time for the

* THE END *

My Attitude Towards EXAM...

2009-02-26T22:39:00.001+05:30

I Hate me during exam preparation... During Exam
time I always keep things to myself , never
discuss about my preparation or do combined studies ...

Normally i spend all time roaming with or without
reason , being with friends , speaking , speaking n speaking
( a simple Roadside romeo n chatter box)

NORMAL TIME :

BUT during Exam time i dont even show my Head outside often,
dont get along with friends in natural way ... Dont go for films
except when they compel... To be simple i ll a different man....

Its not i focus n concentrate too much ... Its
my hatred n Phobia for exams .

I dont want to speak to anyone bcoz they ll be
discussing about exams which i hate to discuss... So i just
stay from them...

EXAM TIME :

I dont even send forw sms , fearing that someone might ask
how much i ve prepared in reply n it will be embarrassing saying
Not Yet Started .... So dont even send sms or wish All The Best For
Exams ...

BRAVE MOVES :

The following things surprised me during exam holidays...

1. Suppi n nazar went to bet match cricket just 4 days before exam...

2. Two of my friends where regularly attending their 5 o' clock
work which is classified [ means cant be discussed due to
national security reasons !!!!! ]

3. Arun went to singapore n came ...

4. kadal was carrying out his National Survey programme in front
of suri's home...

5. Marriraj underwent his Ankle Surgery ( lat. coll lig tear )

I did nothing like this instead i dint study also... I was
wasting time staying alone .

Though the above moves were bold I was really stunned by
the impossible Move by Ganapathy during exam holidays
and i consider it the Boldest n my inspiring one...

It is , the night before exam when i was rolling with book which
i can never complete n was thinking about the after math of exams
ganapathy came to my house ...
I asked y ? calculating the seconds i'm wasting by speaking to him.

He replied he s going to temple n just came to my home on the way.

You may think wat is bold in this n it s normal everyone pray
before exams but.....

He s not a Normal man , the twist follows below..

After hearing he s on the way to temple ... I replied i'm also praying God to
see through his corner of eye...

He replied "Shiva u got it wrong .. I came to temple to see my Gal
friend's eye .. i know she ll be coming to temple today "

I said this s too much ...

but he said " I think seeing her eyes s more
vital for me than exams "

I was clearly annoyed n asked wat s in her eyes ??

HE said " dont just say its a eye , its the place where
i found me ... yes , only when i went near her n

saw myself in her eyes i realized its ME"

I asked straight " DO u love her , or ve u said ur love to her "

He replied " sky never says its love to sun , but it doesnt mean

sky s not in love with sun "

Eventhough he indirectly agreed, i couldnt hide my doubt so i

asked him " If sky loves sun , then wat is the affair between

SKy n Moon , And Y? moon doesnt come to meet sky in presence of sun "

I could smell the smoke somewhere , when i turned back i found
he was accelerating towards his temple in the temple ... I wished him
best of luck ....

But wat s this love always waiting , waiting n waiting ...
Dont they get bored up , or dont their love fade with time ...

But he gave me the answer with his actions , He waits near
temple to see her , she comes only once in a time ... but he doesnt
get depressed but wait for the next time ... Yes thats the answer ..

Love Works under BIG BANG THEORY ....

P.S :
BIG BANG THEORY - Its the most accepted version about how

Universe was created . Universe was like a ball n a

Big Cosmic Explosion occured before 25 crore yrs after which fragments

started expanding with time n universe was created...

The point of consideration s Universe EXPANDS with TIME ..n

it forms energy with expansion ...

so LOVE s similar to this ... A cosmic explosion occurs

i prefer to call it as SPARK , after that explosion

LOVE expands with TIME ... like our friend's case...

it gets its energy by the expanding distance ... so love doesnt

fade with time like Sahli's acid hematometer

colour plate [ potassium dichromate] ... It always expands

n keep on expanding even after v ve gone .

NO Doubt this man is the boldest one ... I even doubt he would be

the last SPARTAN ....

[ SPARTA - follows negative eugenics like they ll kill the weak n
disabled child to promote their race as the strongest
one , so this man must be the last surviving ruthless
Spartan ... ]

ah... forgot to tell about exams .... I hide myself from everyone
during exams except to one - its

My Kid Sister .

I call only to her n say about my current pathetic state

of exam prep . Its not a planned one or that i hate others .. Its just

the way IT HAPPENS .... i call her n say i'm not able to focus , i ve not

started anything , i'm in mood out , i'm really out of mind . she listens

everything with a smile ( u must get used to it ,u may think she s

mocking u , not like that, she ll smile in all situations)

After hearing everything she start to say that time itself

i told u to read , i told this ,i told that .. u ve to get all her digs .

This time she told me . "ok , 15 days dere ... u divide

five five days for each subject n complete , let me start to STIMULATE

u , " That day she told me to read a portion with strict order

saying after completion i ve to inform her n then only i can sleep.

The next day also she gave a portion , slowly she brought the

rusted derailed train back on track n it started moving towards its

destination...

A RARE COINCIDENCE -
The two days when she was stimulating
she gave me a portion . Portion from that came as TWO ESSAYS in
spm II paper . May be she has some wild instinct...

My kid sis s a motivational Liar ,,, when it was 15days for exam

she told 5 days enough for a subject but i remember the last time when it

was 30 days for exam she said 10 days enough for a subject ... Eventhough

i knew she was lying n my Exam preparation was going

Worser than WALL STREET Crisis ....

i dintn say anything bcoz its always a good feel

when someone says u can do it ... eventhough i was expecting

marks Lower than NASDAQ n DOW JONES points ...

Then last minute program in exam was T I S . It also worked

to some extent ...

Anyway exams r over , but i hate my attitude . Next time i must

be normally behaving to everyone n try to wipe off my poor attitude

like this ...; until then

" Naane Yenakku oru Nanmban illai "

Lessons i learnt from EXAMS

2009-02-26T21:08:00.000+05:30

. . . once for all my third m.b.b.s university exams are over. As usual
it was hell both pre-exam n exam period. Somehow managed .

Community medicine paper was weird type , I paper
comes in II n II comes in I. so I wrote a combined
Cock tail . Praying a guy shud value
my paper , bcoz they like cocktail.

This time i learned very few for exams but Learnt a Lot about
exams. Right from childhood i hate ( naturally everyone) exams [ even
for Road license exam i bribed Rs.30 n got 90./. ]. But this time
i found at some point v ve to L O V E our exams to get through,
similar to ARRANGED MARRIAGE...

First U dont show any interest with ur partner
( books) , u irritate her, just leave her alone most
of the time. DOnt give ears to her feelings .

Openly say u hate her , abuse about her before others , curse
god for giving her ... U even hate to sit opposite to her in a table .

But as time passes , when u know there s no other way ...

U start looking at her deeply n say to yourself she s not that BAD
she s looking a bit pretty sometimes ...

then as time passes u start to interact with her , just for a while.
Feel very boring to be with her n get asleep, most of the time even in
front of her...

Then next morning u hold her with ur open hands saying Sorry n
today i ll spend the maximum timewith u ....

It goes n goes with nearing days u start to SLEEP ( books)
with her ...

Thats the best point , Yes u start to Love Her bcoz
there s no other hope...

Lastly , u r afraid of the society ... Yes, being with her all time
even sleeping with her without RESULTS provoke doubt on ur
self in the society....

So u r so desperate n Finally get the Result ...

so there s no other choice u ve with her , other than

to love ur woman( books) regardless

of its size , character , pain staking troubles , boresome attitude..

NOTE -
The time v start to Love her, influence the
Result Range.

I give only minimum Love to her , Its enough For ME.

Best Romance of 2008...

2008-12-31T22:05:00.000+05:30

ROMEO AND JULIET . . .( in nellai)

Two households , both alike in Dignity in fair
Roundana ( highground) , where we lay our scene , from ancient
grudge break into new mutiny , where civil blood makes
civil hands unclean ,from forth the fatal loins of these two
foes, a Pair of star crossed lovers ...
WHERE THEY DONT GIVE UP THEIR LIFE,
INSTEAD THEY WIN THIER LOVE....

Two Houses in our College...

MONTAGUE - wragorianz - ROMEO- Ganapathy

CAPULET - ygdrasilerz - JULIET - M * m * ...

Mercutio - Aibo... , Romeo's Best Friend ..

( This s not the full version of
Romeo n juliet n moreover u all know the story
, so i'm just highlighting a single act in this..
I cant lay the entire Epic, even shakespeare
cant !!!! , so i ll just write the Romantic part of this
romeo n juliet , To be specific i ll bring SCENE -4 , ACT - 14 alone
bcoz it s the most romantic part. . .)

Two households were fighting in all
given chances but Romeo was not interested in Such
Quarrels , he always believed in LOVE n thought love can
overthrow powers n Even Empires....

Romeo(Ganapathy) as all know was in love with Juliet
belonging to capulet family , despite their family fights they both
believed Love will win at last ..

The twist came in the form of mercutio...One night
Montague family burnt crackers in capulet houses of lords n
princess , the next day the war of words started n with no man's
expectation Mercutio drew his sword of words n started firing
the Capulets family saying " If this theatrics s to scare us
then u ve chosen the wrong Family we r Lions ....."
The war ended unpleasantly n by the
act of mercutio even the neutral members of capulet started looking
montague as foes...

On the other hand it was the starting of the Montague's
Rule , seeing Mercutio all the montague members fell in a line like
an Warriors of troy.. They were desperate to win all situations
against capulets..

Ganapathy who initially not interested in such fights seeing
Mercutio his dear friend took his stand n started opposing
Capulets by all possible ways even though his love juliet belonged
to capulet . He loved Juliet but he hated Capulets... there was silence
on both sides for months , finally Juliet broke the silence...

She said Love s beyond Families, country n even
world .. all these days i was not thinking about
ur face or sms or ur curly hair, i was
only missing ur true Love...
So i dont mind my family or ur family .. I mind only..

Ganapathy replied .. Our Love...

The cold war was running high at the moment but always
montague were winning n capulet failing like in batch day , tour etc etc..
But Montague flagged their final victiory by organsing n
succesfully hoisting ADRENX -08 ...

Note: Ganapathy n aibo were working tirelessly for
this final moment n Montgue won with all due Respects.

Capulets were running mad and wanted to prove them in
Ecstasy n were desperately waiting for the News ...
But a big thunder bolt stuck them all... The Chairman of Roundana
thought that conducting Ecstay according to family will again
start a Civil war so they decided to split the families of Roundana
into small groups ... With this capulets lost all thier hope n
they had no way to conceal thier defeat ... Montague were the rulers
IN FAIR ROUNDANA ....

Now let me bring the most Romantic part of this story

SCENE - IV
ACT - 14 ( this happened before mercutio act)

08-JUL-2008

PROLOGUE:
One good noon when all us where preparing
for our SPM exam with book in front and nothing in my mind ,
v all were feeling the sensation of two caterpillar making sex in
our stomach ( not due to Fear of exam , bcoz of d effect of last Night
subramani treat and that ostrich omlet ) But at final moment v had a
sparkling twist in the scene like banishing of darkness after seeing Sun
, ie v got d questions from ganapathy . At that time v saw him like a Man with powers , a guy loved by All Gods (someone like Nosterdam ) . . .
But behind d History of question leak A fairy Romantic Tale s Hidden . I feel immense pleasure in presenting that story n conversation to You all . . .

LOVE STORY 2008.

ROMEO - Ganapathy -G ; JULIET - M * m * - M .. .

Date- 4th july
Time 1.00 pm .

G - H i . . I read nothing , also ve stomach pain
bcoz of attending a treat. U how going . huh :)

M - I ve completed reading , how s ur stomach pain , after
hearing that my heart s aching , dono y .

G - i know d reason and its d nature of True and secret love.

M - :) i miss u , i ve not seen u for past 3 hrs . I feel like being in hell.

G - dont worry uh . Tonight i ll come to see u with arul
before hostel as usual that junk arul ll do his
watch dog job.

M - ask him to carry light n come ! ! ! Bcoz street light not
working. I heard hostel guys got question paper.

G - oh . Huh . Those capulets .I wont speak to them better i ll fail.

M - ok then i ll ask them

G- but they dont like u . . .

M - yeah . . . But . . . But. I Like You.

Then he got the questions n v wrote exam.

Time 4.34 pm

M - how was d exam.

G - v all wrote well bcoz of u .
She Couldnt hide her disappointment.

M - u gave to all . ??

G - they all r my friends .

M - but i care more than them all. I gave it only for u .

G - i need you only . But for Evening time pass i need them .

M - then go n FISH ! with them itself .

He tries to convince her. Finally she says

M - i give u 10sec decide whom u need.

At that time a Flower falls from far branch and sun
kissing her with its rays . . .

Then she starts turning back . . . But at that time with
no mans expectation ganapathy catches d flower in one hand
n her in another hand and blocks the sun rays . . . He has decided
n told her that i ll wash them all ....

Finally she gives her smile to him.
G - vil u trust me all my life.

M - no i trust u all MY Life.

G - How much u like me???

M - Like sickness n cure together , like rain n sun,
like flower n breeze ,...
like roots love soil....

The Tale Ends With Soft Music ...

This may look very primitve , no wonder the whole
damm love s primitive with no senses only nonsenses...

I never believe Love s divine n pure ,

Love s just the
NATURE'S WAY OF ENSURING PREGNANCY ...
Nature always feared that one day,
man lazy in all things will become lazy to give future generation.
so nature just spilled the venom called Love ...

I'm true if u dont believe then just read about the adrenrgic
drug Amphetamine its effect is similar to love ... so ....

I consider this Romeo n juliet as the best Romance of 2008..

HAPPY NEWYEAR TO ALL...

Driving through the woods...

2008-12-26T22:15:00.000+05:30

I love driving my car... I like both riding in
city traffic n doing long drive ... I even ve a crazy habit ,
In heavy traffic during peak hours i just close
windows switch on A/C n start singing loudly .. I really enjoy
doing this although it looks a bit Weird . .

The simple Moral i follow while i drive is

" Never get panic or irritated by the traffic
instead irritate the traffic , thats the only
way u can get through"

This week i got a chance for Long drive ...I had to attend my friend
Akbar's bro marriage in Aral . The drive was a mixed one
with both long stretch nice roads n worst bends,
potholes , narrow lane with no way for two way traffic,..

But i enjoyed both roads, infact we went in two cars mine n Arun's car.
Arun was very keen in breaking his cars worst record in longdrive.
He even did some pooja for his car in temple for it .
He broke the record with his careful driving and he even won me
when we went to Aral.
I cant agree i was a loser. Being a Natural aggressive driver i was
overtaking all Long trucks n buses n was constantly accelerating...
the twist came in narrow village roads where i got stuck in a blind
end n was asking the address, he overtook me ... I know it was
cheeky but he made the right decision at that point so he won n
i dont disagree them...

On our return the same thing happened , i gave way for 3 trucks
in narrow lane n he dint , so he was leading me.

This time also he was Smart , but i was SMARTER...
when we joined long stretch at a push i overtook his car n
the truck running before him...

He seemed helpless, by that time i was overtaking the
other truck before me... after that he had no chance of
overtaking me , he was good in driving but at the end of day
only one WINNER can be there,...

He went first to aral, so after reaching he told
" to win arun u ve to be arun, but there s
only one arun " it always happen, u ve to suffer
his digs ...

The entire ride was exciting n pleasant ... after taking the cut
to the village from mainroad the place was completly
covered with trees with only two cars on road ...
There was lots of fun going on ,
frens in my car teasing the men in other car n
thinking wat they would be telling about us now..

It was really great to go in two cars just watching wat others
do , blowing horn unnecessarily etc etc,,

we had a surprise visit to Srivaikundam river bed , muthu gave
the idea after reading newspaper that the river s flooding ...
it was a steep place but v managed to get there n enjoy..

NOTE: Even in that place below bridge , in mid of flooding water,
Ganapathy was speaking in mobile to m*m* , he was even
drifting inflood water n arul gave
a helping hand for him. .
This man has no fear ... i suspect this guy has
some sort of RISK ADDICTION.

Most of them turned up for the marriage func never minding
about the distance, this shows the respect for Akbar..

Akbar has everyone's respect n he also respects everyone.

My reason Y i went for the marriage is

1. The way he apparoached me when he gave me the invitation card ..

2. The respect i ve for him..

3. Traditional Briyani smell n taste..

4. I like long drive ..

5. I ve no other work to do..

other notable events in the func was,..

NAZAR - was serving to the huge crowd, i wondered how he
carried that hot briyani vessel ..

I ve to specially thank him for giving me extra briyani
pieces..!!

MY other surprise was always lazy n sarcastic Ravikumar
was distributing water along with Parthiban..

At the end it was a great day for all of us with
fun n happiness...

UPDATES:
Praveen s also suffering from the
bollywood fever of new looks,... he has cut his long blond
hair into a short one although many doesnt like it..
when he was having long hair one even
used to call him as Pokey man...
But it ll take sometime for all to aclimatize
to his new unnamed hair style .. I believe soon he ll
get a tag name for that hair style..

Farce....

2008-12-26T19:54:00.000+05:30

Its the usual comment made on me...SO i wanted to ask
myself , am i farce???
I'm not sure, but i feel that i'm not.
But i cant stop others saying like that... Damm them.
so just want to analyze in their point of view like the
dialogue in film THE GODFATHER " try to think in the way others think
around you " ...
Y they call me like that ????

1. Most of the time wat i speak doesnt makes any
sense...
but naturally i'm not a saint or a saviour for this world.

2. Then i lack seriousness ... ok i agree with u ...
so wat s going to change if i'm serious. The world
remains the same ...

3. I tease everyone all time ... ok true !!
but i know if i stop teasing then i ll be made the prime target
n ll face lots of bang from all directions.
My open comments about others saves me most
of the time in coll... so i cant give up.

A quote
" if i dont do this job someone else ll do it, so better i do
n get away with fortunes"
- The Kill Artist ( Daniel o'silva)

4. I'm emotionally cold ... this s worst comment i got n
cant bear it. As u guess it was made by my gfriend ...

I ve heard these words in thriller novels about describing
about the assassin... when it was used against me i felt really
sick...
I pretty sure i'm not emotionally cold .... I think they tell me
like that bcoz i dont perform well before them ...
I dont know to speak so caringly n words filled with
affection ... ya .. I'm not gifted with those qualities .
But i ve all those in my heart n my heart has lots of
Love, Affection , blood but doesnt ve mouth to speak
out loudly...

And without these olive oil voice n guinea charm
u cant ve gfriends ( universal truth) ... so i'm no exception.

here comes my friend Ganapathy------>
He s the gifted man , with natural flirting character
people only know he has lots of gfriends.
People can see only his gfriends they cant see his abilities ,
methodical way of dealing them...
Thats y there s noone to match him.. They all think
he has a magic... But truth s there s no magic in
life all r basic LOGIC...
I'm proud that he s my friend !!!!! I still admire the way he spoke
with a unknown junior gal during coll func .. He s the real
MACHO...

But later i found all these as completly

FLAW ....

V r always misdirected by the quote
" never look back
keep moving forward"
Its completly false..
When i was also behaving like other guys in coll i failed to look back
that there was one standing for me behind ... My luck i turned back
n i got a thing which most of them wont get in thier life...
Yes, i got a kid sister in this coll ... Really she s more to me ..
than others think.. I dont think if i had a own sister
i would like her this much... She s The only one who makes
my boring coll filled with happiness n smile...

Even u can separate rainbow colours but u cant separate
my kid sister n smile .... she ll be always smiling n making others smile..
Besides that she has a very strong character which i admire
the most...
she s bold enough to question me n ask any explanation
from me
NOTE: I dont entertain someone questioning me
n i never explain myself to others , i would simply say
piss off.

She gives no option so i ve to do all things,...
I cant forget the day she called me n tied RAKHI ...
I was very much moved n emotionally embarrased , even now when
i think about that i bcome emotional ...

often the line i used to tell myself
" wat a gal she is"

Mostly no gal calls me by name but she not
even calls me just gestures to come over , she does it
even before juniors ... But i never feel wat others think about
my self respect n manly attitude..

Just like asking change for 10 rs she asks me to promise n i ve to give

like I ll do this , I ll complete this , I wont do that, ...

she always keeps things simple ... she doesnt like most them
in this coll so when i asked her "Y u trust n see me as a bro when
u dont like anyone here????"

her reply was simple but very sharp

" u r not completly good but u dont pretend to be
good ,so u r good "

" u r sincere n faithful to the ones whom u like n care
so thats enough"

"u r frank,
u dont find a shell to hide ur mistakes "

thats her ,she knows me, i dont pretend
i dont give false belief about me ,
i dont hide my anger on her ( she gets lots of
scolding from me .. bcoz i'm BIG B , so i ve the right to scold her )
i dont hide my mistakes.

so to all who think i'm farce i dont wish to say i'm not farce
or want to prove u that i ve a great sister so i cant be farce...\
I just want to say that u r not really looking at ME....
May be ur mind s corrupted to Dramatic scenes which u cant
see in me ... I ve myone band of friends n I'm very
comfortable n warm with them .. so just move away...

MY EVER BELEIVING QUOTE

" In a lifetime u cant be good to ALL"

I'm annoyed....

2008-12-16T13:06:00.000+05:30

STATEMENT:
Ganapathy s flirting with gals .

This s always the Chief complaint made on him.
This college s the worst place for him bcoz
according to this god damm place
SOCIALISING WITH GALS S A CRIME .

I'm clearly annoyed n disappointed for him. And i ll stand for him . Even this
post s to show my support to him.

what crime he has committed ??? is dere anyone who can
point a single case against him.
Its true he always speaks with gals in phone , wats in that ,
he s solving their problems by his advice , somethings only
men know, so doubts in that can be cleared only by him, THE REAL MAN.

other associated complaints on him_

1. Always sticking his fingers in mobile text msg .

2.Seeing any creature if its a female.

3. spending lots of money on mobile top up to speak to gals.

4. always in amritha gift shop buying gifts for gals.

rumour mill: his frequent visit to gift shop lead to a new gal friend
in that gift shop itself. sales gal now buying thoughts
about ganapathy n longing for his visit.

5. Secret hour visit to Ladies hostel.

6. cultivation for new gal friends in Arul's tower room.
confirmed news: arul fry nuts with junior gals
from junior guy mobile after they all
sleep. What a senior ???
My opinion : ethallom oru pollapu!!!

7. Uses any coll func to fish new junior gals .

Eye witness: he went out wantedly when a junior gal
was buying snacks, called her asked her details ,
vital statistics etc etc. he even asked the Rate ...
of the snacks!!!
then he was shouting that gals name full day
pulling her attraction.
NOTE: witness cant be named n he s protected under United States
witness protection programme.

8. Chameleon character - Behaves differently with each gal he speaks.

9. waiting near temple dustbin , coll gas plant to speak to his gals.

10. Always rolling his curly hair n attracting gals.

NOTE: Male Hyena urinate to sexually attract female by its smell.

I dont disagree with above complaints , they all r TRUE in every
small alphabets. BUT wats wrong in that . I cant see anything wrong it
it . Therefore i lend my complete unconditional support to him.

TRUST ME !!! I'm ur MAN.

GANAPATHY's a man with high morals. his MORAL

1. " oru sooriyam

palla Thamarai

uravadinal athu

pavama ??? "

2. " yen manam oru

vandu yenam ( bee family)

theinam oru

pennidam ....."

The Godfather...

2008-12-12T20:26:00.000+05:30

ya ... today saw godfather for 13th time . y am i crazy about this movie
don't know. but always love to watch this movie n even murmur those
dialogues to myself when i'm alone mostly in postin....
I'm no specialist in film review but just want to tell y like it so much.

Mario Puzzo's
THE GODFATHER.

first the casting s so perfect that even the one comes for one scene will be
in ur mind after watching the film.
DON vito corelone - i cant praise about him bcoz the whole world knows about
marlon brando . Then Al pacino , no need to explain.
Right from my childhood after seeing all action films , n commercial masala films i found this film as one of the most powerful story with no extreme actions n visual effects ....
Michael corelone younger son who has no interest in fathers buissiness
becomes a worst don than his father . This s also one reason for me liking this film bcoz i'm also younger son in my family n i always want to prove myself
above others in my family n still cant even think how to do it.. so atleast
i satisfy myself by watching this film where younger brother rules.
Films dialgues r much powerful than action...
eg:
1. I ll make him a offer which he cant refuse.

2. I'm a superstitious man ..... if something happens to my son i ll blame someone in this room.

3. U straightened my brother out.

4. dont say u dont know bcoz it insults my intelligence , it makes me very angry

5. The one who meets u for a meeting will be ur friend n he ll say he can arrange security in his ground but he ll be the traitor.

6. u r my elder bro but don't ever take sides against family , ever.

Especially that climax where he stands as godfather in baptism n kills
all his bussiness enemies s the master stroke .

ah... i dont want to continue this ,its boring to tell film reveiw ... wonder how those media junkies do it daily for all films . let them do it .. i wont .

Then , nearing the end of 2008 thinking about whether i followed my new year resolution ... ya great i ve followed my resolution to all extent . i never found it difficult to follow bcoz i dont see them as tablet which r good for our health, i see them as food which ll keep away from disease n tablet.
so being followed my resolution i ve the right to advice others .
forgot i still follow last last years resolution . Great ,
THOUGHT:
the one can rule himself can rule this world so easily .

I deserve n fit to this thought ,... same time i know most of them cant follow their
resolutions . i dont even mind to give a damm to them . Y shud i bother about
those useless nuts who cant even control thier mind. Let them all sink ,
n moreover i dont want to give my precious advice to a sinking boat.

i dont like to comment about a year its happiness sorrow etc etc.. i even hate
to read those in newspapers
2008 best film
2008 best political event
2008 best sportsmen
2oo8 best scince invention all those stuffs r hell of boring n same every year.

my advice let them start ...
2008 best terror attacks ( no wonder india ll get first place)
2008 worst film, sports , political leader, political stunts , dialogue.

in hollywood they even give award for every years worstfilms. V must start in tamil also, atleast in fear of getting these awards most heroes ll think before
speaking punch dialogs, n even stop acting senseless films .

I ve decided i ll also start this best 2008 this time , i bare when others bore me so i ll ve my revenge on them.
so wait for update of best of TVMC romance ,
then best of Ganapathy's star gals they ll rated with complete
description , profile , attitude , diction, voice, body language, sex appeal .
Then author cant be held responsible for explicit contents ... read it only if u r above 18 months age !!!!

MY 2008 NEWYEAR RESOLUTION :

Don't take any resolution, not only on newyear but also in all 365 days.

I ve been taking the same resolution for 5 years n going to take it for 2009 also !!!