she s my. . .

I saw her when i was 17 she was also 17 !!!!
yes she made be stupid , even now when i start to write about her she
makes me stupid......
When i saw her for the first time i got a spark....
my heart confirmed it, but i dont believe in
Love at first sight so i waited to see her for second time n
then i told to my heart she s the ONE ....
in 17 it may be Attraction , Infatuation,or even lust... i dont mind
giving a name to it bcoz she s my ONE.
she s d one who made me to realize that i m a Man
n the one i m seeing now s a woman.

still i dont know this-
i became a man n them saw her (or)
i saw her n them became a man.

so where it was? in her long hair, in her left upper overlapping
tooth over incissor, in her cheeks _(temporary well forms when she smiles)
, in her smell, in her dark eyes -which s even darker than a winter night,
in her long narrow neck.... ah!!! dont know , but it was in her.... a Spark.
how to name it...

i waited , n waited ...may be i did it too long , she was gone. . . it melted like a
unsung sonnet.
wat else i could do, i was just 17... but i never feel or felt for that.
y shud i feel - she s not dere.True , but her memories still lives in me ....
in these 5 yrs i ve not seen a beautiful thing in this world that ll match seeing her smile from side...a small dimple, a small elevation of lips over the unaccustomed
teeth , d black rabbit doll hair band,....
she was dere, she is still dere ....

so if u ask me .. R u ok ??
my answer - yeah!!perfectly ok.. n she s also fine i know ... n i still spend time with her , yes - she steals my time without asking .
my date time with her are...

1. the day before exam , when i seriously pretend reading without
seeing tv, comp,mobile, she is unstoppable...

2. sunday afternoon after heavy meals.

3. during power cut!!!!!

4. before bed when i ve no one to chat ...

5. if afternoon lecture class extend beyond 3 noon...

6. the hour after seeing a nice movie..

it goes on....
so wat s to be done .... nothing !! i like this , i like being like this.. .
so y shud i fool myself that i m going to forget her when i know i cant...

bcoz of my long waiting i missed her,
but still i ve no other choice but to wait!!!


ya... i m waiting ....
i dont want d whole world to turnover, just
enough if she turns around.

EPILOGUE: even today if four gals cross me i look first at the
shortest one, bcoz she s Short....

may be i'm a fortune's fool




[ feeling sleepy vil write in detail
some other day....