Those who r in hurry n want to rush through this post to know about my
2011 need not waste ur time reading all stuffs in this post , just read the
summary n quit the post bcos rest is going to be nothing new.
SUMMARY :
2011 is the worst year i ever had !! I lose ,
I lose n
I lose the left over too ...
[ Thank u for reading the post. Happy new yr for u ]
Every New year i used to feel dull irrespective of the happiness n the friends
i got around. A kinda dullness that cant be explained n analyzed , its bcos
every NewYear eve i used to feel that i haven't lived the year completely n i
got nothing to feel proud that the year is ending.This problem is due to the
problem free year . Yes, a year with dates rolling regularly , time flowing
circularly , with regular circadian rhythm i felt bored that what life is this
without no thrill and no huge failures to assess ourselves , no loss that hits
u hard enough that u cant stand. Nothing happened all these yr i never agreed
completely that one should celebrate New year.
But this year gave me a complete year in every sense. A year full of ups ,
downs,downs n downs .I never felt this desperate in my life . I never was
this shaken in life before. I never knew people this much before. Life took
a heavy toll this yr n i dont complain life ,bcos i got few others to complain.
I look at this year still at disbelief n wonder can things happen such like
this in life.
Love / hatred / betrayal / selfishness / hopelessness / lack of confidence /
people's real face ..
this year was nothing short of a novel "The Count of Monte Cristo "
and felt many times that my life is in chatteau d'lf and still feel so by
losing the control over time n mind .Hardly i cared about whether its
day or night for me both means nothing. FYI i finished my degree
n had to be in a room all day this year to prepare for my future ,hope
this makes u atleast understand few things about me . But the most
problems were not about career .
The year ends with a historically low level of confidence and self belief and
i dont believe in wonders that from tomo everything is going to be fine bcos
its a new year .Nothing is going to change until i get control over myself and
start to move . so the coming year is going to be hard and dont know when
things will change and when i can get back to my normal mode.
Lots of people to remember from this year without them this year wouldnt
be complete. Few people gave the worst things they can give to anyone
to make my year :) Thank u guys ! you made my year and i ll remember you .
Life never hit me this hard before and i was down before i could realise
what had happened. 2012 is going to be the continuation of 2011 in many
ways n lets see what happens.
"Every stone cant be named in this world"
-sivasankar.
Few stones helps u and holds u to get high and few stones make u to slip .
But the reality is stones cant be named under a general category like this,
few stones which slipped u once can help u in other way and the stones the
helped u ,can make u go high and finally pull off to give a fall from which u
can never rise. So are people in life , Good and bad are never permanent.
People good to you may turn out to be the worst predators u ve ever seen
and people u thought who r bad gives a shoulder when u r left alone to rot.
The thing i learned or realised this year are that everyone cant be
explained under a relationships .Few things cant be defined and better dont
go to define just live with them like neighbors . Relationships are so
primitive with few characters ,you cant explain every person and every
person at every point of ur life under a relationship.
With lots of confusion and lots of issues to address the year ends and so the posts
with a low note :) Happy new year to u guys.
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