Love * PAUSE * Love ...

Before Five years :- ...
" now v both r in love n our heart s full of love , but later

when the situation changes v might fight n depart so ... "

she couldnt complete before that he kissed

her n told it ll never happen , v ll be the best lovers forever..

"every love starts like this n later waves of problems comes one after another

n at some point love breaks , so v must stick to a principle that is .. " again

interrupted with kisses ... ssshhh.. This ll take time , so the author ll explain what

s her principle or rule, meantime let them complete their romance ..

The rule s " when they get into a fight if someone says PAUSE they shud stop

everything n only when the person who says pause speaks first, the conversation

ll be continued "

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BEFORE 3 YEARS :-

HE = So what s ur pblm .. early morning u want to fight n spoil my day .

u r driving me nuts ... i dint put the dinner plate in basin yesterday .

ok whats in it .. i was tired like a bull n forgot .. is it a big pblm for

u .. u show no signs of what u were when v loved ...

SHE = *PAUSE *

HE = aaaaa [ as per rules he stops, his anger was running over his head , but

got to stick to the rule ]

SHE = [ she gasps for few mins n couldnt control ] come on what u r saying ?

i dont show love , Eh .. its who u ve changed , u treat me like a slave ,

wash the dry oily dishes one day then u ll know how diff it is. dont think

only u r struggling ... i'm double tired with office n housework .. still

u dont even want to move a single piece of stone ..and u say .

HE = * PAUSE *

( the conversation continued, even the PAUSE couldnt stop them )

HE = i dont ve the same love towards u anymore ...

SHE = i'm glad atlast u said the truth .. its a mutual feeling ..

HE = WTF ? u dont love me ..

[ they both got to closer n his anger could be seen over his throbbing forehead

pulsation ..] she sensed his anger n thought to say * PAUSE * but before that

he grabbed her like an animal n gave a kiss which she has never felt before, it was

the wildest thing she has felt ever , it was hurting n she wanted to say pause

but on the other hand she was also giving a pricking kiss which he

has never felt before ... since both their lips were working n none

of them could tell * pause * ..finally everything ended in bed . All their cat

fights where ending in bed ..

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PRESENT :-

He did the same thing, forgot to put his dinner plate in basin yesterday ..

HE = So what s ur pblm .. early morning u want to fight n spoil my day .

SHE = * PAUSE * [ then after few mins ] u think only i'm fighting each time

( it continued like everytime n bedroom door was waiting to be opened )

Now it has reached the Heat n soon its gonna happen ...

He grabbed her like an animal n at that time a THIRD VOICE entered the room

n said * PAUSE * n ran away .. They ve to stop everything bcos of their rule .

He sat over the sofa with perspiration n she went to kitchen n was emptying

tumbler after tumbler of water ... They both felt as if their nerves gonna burst..

.. slowly Their blood was washing away all the hormones ,

neurotransmitters from the periphery n the circulation got normalized.

The only thing they could do ( n the author too ) is to wait for their

3 yr old son to come back n speak ...

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The kid dint know anything about this n was happily playing *PAUSE *

game two streets away with another kid .


* THE PAUSE *

No Title ..

GTalk ...

Arun - are u aware of my existence ? means r u aware of what job i do online ?

Online friend - yes .. i am aware . i ve heard..

Arun - can u please tell me what u ve heard ..:)

O F - u r doing a job which is a CLASSIFIED ..

Arun - ah ..even my coll frens couldn't ve told better :) :) ..

then r u aware of the Nickname given by my frens in clg .. ? :)

O F - yes .. iam aware ..

Arun - pls continue what u heard :)

O F - They call u " ABOVE 40 ARUNKUMAR "

Arun - Precisely :) :) ... and i prefer to be called above 40 arunkumar rather

than silky or other nick names bcos i Earned that name .. n i love it .

:) :) :)

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THE DIFFERENCE what i ve observed so far...

--> when lover's sit in restaurant they always sit opposite

but married couples mostly sit by side .. I think during love they

are so keen in looking into each others eyes n after marriage they sit

by side to keep both their hearts as close as possible.

--> when i see someone speaking to their gal frens in mobile always

their lips arch towards ears n there ll be increase in flesh over the cheeks

n eyes roaming in all direction.But when a married guy speaks over phone he

keeps a tight lips , fixed eyes mostly facing down , no expressions , plain voice

n words so short as if each word costs.. y is this change ? mmm vil tell u after '

marriage..

But really u want to know how to speak to a gal ..listen to ganapathy when he

speaks .. his voice modulation, his usage of phrases , his proun of vowels , he

stresses some words to make it sink at the other end of the phone , frequent usage of

bluffs like " ha ha ha " " cha cha sollu " " appuram " etc etc.. I ve seen lots

of people who ride bike with mobile but he s the only one who types sms

n ride the bike .. I think he wont change after marriage like above and i dont

think he ll stop making GF s after marriage too ..

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HOW MANY is the question that never leave us ..

when v r kids - How many toys u ve ?

In primary school - How many video games u ve ?

In High school - How many BF's u ve ?

In college - How many GF's u ve ?

After marriage - How many children u ve ?

After divorce - How many affairs u had ?

Old age - How many tablets u ve daily ?

Very old age - [ thats the only time v ask ]

How many more days i'm gonna live ?
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Making Love ....

DINNER TABLE

" are u sure u dont want anything ? ve atleast a cup of coffee.." he asked

"Nope " she replied with a smile . After dinner he went to drop her in

room n at the gates he couldnt resist, he just dragged his eyes down n

saw her Neck line,moonlight was falling on her n

creating a shadow on her neckline ...

she caught his eyes ..
He
" moonlight turns even the most civilised men into PRIMITIVE "


she smiles within lips " today u see me like a school boy :) " ... Although they have speaked about this for hours casually before they still felt a coldness inside ... Finally they decided to GO !! Ahead this time ..

They both entered her bedroom n fell in bed.. he found the surrounding
nostalgic and a sense of fear was gripping him but he convinced his Instinct
by saying it happens to everyone when they do for the first time ..Still the moon was looking at them without any curiosity about whats going to happen .. He heard some wierd noise around the street ..

Now he turned her and was ready to do for what they were born...

Slowly he started to unveil her neckline which the moonlight shadow made him not to see before ... At the Heat of the moment he received a sms

" Hi buddy , will be late by 2 hrs, got a work will see u after that :)" ...

He got a whiplash , she ll be late ah ? then who is the one under her skin now with me in bed ...

He wanted to think, today

- she dint eat with him

- she was extremely Beautiful under moonlight

- she s unusually cold

- her eyes are of diff colour ...

He wanted to make a conclusion that the one now with him is a VAMPIRE ....

He wanted to cry out , he wanted to run amok ...

but before that she started to HUG HIM n KISS HIS NECK ....



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NEXT MORNING :

He woke up n thought the same stupid question every human

asks after an accident or attack " where am I ? " ..He found himself in the same

bed , now its day but sun rays couldnt cross the dark curtain n enter the room so it

was forming a thin frame of the window around the curtain .. He found his hands

pale n lips dry , doubting was he still a human .. But he was still a human with all

pain senses intact .. he sighed with relief n found her sleeping under

his skin . He kissed her forehead n slapped his mobile cursing

" BSNL msgs always deliver late , that must be a msg sent afternoon by her n

delivered to me midnight .. bsnl sucks " ..

He got dressed n whispered in her ears " Its day "

she moaned "i hate sunlight " he smiled thinking about the last night ...

Then he kept two i - Pill tablets [ levanorgestrol] n asked her to take one

immediately n other tab after 12 hrs..

He said byees n left the room .. After sometime she got up

confirming he left the room n pulled the Drapes of the Room Curtain allowing

sun rays to fill the room ... now she was standing under sunlight with

Clawed nails , Two long Canine teeth reaching the chin , with hairs all over the

body , Blood Thirsty Eyes , bulging muscle of a Predator ...


What he dint know was she was a " VEGETARIAN VAMPIRE "




*** THE END ***

Religion ... Love.

We belong to one of the two religion, JEW or CHRISTIAN ...

Christian are those who found their LOVE or love has descended on them ...

Jew are those people still waiting for Love to reach their world ;( ....

so who am i ??

I 'm still a JEW ... obviously.



I used to get confused at times , which is better ...


one time i used to think being

alone is so peaceful n no need to portray us by any means .. other time [ like

when i'm so happy or sad ] i used to think it would be nice if v ve one .

still i'm confused n as usual when i get confused sleep comes n saves me ..

ya feeling sleepy , gonna sleep ..


p.s : My shortest post , great !! i always explain or tell things in long prose , wanted to change it n be more precise . TWITTER is helping a lot to reduce my word output /post .

ME - SHE TALK FAILS ( once again )

ME - SHE TALK FAILS


LOCATION : CLASSIFIED

DURATION : 45 MINS

SUBJECT : DIPLOMATIC ISSUES .. !!


[ NO JOINT STATEMENT DICTATED TO MEDIA ]

REPORTED BY SOURCES ...

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Broke up with my friend 6 months ago due to serious misunderstandings ...

now again we got to be in same unit in postings with hard face off...

somehow we managed for 5 weeeks in posting by avoiding each others gaze,

irritating each other by all means . If we wanna ask anything we just use a

mediator in unit , if i wanna scold her i used to scold indirectly my kid sis in

unit [ later my kid sis ll spit back me in 3 languages ;) never mind it ]

while taking cases i wont be near n vice versa ... I wont used to speak with other

unit mates or do anything in unit ( mutually all the 4 in unit doesnt go well with

me n i do the same ) ..

Initially she was thinking she got good control over unit n was

very amused to ve a incredible support from others in unit except me ...

At first it was all going her way like she would speak to prof regarding what

case to take , what to do in unit , arranging teaching annexe etc etc .. but with

weeks passed she was getting pissed that she got to do everything in unit.The

GREATEST DIFF SHE DIDNT UNDERSTAND IS SURGERY IS NOT LIKE

MEDICINE DEPARTMENT , here in surgery noone teaches seriously or

clinically everything is just book version so v get bored easily ---

on the other hand i knew this already n was spending time leisurely without

any tension of shifting , taking , or presenting case .. so now she started to

grumble that i'm not doing anything i n unit this n that , but no one wanted to

raise the issue with me n n0 one can blame me , bcos they took the responsibility.

so she setup the meeting with me .....

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HIGHLIGHTS IN THE MEET -

- she was prepared for the meet already n i knew it in last minute only

but it doesnt makes any diff [ i dont need time to prepare for a speech ;) LOL]

- she started by explaining that she started to speak today in wards bcos

she dont want both us looking like enemies in wards


- usually i would be speaking a lot , but this time i was listening in light

mood bcos that day i was in a happier mood ...

inital few minutes were serious like who s doing wrong this n that ...


- then i started to speak with my own arguements .. then she told i dont want

to fight n all... she told she want to be just CLASSMATES
[ nothing more than that ]






ok then we decided to be diplomatic , like...

how to be from now ... i told we shall speak till in wards when necessary

then go away without any fights, she asked after wards

what s our position ?

i replied u in your way n me in mine ....

- i thought the deal would be impressive but there came a topic whether we can

be friends again ?...

THE HEAT TURNED ON...




- both started to argue furiously , her allegations were too hard

n gave me the impression that i'm the reason for all this ,

she told " u just say v shall break n go , u dont mind anything , u just dont

understand me , u r too immature , etc etc "

- then she also added u havent changed after all this time still u r like

what u were ... so i cant trust u i cant be a friend to what u r now , if we wanna

be friends u got to change [------ ] she told few things to change , then added

so first u change these things then i need some time to think then if possible

v shall be friends !!!!!

WHOOO ah !!!! [ i was glas she completed ]

- then i started my points , i dont want to take it too long so i just told ...

" what u r saying is right!! i'm too immature n i dont think i can change so we

cant be friends its not possible "

" so like u say we shall just be CLASSMATES "

she finally told me she has changed a lot in this 6 months n she s

not like what i think ,she s now too steady n mature ..

I started walking saying " ya. u ve changed a lot " with the mocked smile

she too started walking without understanding my sarcasm as usual ....


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MY ANALYSIS OF THE MEET -



- the meet was nothing but stupidity

- both havent forgotten the past between us ..

- the speech was always going without any direction n i felt a bit amateurish

- i was pretty sure she hasnt changed ..

- i dont think we can be friends again ...

- she remembers everything that can be pointed out as i was wrong

- she imitates my kid sister a lot n wanna show herself as bubbley

by nature , i hate seeing that in her [ have your own identity ]

- she thinks she can disappoint me by doing certain things in unit ,god pls

tell her i'm a not that stero type stupids ...

- then finally i'm not that much angry with her now !!!

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but the meet failed without any diplomatic understandings.

Eventhough she want to be like class mates i still havent made my first move

to recognise or neither she has given up her ego to be as classmates ..

The only thing i did mature is when she told we shall be just classmates

i almost asked " does it include messaging n calling " good lord ! i got my

senses back n rolled back my tongue without asking anything stupid


so the news is THE MEET FAILED .



p.s - just after this i thought even two persons cant come to a same understanding

in a meet , then how the hell we except two nations to settle on a issue with a

meet .. Thats y v are still speaking border isssue after 60 yrs of independence.


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UPDATE -

After i got 3 rd prize in diabetic quiz she called me , for telling

CONGRATS ! so where were we now ??....

in the middle of the conversation ..

in the middle of the conversation



She : if hitler has seen Eva Braun before WW II the war could be prevented ..

Ganapathy : huh... ya ,, he would ve distracted from his national
(Gany) duty n started to write poems ....:)

She : no no, not like that he would have started to like
pen instead of pistols ,
flowers instead of grenades , he would chasing
butterflies instead of jews ;
there would been no Holocaust , ghetto or Auspitz ...

Gany : mmm.. hmmm , in addition hitler would ve lost
his nation to Allies before War ..;)

She : not like that da ... she would ve taught him love n peace

Gany : shhh...come on do u think a single women could ve
changed the course of war or persons life ...

She : what do u mean then ? when u proposed u told i
created a change in you n u wanted to change
forever holding my arms ...but now u say
as if a women can influence nothing in a guys life ?
so u tried to cheat or what ..?

Gany : nothing like that bunny ;, why to compare hitler
with our issue .. v shall leave that topic ...

She : No i cant , u better make it clear...

Gany : ok. ok see what i told was not about Guys commonly
i just meant aboutHitler alone ...n ok i agree with u ,
WW II would been prevented if Hitler
have seen Eva Braun before war n fallen in Love ... ok

She : no i' not convinced ..!!!

Gany : see .. I dont want to do Hitler's mistake thats why
I started to Love you

Before INDO- CHINA war... trust me ...

She :
[ she couldnt pretend her anger anymore n her smile travelled n filled

her Dimple , bcos of her smile her ears started to lift a bit n her face

was glooming like a butterfly ...:) ]




Gany : [ he guessed what is happening on the other side n told]

LOVE YOU ...

She : Me Too... good night ...

[ she winks at the moon n the moon winks at him]

with this the microwave transmission across the BSNL n Vodafone Towers ends n

he receives a message ...

" cost for last call

is 56.30 rupees n the

balance in your mobile is

2.o5 rupees , your validity

expires on 13th nov 2009. "

Diabetic Quiz...

PRE- SCRIPT :

The following content is written in a weird mood of Happiness ,
self arrogance and self pride .. so better skip this topic .


being a movie buff i used to watch Al Pacino , Robert Deniro kinda crime , drug , mafia movies ... for a change i saw this movie 2 months back n was stuck with its storyline... I'm not gonna write the story just the reference part

Goodwill doesnt gets commited anything to life - Prof robin atlast tells the reason for it

" U dont compete , bcos of fear of failure
U Dont love anyone , bcos of fear that i might hurt u oneday
Like is everything in life"

This part suit most of us in our life .. V just say v got no interset or v tell ourselves
we are Hypercool guys or V r freaks etc etc but the real reason for not competing
anything in Life is FEAR- we are afraid we might lose , so we just mask this with
above said lack or this n that...

After seeing this movie i realised Why i'm like this in my college .. so after seeing this movie i wanted to participate something n see how i face failure ...

It came in the form of

DIABETIC QUIZ

ON

WORLD DIABETES DAY ..

The quiz had preliminary rounds n then finals , participants can be from Final yr
n House surgeons .. To everyone's surprise i gave my name for prelim..
[ Note : I havent participated in any quiz for past two decades ] .. When i went to attend the preliminary round many gave a mocked smile "what this guy doing here " bcos i'm final yr n more over i dont step near anything related to academic activities in clg ,...

The twist was i got selected for Final round of quiz ,n you know what ? I was the only team that got selected from final yr , rest were House surgeons ... It was great success to me after all this yrs in clg . So i got satisfied with this thinking i still got the Firing neurons alive , i had no mind to prepare for finals, when the
Slight controversy took up - some gals openly claimed that its impossible for him to get selected for final , there must be some malpractice ...

Dare gals you point your gun towards me - my firing neurons aroused once again n decided i ll take one of the prize in final quiz no matter all other teams were House surgeons ... [ i decided to get down fighting ]

Final quiz day came n i did a fair job n won third prize answering indirectly that i was the right choice selected from preliminary round among final yrs .

I'm happy to the core not because of winning , i'm happy because i ve found myself in me ....

My Thanks n half of this pride goes to my friend n quiz partner Vijayaraj...
Those who doubted our slection ve witnessed our success in open podium;

IT CANT BE BETTER THAN THIS ....

P.s :
I know i'm arrogant in this post , but i dont wanna pretend as if i'm so humble , they made me furious n i ve replied to it ...


Got a Certificate and a Cash Prize:)








Again It cant be better than this ....:)

LOVE and FRIEND

The two words make life beautiful but when they both meet ...

Ganapathy - friend - pravin

Ganapathy - ? - SHE - ? - Pravin.

Both like her n want her , thats were friendship n love meets n complicates things .

Poor her , her position is like one foot in ditch n other in soil .

she s helpless n couldnt make a decision , so i tried to help her out . ..



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So my part continues here, [ means i'm explaining her ]

" see both r bad no doubt in it , bcos i know them for years . THe option s to pick
better of the two .



First about ganapathy

1. ur not the only gal he spends time

2. he can live with any gal

3. he s too thin so u cant expect him to lift u sing songs for u ..

4. he wont take u out in two wheeler , bcos always aibo ll be in his back seat
so in future u might think aibo as bear in shiva pooja

5. even midnight he ll be only messaging , u cant expect anything more
from him

6. if u go out to dinner with him ,its just awaste of time bcos hardly he ll eat for
3 mins so u cant ve any conversation with him.

7 . if ur vintage kinetic honda struggles to start in rain u cant ask him to kick
start or push n come ..

8 . u cant introduce ur friends to him, its to risky ;)

9. If u select him , arul ll also come n speak to u .Like 20g free with 100g tooth
paste , so u gotta use that 20g free arul also..!!!

10. Only good thing to select him is he ll give 65rs Amritha gifts often ...

on other hand , about Pravin

1. one of the dumbest human being in ur locality ..

2. He always keeps a distance from u , its not due to shy , its bcos he wants
Love to fill in the gap between u n him..

3. he can live even with ur photograph for life ...

4.He never minds even when u do mistake like when u mispronounce his name

as paveen kumar ; he smiles to it saying she s still a kid n so speaks in

kid's slang .

5. just for ur one word he ll do anything, like wash his multicreature shit
loaded bike when u want to look the bike clean..

6. got 50 gb ----- in Hard disk , so ll entertain u in all ways ;)

7 . got cowboy friends arun n pranesh , ll fool them easily n spend all
time with you ..

8. He ll eat for an hour , so going out with him ll make u feel excited.

9. A good poet , ll make u immortal through his lines like


" you know why Friday Gods are decorated ?

bcos she comes to temple on friday !!! "


" she told she hugs teddy bear n sleep everyday

I asked could the teddy bear close its eyes after seeing u ?"



10 . Moreover tomorrow his b'day so if u select him he ll give Oc treat , ..


so if u ask me, whom u want to select i would say better dont select both of them ...



cheers ...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRAVIN KUMAR [ KUCHI]

Final Msg :

Pravin dont feel noone loves u , bcos might be ur future Wife s

praying so strongly that u should be for her alone, forever !!!! LOL

LOVE SICK

SHE : huh !! what on earth made u to do that??
why on earth u told to me ?

ganapathy : I was not on earth when i told it to u :) you want me to say again..

she : enough i'm sick of it , i'm sick hearing ur dialogues. stop it .

ganapathy : u know what a toll it took for me to tell that??

she : y me then ???

ganapathy : bcos i love you :)

she : see ... u got

[ before she could complete he pushes her against a wall and locks the two sides with his hand , she resists but unable to move ... he moves his face close to her ... she could feel his warm breadth - she was feeling lighter , she was lifting herself up, all her blood was rushing towards her cheek , ok she s now ready to go - she made her move near him ; suddenly he went back saying " u know i'm looking so beautifull in your EYEs "

she was taken by suprise , but somehow regained her composure and gave a thin smile just ending within lips .... he started to move n she was watching him till the end of the corridor .. ]


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ganapathy's poem for her

" i see ur image all over sky ,

but i cant touch it.

i smell ur fragrance in my mind

but only fragrance is not LIFE "

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p.s - After the sad last post , i want to cheer up myself , thats y a romantic part about our romantic guy.

Where Am I ??

....complete darkness , its so dark than the dark. I can see nothing inside , i felt hostile and wanna get out of it but i insist to go on... For a while it was so silent , i kept my hand near ears to hear any sound .
I could hear Nothing not even whistling sound of the breeze , it struck later the place i'm now has no air - the space is VACCUM . I started to fear whether this is Hell??

just waited for something to happen ... not suddenly , slowly i started to see rays of light dispersing and taking forms to be precise irregular forms . It was not continuous just flickering of images n sound ... I started to focus on images and made out some images like

- i'm smiling with friends

- hear a music track probably Raja's songs

- a gal comes into view , its glaring so i shrink my eyes n see it again "oh god" its her how she s hear ?? i never knew she s here , i thought she left long before

- a group of people stand there staring at me , i went close n saw - they were all people
who i hate on earth

-i see myself now , i'm looking good at 50 a bit bald but still fit with stiff shoulders n ordering men

- then i see hitler , achilles , alexander all standing near to one another

- then all Hollywood celebrity smiling at me

- ah ! there stands actress sridevi , she s still young there

- on the other side all my friends r sitting together n chatting

- lots of books and lots of schedule written here n there of what to be done

- Now hear lots of bad words ; a voice s scolding me for being lazy , not even moving single page a day , the voice questions my confidence n whether i got any brains after all ...

I cant take more - i hit back the Voice by saying FUCKING RETARD ! FUCK YOURSELF ..

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Now i'm back to this world . Shit ! thought to attempt to know what is in our mind n went inside ,,, che thu .... its a fucking worst place than outside , no happiness there too....

AS final yr mbbs exams r nearing i find all the places are making me uncomfortable ... I say many times a day that everyone has changed , noone minds others , my friends all are living in their own island so n so.... i am obviously stressing myself , urging myself to change ..

Every day i woke up saying today i must change- but i dont know what to change in me and where to change .... Just pushing me to the saddest part of my mind .
I feel everything unreal -
i 'm sad without any reasons ,
i'm dejected without cause
i feel hurt without any failure or relationship break up ....

suddenly i get a feel that i must start a New Life . Even now i dont know how to complete this post - may be i'm .. mm ... donno what i'm now ....

i dont even want to post this post ,a bit awkward feel ... ANyway .

P.s : the only thing i find interesting now -a -days is chatting with my lost school friend ,means studied in school - lost contact - found after 5 yrs , nice to chat with that friend , have a lots of distance between us , not easy to meet , so very exciting to chat with , also not a medico so again a relief to speak something other than my subject n listen to . .

p.p.s That friend is SHE enough ; go to sleep .

TAG

FOund this tag interesting ...

Here are the rules:

RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

RULE 3
Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag to your friends to answer this.

So here I give my answers :

Asked someone to marry you? Guilty.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent.

Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent.

Ever told a lie? Guilty.

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back? Guilty.

Kissed a picture? Innocent .

Slept in until 5 PM? Innocent.

Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty.

Held a snake? Innocent.

Been suspended from school? Guilty.

Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent.

Stolen from a store? Innocent.

Been fired from a some routine job? Guilty.

Done something you regret? Guilty.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Guilty.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Innocent.

Kissed in the rain? Innocent.

Sat on a roof top? Guilty.

Kissed someone you shouldn’t? Innocent

Sang in the shower? Guilty.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Innocent.

Shaved your head? Innocent .

Had a boxing membership? Innocent.

Made a girlfriend cry? Guilty.

Been in a band? Innocent.

Shot a gun? Innocent

Donated Blood? Innocent.

Eaten cheesecake? Innocent.

Still love someone you shouldn’t? Innocent.

Have/had a tattoo? Innocent.

Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty.

Been too honest? Guilty.

Ruined a surprise? Guilty.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards? Guilty.

Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)? Innocent.

Joined a pageant? Innocent.

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said? Innocent.

Had communication with your ex? Innocent.

Got totally drunk on the night before exam? Innocent

Got totally angry that you cried so hard? Innocent.


Arun give a try da...

Out of Medicine ...

Twelve weeks of medicine posting is over once for all ... It was Hectic but at late stage i started to enjoy it, it kept me busy 7.30 op , 10 .00 wards , 1.00 Theory class . Life was moving like a time table . Now its over and i still have its withdrawal effects , day seems very boring in Skin and STD department .

Being in first unit medicine is considered prestigious in our college , i'm glad i was posted in first unit . Only in first unit wearing a name badge is compulsory . Everything was methodical n systematic in first unit , as general rule i never fit in systems ;) so struggled a bit and moved in a pace to match others although i was not completely committed to it. Anyway its a happy Ending and i have no regrets with the unit or unitmates ... Though there were small medium misunderstandings within our unit ( 8 members) neither of us were interested in making it a big deal.

sooooo .... getting to relax now ( was relaxing in medicine also, but now without any guilty of wasting time) ... here comes the things which moved n got pissed me in unit ...

MOVED

1. The sincerity of the Department in teaching us , really inspiring .

2. vijayaraj ,my best friend was always by my side for three months in same unit , we both dint have such a long time together after First yr Dissection table .

3. fourth unit chief , the way he taught CNS .

4. DR.Rathnakumar.M.D - a man of fire , i ve never seen anyone such sincere in profession ,
i really admired the effort he took to teach us , the depth of his knowledge in subject was immense. The only thing i thought about him is HE IS TOO MUCH QUALIFIED for this job,
although many doesnt like him , i would say the sole reason is mere FRUSTRATION because of his knowledge n not able to be in his unit. He is also rather kind but you wont agree .

vijayaraj used to say this sir is an inspiration for how we must be in our future medicine profession. he really liked him.

PISSED

1. Got to attend two seminars both were long long narration about disease with incidence less than 0.1% , we cant leave the auditorium in middle so got suffered in those VERBAL DIARRHOEAS

2. got to attend a CME programme again the same thing what they do in US , UK - god i havent completed the line of treatment in india but they speak about intercontinental treatment ...

3. Unit gals , especially two made us really sick , dint co-operate with any things ( missed ganapathy if he has been with us he would ve brought the co-operation with his gimmick trick of attracting gals )

one gal in that pretended like hell , she has got a tag line " she never speaks to guys . she got no interest over guys , this n that " to prove her self tagline she doesnt tells even a essential details to us like about case for tomorrow , or findings . i personally knew that she speaks well to two guys in her old unit n make treats n fun with them , even she has been seen dinning with them n all , i dont complain about it n ve no pblm in it , my question is why the hell she pretends before us n in college to ve a name based on her tag line . Noone minds what others do or to whom we speak then why r u wearing a mask ? u r a damm fool.

The reason why i'm scolding her here s she happens to my kid sis's friend n once when i made strong comment against her my kid sis started to fire against me so i found this place would be safer :)

Then i had good time with vysakha , subramani, ramachandar...



so for now medicine is over with all fun n thrill now moving into surgery were i'm going to meet all my old rivals 6 member unit including me , 3 wont speak to me so that leaves 2 , one in that two is my kid sis n she ll be serious in unit n wont speak often , that leaves only one to speak , who is that one ;) ? It doesnt matter . Go on !!!

Time to da TAG...

Tagged by Arun,

About the TAG:The idea is, to list five items in each category and not necessarily in order of liking. You can always add or subtract categories according to your will. Then tag five people.

My five favorite words :

1. Mayeeru ( hair) - though not a parliamentary word i use it always
to express my excitement, frustration n
possibly all moods.

2. ok - i use it with a deep expiration to end the conversation .

3. che - dont know how i got used to it, not able to get rid of it.

4. best - use this to annoy my friend's situation when they get fired in wards.

5. see you - i like this word so much , i even say ' see u' to strangers after a conversation
i feel it as a word of respect to them.

My five favorite celebrity crushes:


1. sri devi - ( before the cosmetic nose surgery )

2. angelina julie - her lips , my god! ( sorry pitt)

3. Ana Ivanovic - ( u r the best forehand winner in women's tennis, get back to the rhythm)

4. penelope cruz

5. jennifer connelly


My five favorite random things:

1. Toothbrush - just love brushing , i was a left hander n was forced to write n do all things in right , but i brush with left hand, the only thing my parents didnt note when i was a kid, so got only
one event to prove i'm a left hander .

2. Mirror - spend lots of time combing my hair n desperately pluck my mustache
hoping soon it ll get thick n wide.

3. Purse - heavy purse to be clear, always ll fill my purse with coins , i like my purse
to be heavier.

4. chain - that chain was given by my Grand pa when i was born , still wearing
it n love biting it , when i'm alone or feel alone.

5. Horse - never had a ride , but like to see it ( i ve seen only twice, that
too it was a bit like brother donkey,
dream lots about How Alexander won the whole world with Bucephlaos )


My Five Favourite Literary Characters :

1. Margret - from Scarlett Pimpernel

2. Edmond Dantes - from The Count of Monte Cristo

3. Jackal - from The Day oF Jackal

4. Catherine blake - from The Unlikely Spy.

5. Gabreil Allon - from The Kill Artist.


My Five Favourite Movie Characters :

1. Micheal corelone - from THE GODFATHER

2. Vito Corelone - from THE GODFATHER

3. Col. Frank Slade - from The Scent oF Woman.

4. Achilles - from Troy

5. Surya - from Thallapathi ...




thats all ... I made it .

My First Attempt ...

Thought to do Arun's tag , but suddenly it striked why shouldn't i try new things , whatever crap it may be but its my space :)



MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Hikoo...

" ... my life is a poem

but i'm not a poet "

p.s - actually what i want to mean is , i feel my life as a poem but i dont have the
complete control over it like apart from my Autonomous nervous
system other things dont go as my wish , my mind , my thoughts ,
my likings are going in its own direction . .


MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Story


I loved her, she didn't love me .

Prologue- what to do ? if she had loved me back i could ve written romanctic poems, lines , conversations , cat fights etc etc, n there might been a villain too ... but she dint love so thats all . But its a complete story by all means no loop holes..

p.s- first story with prologue longer than story .




MY FIRST ATTEMPT in Acrostics

G - girls like him and

A - always want him

N- near them , not that he is the sexiest

A - and romantic

P - person in the world , but girls want

A- all the sexiest guys in the world

T - to look like

H - him, you may wonder

Y - y? , thats life , it doesnt give the answer to all questions...

p.s - ganapathy my college friend , deserves each word in it. i havent seen
Romeo, Anthonio, hamlet or Paris , but i ve seen ganapathy- our college
romeo. You deserve more than this man...


then i dont ve any new attempts , will come back soon with MY SECOND ATTEMPTS ...

god take me to hell ...

What am i , cha i should ve never done this !!! God take me n arun to hell .


Being a friend how come i do this , how can i console his sadness , he s frying in frustration there ,

his dry sorrow's drinking all his blood , he is melting with disgust ,
he s dying of loneliness ,

" spilled rice could be picked but

Spilled words in anger cant "


ah ! how true the words of tamil poet . When i think that i'm one of the reason for this, i dont even want to see my face in mirror .




Before explaining the incidence let me give intro about them ,

he s ganapathy my good friend ( not anymore after my stupid act)

she well known as M***.. ..

they both , they both , they both ... guys i need not explain there s only one possibility to guess between them .. ya. u r ryt ?

Everyone envy them , they made together well , i was very proud of him while others say "how he got that girl,

"she was like a sacred apple only for god "



They were always together with their sms , smiles , Ladies hostel gate meetings
[which he used to joke as his gateway of india ]... he even became
a poet after seeing her , one of his poems

" when she sees me i feel

her eyes as a pair of black disc

Revolving around singing a song

which only i Hear- Bethoven symphony"



Now the incident ( the following things r true to each word )

During noon class one day he dint come , while me n arun was chatting
we found M*** was messaging someone with full of smiles n shyness.

its a usual thing n well kown to everyone bcos ganapathy n M**** ll be always messaging in class . Guys used to watch it as a wimbledon match turning both sides .. like first he ll typing with smiles n we used to watch him , then after pressing SEND button that side M**** ll stop taking notes n start to msg with smile ...
it goes goes like FedEX- Nadal final match in wimbledon sunday. always the rallies ll be very long !!!.

That day while she was messaging , i sms-ed him where r u ? n r u messaging her ? [ i'm a dumb to ask this which started everything ]

He replied " no, i'm not messaging her" .

My part is over with this but me n arun ve done enough to start a World War
between them ...

That evening as usual she messaged her without knowing what s going to happen ...

M : hi pa ,y u dint come to class huh ?

G : no specific reason , u missed me ?

M : ( with smile ) no no , just was doing another work ( with a kidding smiley) .

G : ( controlled his last cm of temper ) oh. what work may i know ??

M : n0 way ! just was in a romantic mood so so.. mmmhmm wont tell what
i was doing ....

G : ok. where u messaging in class today ?

M : god ! u some nostredam , how u guessed it ? great pa, but i wont tell
any detail about it

G: no need , its obvious from the way u msg now ...

M : i dont get u , what u mean ?

( he dint mean to ask it , but his possessiveness overtook his sense )

G : u found another guy ?

( poisonous words which spread like venom in her , she was shattered ,

she simply couldnt breathe but somehow replied him )

M : ur word s dissecting me alive ... a relationship without
Trust s worth nothing.
Good bye once for all .

( she throw ed the mobile n fell in tears ) ...


They both didnt know god s playing this game ... The Truth s He s very concerned for her , his endless affection for her just made him turn blind for few seconds within which all damages ve be done ...

She was actually messaging VODAFONE for activation of tunes which they can hear while speaking to their liked ones , she wanted to keep it a suprise
for him , but now everything s gone ....

Me n Arun were used as toys by God for this act ... sometimes god is cruel.

May be its true " she s a sacred apple for god " so god did this to separate them .

Now he still cant make his mind clear has changed his orkut status msg as

"am NOT weak.. u dont know LOVE n Frenship ... i feel sorry for u "

evethough he reflects his anger towards her in orkut , he cant still realise

what is deep inside his heart - its only HER..


( if u dont beleive , go n read his status msg in orkut ) ..

When ll they dance together ....



When ll they see the sunrise together ...

.... its upto god to decide .

6weeks of life ...

Six weeks over am still Breathing... final yr medicine posting s considered as one
of the toughest in career . out of 12weeks i ve completed first half n the Internal assessment
...
Actually i dint find it very difficult as i expected (thanks to my friend's worthy !! advice how
to get accustomed to it) ... The thing i felt difficult s reaching hosp 7.30, standing in wards , so n so
small small physical strain.

I made myself clear before postin that i cant complete all medicine books or know every
word in medicine , i'm moving at my own pace, never minding what others think about me ..

My achievments in 6 weeks.;

1. i havent answered a single question in op ( only once i was questioned in entire 6weeks)

2. i dint change any of my schedule - saw eng movies, went to theatre, played
cricket , went for night treats, went long long distance dinner .

3. i slept more than usual ...

4 . i'm not going noon classes, got used to post-prandial sleep (enjoying the
sleep as a result of splanchinic vasodilatation)

serious part ..

5. i'm less talkative , i see the difference in me . I hate those serious faces
around me discussing subjects , so keep mum , also constant torture from kid sister saying
i dont behave mature enough, i'm never serious etc, etc, so just reduced my overflowing speech.
seriously i dont know how to behave serious , she wont understand so just keep tough
face at times and pretend i'm serious ....

thats all nothing more ...

Then about my unit ...

My unit s a bit brainy unit , so naturally i got to suffer between them. At first
i cant even follow them , even at times i used to guess what language they speak ...
Even while examing i dont hear what they hear with steth. And am poor in differentiating
the heart murmurs ...

so i play a tactic in unit , when reading about a disease i ll search n read a Rare n rarest
sign, next day while examining i ask whether this sign present or not , just love !!to see their
blinking eyes with self questioning themself .

Eg. i asked one day whether Tansoyl's sign present while examining Liver in Cirrhosis patient . ( actually its a simple test , just need a inch tape to do it , just the word is unheard)
These r my small small things i do to survive in unit ...

The most convincing part came this week in First Unit wards, while taking class sir
told all these murmur r nothing usefull in ur life after passing final yr mbbs unless u take cardio.
I exhaled with great relief " oh god i will escape soon "

Logic fact for this is :- Before 30 yrs to pass mbbs u must know everything about syphilis ,

at present to pass mbbs u must know everything about Rheumatic fever n heart disease.

Eventually the incidence of new cases of rheumatic fever s drastically reduced after

introduction of appropriate antibiotic treatment . .

Anyway first unit medicine is a different experience , just one week over, so
ll write about it in separate post after 6weeks. .


The toughest question came during I.A when my chief asked

what speciality u going to take after mbbs ?

I blinked for a longtime n then answered i havent decided yet sir ,
that day i was very embarrased n thought he could ve asked a toughest question in subject instead.
still i got no answer for it , when i think about it i feel really bad so stopped thinking about it. . .
I even know what my friends going to take like

Arunkumar - Radiologist [ MD,DMRD]

Vijayaraj - ENT [MS]

Ganapathy - MS [ general surgeon ]

Henithraj - MD [ anaesthesia ]



then how come i dont know what i'm
interested in ... ok right now i'm not interested in this topic , goin to sleep ..

she s my... PART II

saw her when i was 17 ( read older post she s my ... ) studied in same school , liked her , couldnt
tell her , she went , i went, years passed n after 41/2 years i met her again.



the moment i recognised its her as expected i became wordless , but not this time ,
i recovered quick n thought a way to speak to her . But she was with her mom n she dint she me , so it ll be odd to go n introduce myself, after all i havent spoke a word to her in two years school life . i told this to praveen when he started the bike , suddenly he stopped n told

" if u miss this chance u may regret it for life , so better go n speak ", i resisted but he told
" ok i ll start the conversation n u continue " , ( antonio in my story )

the plan worked n i spoke to her for 2 mins , all formal , but still i the feel the excitement. Till this moment wat i wanted is to speak a few words to her , but after this my mind asking next i want with her is ... bullshit . stop it .. crazy mind.

all these years she havent changed a centi metre ,but she told me " u ve changed a lot , i couldnt recognise u easily"

thought to interupt n tell " ..... " but just left ...v both r 22 now n the fact of becoming
anything together s remote , she s a engineer n am going to be a doctor. she got her career i ve my own, i got her mobile no. but not gonna call or msg . i cant just pretend to be a friend to her via forw msg n goodnight .

I got only two option " to love her or leave her alone "

I preferred the second ll be good for her .

the funniest thing s the same week i went to a evergreen hit film which was again released after 13 years n crowd was limited to our finger count , when the famous dialogue came...




" first love if lost pricks like thorn throughout our life "

i clapped alone in the theatre.